I was kinda productive today. Prepped like 6 laptops, should have a few more also. Found out i dont have enough laptop batteries or ac adapters, and also that some of the batteries are broken. Gay. But i'm taking care of that tommorrow. I also dont have enough hard disks which sucks, but i'll live its not a big deal really. I went to fry's and best buy with connie. I almost bought a new ibm keyboard that is quiet to appease my roomate. But I am still doing research, though i'm pretty sure i'll end up getting an ibm since they are the quietest it seems. I also will need a usb hub so i'm looking for a nice looking one of those, i mean it should look nice right? When i got home i got to deal with more stuff that i really dont want to deal with. I kinda think sometimes that its kinda unfair that i have to deal with this, but maybe theres a reason for it, since i think it gives me that different experience . oh well.

You know after what just happened i think this is the worst Christmas i've ever had. The day itself only, Christmas eve was pretty good and the rest of break has been too. I just think that maybe i've had to deal with a lot more things than most guys have to deal with. I dont know, maybe its why i'm so calm, i've just had to deal with this for so long. Maybe its made me a lot stronger of a person, but its really sucked any emotion out of me. I just am not shocked by a lot of things that maybe should be shocking. I dontknow, things are tough, some things just dont work right i guess. and somehow I really think maybe i should feel worse, but i'm here typing on my webpage like nothing happened. I dont know sometimes it just feels like something out there is just working against you. I think you need to just relax and be calm and thats the best why to get through it and well that makes some people think i'm crazy but well i guess thats all i can do.

the one good part of my day was i went to jack in the box with jason. I also played some basketball at sur la brea, but this big guy came to play and i got kinda beat up, since he was really strong. Me and jason have been going to jack in the box on christmas day for like 3 days now. I dont know, it seems so common and all, but its one of those things that i like about christmas i guess. Chris came by and brought me some candles today and lighter. HAAHAHA . Like whenever i go to his house i play with his lighter and his candles, i'm a pyromaniac like that.

The other thing is that i am having a big party at my apartment on new years eve. I dont even know if i should drink anything there. Like for the past couple weeks i've had the thought in my mind about whether or not it was such a good idea and whether or not that type of thing really interested me anymore. My family has well.. a history regarding alcohol. Everyone can drink far more than a normal person and well some of the things it can do that i've seen with relatives , etc i just cant see there being anything good. I just dont wanna get caught up with that mess i guess. I wanna just try and be better than that. I guess i'll decide at the party if i'll really drink anything, i probably will still. I guess there is a time to do it and not. But anyways if you guys dont see me drink anything, then well you know why, its not because i dont like you guys. Also apparently my family gambles waaaay too much, so i hope i can control myself in vegas when i turn 21 should i go there. At least i learned how not to lose money on the stock market. Anyways my christmas day wasnt very happy but i'm used to disappointment, so i guess its not that bad.

The above chris loer probably cant read. haha. Anyways, today we had our annual Christmas party. Jason stopped by for like half an hour. This was the first time ever it was at a place besides my grandma's old house that my uncle owns now. I think it went pretty well, lots of people came, food was good, and people were generally not bored. I saw all of my cousins, well most of them, and well we started feeling kinda old. I mean a bunch of my cousins have jobs already, and girlfriends (unfortunately i am not one of the cousins that has one). I remember back in the day when was like 8 and i was one of the young kids playing nintendo and now its my cousin's joeseph and oliver who are playing gameboy , but my 22 year old equities trader cousin was also which was funny. But we just watched my cousin Jennifer's son Sammy walk around like the cute little guy he is. Man i'm old. It was a good Christmas though, just being there with family. I hope all of you who celebrate on the 25th instead of the 24th which is most of you (not us, since half the relatives are going to vegas) have as nice a Christmas as i did also.

My sister turns 13 tommorrow. i got her a nice birthday/xmas gift. yes i combined which is lame, but i got something really nice. I finished my xmas shopping today at the mall by myself. Matt pulled up lame, and didnt go. I saw a cute girl today at hot dog on a stick , if i had balls i'd have asked her to eat with me, but thats gutsy especially to random people and i'm not quite that crazy yet. She went into the arcade so maybe she was in high school, man its hard to tell asian girls ages apart. Well maybe just for me. After that i came home, and setup my spare set of speakers for my laptop at home. Works pretty well, i just have 2 speakers for my fps2000s at home, since i dont have anywhere to put the other 2. Man, now that i think of it, i could have given these away as a present since they are basically just rotting here. Tommorrow is my cousin Janet's house warming. free good food is always good. Christmas is soon, hope all of you like the gifts i am gonna or have given you.

Wellmy break seems to be going pretty well. i sold another 12 laptops. my dad's 53 inch TV (that i charged on my credit card for another $25 gift card!) came today. i hooked up the dvd player i bought them. its awesome, just the entire setup. I went xmas shopping with a friend this morning too, and got 2 more presents finished. so only connie is left actually. i had a hard time thinking if a present was right for her , like what i should get. maybe i should ask lynn or something. the other day we acted like little kids and played at rocketship park at 11pm. me randy and brian actually climbed in the rocket ship and went down the slide. matt didnt though, he's a party pooper. We went to the beach too, like basically cruised all over the south bay, and i'm ok with it since gas is super cheap now. anyways time to go to lord of the rings . matt got in the xmas spirit and is paying for me randy and brian. yay.

Well, yesterday was fun (friday, i havent slept yet, so its not really sunday haha). first off i'd like to say that the keyboard on my laptop is not very good. anyways, yesterda we went to this place called mishima and ate. it was pretty good. then we went kareoke after. that was fun. i got to sing my pathetic rendition of michael jackson's dont stop till you get enough (it was hard man really). and yes me and wayne did sing "freak me" a.k.a the song with the chorus that goes "i wanna like you up and down... till you say stop". but its by silk not r.kelly, only i would know since its such an obscure old group, but i happen to have the cd. oh yeah the other interesting thing was that we earlier had spend half an hour in the cold trying to figure out which unit wayne lived in. yes that was fun as well. i got to yell wayne 's name out loud a lot, and almost fell down the stairs since they were all wet still. we watched se7ven later, and that movie was good, but it was pretty sick. wayne's apartment looks a lot nicer and neater than mine. his roomate jason i think's room was well, so well decorated and arranged that its like a super pimp bachelor pad, either that or he's actually gay. i dont know, it was just too like ikea catalog like.

today i woke up at like 1 pm, and packed and went home to torrance. i went to matts and we went to best buy to buy my parents gift with my gift cards. unfortunately they werent enough so i spend like $180 dollars equivalent on their present. we saw shadi alem, when we were near good guys , she walked right by us. we didnt say anything though since she's a bitch. besides she goes to USC and that means she's beneath me. anyways, after that i had dinner, and then me and brian and matt went to get boba, but it wasnt as good as it used to be. then we drove around, until i decided we were gonna go back to westwood to get my check book. i guess no one cared so we did, but couldnt find parking to get cookies, so we ate at jack in the box. yes we drove to westwood to get jack in the box and my check book. and then i went home and opened my fun new sony mz-r900 that is brand new, and replaces my used one that i bought, that was kinda used up looking that i will sell now. yes i am crazy.

I bombed the EE2 final big time. OH wells. That was high stress the acne is going away already. Uh. i realized that i've been in america for 15 years now. I got here december 11th 1986. Cool huh. I guess everything else is cool with me, i got my math final on friday, and even though thats a hard class, the concepts are way more straight forward. And there is a review session and his tests are actually like his practice ones. So yeah thats cool. I guess nothing else is going on with me, i've kinda settled into a routine of eating, sleeping, chatting and doing nothing. I hope i have a nice winter break, gonna work out and hang out, thats my plan anyways, gotta dunk you know and not gain too much weight from all the food. I am feeling fairly rich right now (sold 27 laptops, passed $10K in sales, my dad says trust him on the split though, so uh yeah...) so i am gonna go xmas shopping still, gonna get all you bums some token gift. We should all go to emerald too or maybe i'll just pay for all yall as my gift and we'll go there for xmas. We're going for lunch though if i do that, as i am not sure just how rich i am besides i gotta pay off my car. Yes you heard it, i'm gonna pay my parents back for the part of the car they paid for. SO then it'll be ALL MINE!!i know that might seem crazy, some of you are probably like, why are you gonna do that, but it'll feel good somehow. Sure it'll still be under my dad's name for insurance purposes, but i'll feel good paying for it. Besides it was a good deal for what $8500 or so.

Well today i didnt do too much. i re-read like the last 60 pages or so of EE2 and i have a slightly better understanding now. I went and visited rieber and read in the lounge downstairs for a while. That and a i played basketball for about 3 hours in wooden with my friend jeremy.

The basketball thing was pretty cool, i played a lot of point guard, and i'm getting better at that. Not to mention i can grab rim from a standstill now. I was just wondering if i could still touch rim, since i havent been working out or anything. So i guess my new no fried stuff diet, is helping, because i must have lost a lot of body fat. Anyways, i jumped right under the rim without running, and i got like almost my whole hand over, and grabbed on. So i figure if i can work out somehow and get another 6 inches of jump i could dunk. Now... if that ever happens, man 5'11" asian guy dunking. Sure i wont be allen iverson, but that would still be pretty cool just dunking.

Ok, finals are next week. I'm still sitting on my ass. I was kinda happy today since i got 24/30 on my fake book review. hahha. I also won the esuc historian position officiallly now. I guess i forgot to write all this after my sadness last week. Anyways i was looking on the esuc page and there was a picture of me there. That was from when i gave me impromptu speech, since i just walked in and didnt know there was a meeting. i just came from the TAU kaila yu is gonna be there disappointment. I havent put a picture of myself on here in a long time . so here it is.

Dont I just look like a leader?

I think i've learned a lot this week. No it has nothing to do with classes. If i ever say that, that'll be the day. I learned that if you just are upfront with what you want. Then it'll work better for you in the long run. I also feel pretty decent right now. This has to do with the last post. I asked a question that needed to be asked. I didnt even get the answer i was hoping for. It was one of those "i dont see you as more than a friend" answers. BUt its a huge load off my mind, everything is clear. And I still have a friend, i didnt lose that. Took me a while to think if it was right to just ask like that. But now i think it is, and i think for the most part, it'll help me out to have that thought process.