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Monday, December 30, 2002 10:38:23 PM 

I am up before dawn (easy to do this time of year), and some time 
between the shower and leaving the apartment I take a few minutes to 
read the daily meditation from Science of Mind magazine.  Two 
meditations, actually, because the title on a different day catches my 
eye.  Today's meditation is about forgiveness and thankfulness, and 
that we can move into growth without regret or sorrow. We can add 
to our attributes without rejecting  or judging the ones we already 
have.  

Then I'm on the train reading Business Week and marvelling at the 
impression that time is moving more quickly than usual.  The hour 
passes quickly.  Concord arrives all too soon; the magazine is only 
partly read.  

I catch up on email for the past week, and then the team begins a 
couple of rounds of testing.  Concentrating on the task at hand, the 
test becomes all there is.  Data collected, to be mulled by others, 
just a fleeting impression for me.  The hours roll by, a late lunch 
wedged in between the tests.  

I take a few minutes, it seems, but it turns out to be a couple of 
hours, working on a system administration puzzle that nobody seems to 
be able to solve for me.  Since I am the system administrator, it is 
reasonable to expect that I will be the one who solves the puzzle.  
After the two hours of playing with it, I see a new avenue that may 
lead me to the solution tomorrow.  I have maintained my integrity in 
a small sort of way by refraining from a solid prediction of the 
unknown, refraining to say when the puzzle will be solved.  When it 
happens it happens, and the solution will happen in due time -- a 
random, unpredictable time.  

Then the day at the Bank is suddenly over, and I find myself riding 
the train back home.  The hour passes quickly again, not because I am 
reading, but because I am empty-minded.  The darkness and the sounds 
of the railroad create a timelessness, and in moments the hour has 
passed and I am back at the Embarcadero Station.  

At home I share dinner with my lover and share a few moments of 
pleasant entertainment with her.  Then it is bed time.  

Where has the day gone?  It was all there, yet so much of it passed 
so quickly.  Was every moment noticed?  Were the intense concentration 
in the middle and the pleasant enjoyment at the end equally noticed?  
Was the meditation at the beginning remembered?  

Ah, the meditation at the beginning.  That which spiritual persons use 
to set the tone for their day. It was not remembered, but it was 
reviewed just before I wrote these notes.  Perhaps tomorrow I can take 
the time to review the meditation and refresh the tone during the day.  
Perhaps I will take "ten in two," like an automobile driver on a long 
journey, or like a manufacturer with a union agreement.  Each two 
hours, perhaps, I can stop and reflect on the meditation of the day.  

Let us see tomorrow.  Perhaps I will be a little more spiritual than 
I was today.  


Sunday, December 29, 2002 11:51:13 AM

OK, vacations are good.  I have to admit it.  I went to Honolulu to 
chill out, and chill out I did.  All the worries and anxieties that I 
built up over the past four months were irrelevant.  Nothing mattered.  
Life is good.  

So do I go back and do what I did before, or do I do something 
different?  Something different, of course!  Who would go back to a 
lifestyle of worry and anxiety?  

Thank God for vacations!  


Monday, December 02, 2002 10:32:07 PM 

Here's a prayer we go through every Sunday.  I like it so much, I'm 
putting it here for reference!  

God is the only power in my life. Nothing from without can touch the perfect Life of God within. No past experience has power over me. I am a perfect child of God and nothing that anyone has ever done or said can interfere with my divine inheritance. The Power of God is greater than any circumstance in my life. The strength of God is mine to use.

Turning away from all feelings of inadequacy, I discover that all I need is within me now. As I forgive the past I find that I have nothing to atone for, nothing to run away from. Casting off the old me, I discover my true Self. I take dominion in my life. Old habits have no power over me. Conditions have no power over me. Personalities have no power over me. I take dominion. I am whole -- I am free -- I am complete -- now and forever more.

And so it is.

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