NATALYA ALYAKINA

Eyewitness to the Truth ...





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We donate a cloak to the man who does the washing.
We feel proud of our generosity.
We stare at the infinite, suffering ocean.
We fall in!
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Wandering the high empty plain
for some indication you've been here,
I find an abandoned body,
a detached head.
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Sometimes visible, sometimes not, sometimes
devout Christians, sometimes staunchly Jewish.
Until our inner love fits into everyone,
all we can do is take daily these different shapes!
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Sometimes afraid of reunion, sometimes
of separation: You and I, so fond of the notion
of YOU and an I, should live
as though we'd never heard those pronouns.
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You were alone, I got you to sing.
You were quiet, I made you tell long stories.
No one knew who you were,
they do now!
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Don't come to us without bringing music.
We celebrate with drum and flute,
with Wine not made from grapes,
in a place you cannot imagine.
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I stand up, and this one of me
turns into a hundred of me!
They say I circle around you.
Nonsense. I circle around me.
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What I most want 
is to spring out of this personality,
then to sit apart from that leaping.
I've lived too long where I can be reached!
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Lightning, your presence
from ground to sky!
No one knows what becomes of me,
when you take me so quickly!
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The wine forbidden in this place
creates life for the inner being.
Fill with that and forget consequences.
There's no beginning or end!
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Love comes sailing through and I scream.
Love sits beside me like a private supply of itself.
Love puts away the musical instruments,
and takes off the silk robes.  Our nakedness
together changes me completely.
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 - those are quatrains of rumi
written ca 1330
southeastern turkey, early in the empire of the turks
part of a persecuted mystic sect
writing to his great love, assassinated by the
orthodox thought police
rumi wrote 22000 quatrains like that
all after his love was killed, in memory
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The one who floods the private sanctuary
I've built, who takes away sleep,
who drags and throws me under,
that presence is the joy I speak!
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The center clears.  Knowing comes:
the body is not singular like a corpse,
but singular like a salt grain
still in the side of the mountain.
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The light you give off
did not come from a pelvis.
Your features did not begin in semen.
Don't try to hide inside anger
radiance that cannot be hidden.
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All day and night, music.
a quiet, bright reedsong; If it fades
we fade.
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Sleep this year has no authority!
Night might as well stop looking for us
when we're like this,
invisible - except at dawn!
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This night extends into eternity,
like a fire burning inside the Friend.
Truly knowing this is what joy is!
Forgetting it is grief, and a lack of courage.
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Days are sieves to filter spirit,
reveal impurities, and too,
show the light of some who throw
their own shining into the universe!
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Out of nowhere a horse
brought us here where we taste love
until we don't exist again!  This taste
is the wine we always mention.
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Earlier, to be ready,
I loosened the leg bindings.
Today, your scent. Gratefulness
rises on the air.
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These gifts from the Friend, a robe
ok skin and veins, a teacher within,
wear them and become a school,
with a greater Sheikh nearby.
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There is no companion but love.
No starting, or finishing, yet, a road.
The Friend calls from there:
WHY DO YOU HESITATE WHEN LIVES ARE IN DANGER!
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I pretended to leap
to see if I could live THERE.
Someday I must actually arrive THERE,
or nothing will be left to arrive.
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Here's a magnificent person
holding out a glass of wine,
a vision of power.
OVER me, I hope, not FOR me!
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Let the lover be disgraceful, crazy,
absentminded.  Somebody sober
will worry about events going badly!
Let the lover be.
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The manner and appearance of a prophet,
our secret origins, these are born
of a woman who still lives inside you,
though she's hiding from what we've become.
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If you have a spirit, lose it,
loose it to return where with one word,
we came from.  Now, thousands of words,
and we refuse to leave.
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If you want to live, leave your banks,
as a small stream enters the Oxus, miles wide,
or as cattle moving around a millstone
suddenly circle to the top of the sphere.
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Life is ending? God gives another.
Admit the finite.  Praise the Infinite!
Love is a spring. Submerge!
Every separate drop, a new life.
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