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 Love is an Attitude

This was a special place when i clawed
my way to freedom, away
from the city;
Meditation upon the rocks;
melting into the icy water;
inhalong the salt air -
my mind commenced to heal
i wrote ... i thought ... i swam
i slept
One day a stranger entered my domain
and my solitude was transformed
into love. Poems by Walmer Rinder
                Spectrum of Love

There is a much greater motivation than simply my spoken words.

For me to love, is to commit myself, freely and without reservation. I am sincerely interested in your happiness and well being. Whatever your needs are, I will try to fulfill them and will bend in my values depending on the importance of your need. If you are lonely and need me, I will be there. If in that loneliness you need to talk, I will listen. If you need to listen, I will talk. If you need the strength of human touch, I will touch you. If you need to be held, I will hold you. I will lie naked in body with you if that be your need.

If you need fulfillment of the flesh, I will give you that also, but only through my love.

I will try to be constant with you so that you will understand the core of my personality and from that understanding you can gain strength and security that I am acting as me. I may falter with my moods. I may project, at times, a strangeness that is alien to you which may bewilder or frighten you. There will be times when you question my motives. But because people are never constant and are as changeable as the seasons, I will try to build up within you a faith in my fundamental attitude and show you that my inconsistency is only for the moment and not a lasting part of me. I will show you love now. Each and every day we live we learn more how to love. I will not defer my love nor neglect it, for if I wait until tomorrow, tomorrow never comes. It is like a cloud in the sky, passing by. They always do you know!

If I give you kindness and understanding, then I will receive your faith. If I give hate and dishonesty, I will receive your distrust. If I give you fear and am afraid, you will become afraid and fear me. I will give to you what I need to receive.

The degree of love I give is determined by my own capability. My capability is determined by the environment of my past existence and my understanding of love, touch and God.

My understanding is determined by my parents, friends, places I have lived and been. Each experience is fed into my mind from living.

I will give you as much love as I can. If you will show me how to give more, then I will give more. I can only give as much as you need to receive or allow me to give. If you receive all I can give, then my love is endless and fulfilled. If you receive a portion (part) of my love, then I will give others the balance I am capable of giving. I must give all that I have, being what I am.

Love is universal. Love is the movement of life. I have loved a boy, a girl, my parents, art, nature. All things in life I find beautiful. No human being or society has the right to condemn any kind of love I feel or my way of expressing it, if I am sincere; sincerity being the honest realization of myself without hurt or pain for my life or any life my life touches.

I want to become a truly loving spirit. Let my words, if I must speak, become a restoration of your soul. But when speech is silent, does a man project that great depth of his sensitivity. When I touch you, or kiss you, or hold you, I am saying a thousand words.
Leigh You carried sadness from the start - Not sadness that falls with closed eyes' but like a pigeon carries it, quietly, simply, its head up to the vast sky. Though I know you now I did not know you then - but I knew your body : nestled in its crying down, lay prone in its deep cave, floated in its far candles, sipped its sunset. You pulled me into you as the night pulls dreams - but I did not love you then and I did not know you. But how much I love you now, and know you - now that the dream you gave to me lies so lonely in my belly.
-= SHE WALKED AT EVENING =- She walked, at evening by the sea
with last of the sun
and first of the moon
briefly balanced - unconflicting
each peerfecting the other,
just as the sand was not stronger
than her feet
or the sea more powerful than her stride.
He watched her
the incarnation of his desire
till she disappeared under the dark,
faded to mystery
letting go
To let go doesn't mean to stop caring, it means I can't do it for someone else.
To let go is not to cut myself off, its the realization that I cant control another.
To let go is not to enable, but to allow learning from natural consequences.
To let go is to admit powerlessness, which means the outcome is not in my hands.
To let go is not to try to change or blame another, I can only change myself.
To let go is not to care for, but to care about.
To let go is not to fix, but to be supportive.
To let go is not to judge, but to allow another to be a human being.
To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes, but to allow others to affect their own outcomes.
To let go is not to deny, but to accept.
To let go is not to nag, scold or argue, but to search out my own short comings and to correct them.
To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires, but to take each day as it comes and to cherish the moment.
To let go is not to criticize and regulate anyone but to try to become what I dream I can be.
To let go is not to regret the past, but to grow and live for the future.
To let go is to fear less and love more.
These are instruction on how to let go ... Perhaps it is letting go of a rebellious child, or a burden of sorrow, losing a loved one or learning to live with the heartache which, until now, we thought we just could not let go of.

Read this over ... Study it ... Pray over it .. and you will find that letting go of your load will release a peace within you which will allow your spirit to sour ... to be free... to completely give it to God .. and let good work be done within you (where the need is).
- Rainbow - I would toss them in the Sea,
But all these things I'm finding
Are impossible for me.
I cannot build a Mountain
Or catch a Rainbow fair,
But let me be what I know best
A Friend that is always there

A WOMAN'S BILL OF RIGHTS

  I have the right to :

  • I have the right to :
  • trust myself above all others
  • decent treatment in a relationship
  • reel safe
  • stop blaming myslef for abuse
  • pay my own way through life
  • mutually consenting and pleasurable sex
  • be respected as a person
  • disagree with others
  • say "NO"
  • get angry
  • know who i am
  • know who i am in a intimate relationsip
  • trust my instincts
  • prosecute for battery and sexual assault
  • emotional support and understanding from others
  • be part of a healthy intimate relationship
  • control my own destiny
  • be selfish and get the good things i ant from a relationship
  • be loved
  • be cared about
  • intimacy
  • high self-esteem
  • trust myself above all others

(adopted) Claudette McShane; 1988
Source : Women's Resource Centre Newsletter Alberta)

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