The universe, etc. belongs to Paramount. The idea belongs to me. So does the feedback. Cinderella by Nancy Brown (nancy@rat.org) copyright 1995 As she examined the thing on her bed, she made a mental note to order the person responsible for this fiasco to the shuttle bay, then accidentally order the bay door opened. The thought brought a level of comfort back to her, though not nearly enough. Ideas of this nature were not only non-productive and childish, they were also impractical. Besides, spacing the Tellarite Ambassador would look bad on her record. At least she wouldn't be the only one there to be miserable. The entire senior staff was obligated to go to the damned reception, and that alone would almost make it worth going. Her mind drifted, imagining her colleagues preparing for tonight. The men would of course be in their dress uniforms, but the women were to wear gowns. Tellarite custom. Hell, it would be on their ship, she supposed. If they wanted to let the men take charge of everything and keep the women as ornamental twits, it was their right and privilege. That was the stuff the Prime Directive was made on; even if she found it morally reprehensible, she could accept it as part of a distinctly unique culture. Unfortunately, it meant that she had to wear this ridiculous outfit tonight. Tellarite formal wear left much to the imagination, and for this she was thankful. In form, it resembled something vaguely reminiscent of the Elizabethan era from Earth's past. That is to say, it would have been Elizabethan had the good Queen been part giraffe and part hippopotamus. The collar of the dress went up. Way up. She hoped, irrationally, that there would be no low-flying birds in the area, or else they might have a problem in navigation. Meanwhile, the sleeves and bodice were made of some poofy material that made her look like a well-padded Parrises Squares' player. Or a child about to go outside to play in the snow. The skirt was full enough to make walking within a two foot radius of her hazardous. It was all ... pink. And then there were the shoes. The outfit wouldn't have been half so terrible if it hadn't been for the damned shoes she was expected to wear. They were made of some hard polymer that refused adamantly to mold themselves properly to her feet. She was certain that she'd have blisters by the end of what promised to be a very long night. To top it off, though, the damned things were transparent. Assuming anyone could get close enough to her without tripping, the first thing they would see were her feet scrunched up inside painful shoes. She sighed, and began the tedious process of getting dressed. She slipped her uniform off, tossing it carelessly onto a chair. She'd deal with it later. She wished idly that she could wear her dress uniform, knowing how much simpler in comparison it would be to put on than this thing. He'd probably take one look at her in this getup and laugh until ... Stop it! she ordered herself. Thoughts of him were completely off-limits, for a million reasons. She'd told herself that time and again when her mind turned traitor on her, and it usually worked. She would not imagine his hands rubbing her aching shoulders, nor his lips pressed against the base of her neck, and she sure as hell wouldn't think of him tugging at the zipper of her uniform until it puddled on the floor, and his body moving against hers. Nope. She would just have to think of something else. She would think about spacing the Tellarite Ambassador. The senior staff gathered at the appropriate time to beam en masse to the Tellarite ship. No one made a comment yet on the dresses that two of them by virtue of gender were obliged to wear. There were no fools among the males of the senior staff. The Ambassador was not waiting for them in his own transporter room; his aide was to bring them to the reception proper. Ah protocol, she thought, and smiled blandly while following behind the aide. From the back, they looked almost human, she thought absently. If it weren't for the snout ... Then she dismissed the thought. It has to be something hormonal tonight, she reasoned. Just because he's walking beside me and I can practically feel the heat from his body through layers of cloth is no reason to lose my train of thought. Exactly. I'm being good. I haven't thought of him in that way for at least an hour. The first of many pains in her feet made itself known, and she winced. "Are you all right?" It took her a moment to register his voice, so lost was she on congratulating herself for not thinking of him at all. "Hmmm? Oh. Yes, I'm fine. It's these shoes." He glanced down. Great. The last thing she wanted him to look at tonight was her feet. Brilliant move, kid. Just brilliant. He sidled closer to her, and her heart skipped. He bent his head closer to her and whispered, "With the length of that dress, I'd be willing to bet that absolutely no one would notice if you removed them." "I'll keep it in mind. Sir." He smiled very slightly, and it forced a returning smile from her. Oh, but how beautiful a smile he had. He moved slightly back over. Suddenly, she felt her cheeks flushing as she realized that the others were behind them, and had probably seen how his smile had made her react. Damn. She risked a peek behind her. To her relief, the only one who seemed even remotely interested in their exchange was the one person she could trust to not have read anything at all into it. She smiled at him, and he nodded back once. She hadn't been expecting a smile. In fact, she would be hard pressed to remember if she'd ever seen him actually turn his mouth that way. Which could account for why she liked him. At last, the long walk was finished, and they were at the door to the room where the reception would be held. The aide stepped away from the doors and she gasped as they slid open. Before her was a scene vastly unlike what she had been expecting. Tellarites were known for their predisposition to belligerence, for their engineering abilities, and for little else. She was expecting a garish display of both technological marvels and boorish bravado, broad swatches of cloth in bold colors, weapons. She had expected lights and colors of the imagination, robotics, anything. She did not expect a blank room. The walls were utterly devoid of decoration, and the room very nearly so of light. The only thing in the place, other than the Tellarites themselves, was a table set discretely against the wall with food. Of course, one could not forget the Tellarites. They were dancing. She was fairly sure they were dancing. Music came from some unseen place, and the forms out in the middle of the room were moving distinctly in time with it, pressed close to one another. She really hoped they were dancing. One of the forms grew, and in the dimness, she realized the Ambassador was coming to greet them. He reached out and took her hand, then the Captain's. He said something in his own language, of which she knew only a smattering, then said in Standard: "I greet you, my friends, into this place where weapons are set down for fairer sport." The Captain replied, "On behalf of these others, I thank you. May we bring honor to all of our peoples." The Ambassador smiled. "Join us then in the rites of the dance." The Captain shifted, and she tried not to smile. She was continually discovering new things that he could do and do well. Dancing, however, was not his cup of tea. The Ambassador did not seem to notice. "You shall have the first dance with my mate, Gata. She will show you all you need know about our dance, which you will discover is one of the most pleasant in the galaxy." "I'm sure I will." The Ambassador turned and motioned towards another figure. The woman, presumably his wife, came forward, bowed deeply to her new dance partner, and held out her hands. Carefully, respectfully, he took them. Without a glance back, they joined the others in the center of the room. The Ambassador turned to them. "You all may feel free to mingle. There are many who would teach you our dance." He nodded towards the middle again, and other Tellarites came towards them. He faced her. "I would request the honor of teaching you, my lady." "I would be the one honored, Ambassador," she said, hardly hearing her own words. He held out his hands, and she placed hers into them. She did spare a glance to her friends, who were taking partners of their own. Her feet reminded her of their existence again as they swept out together to the floor. The dance was not as unusual as she'd first thought. Their hands remained touching at their sides, and the Ambassador touched his forehead against hers. They began to rock gently with the rhythm of the song, soft movements to match soft notes. His breath was surprisingly sweet against her face, and she found herself smiling as they moved together. "You find this amusing?" came his low voice. "Not in the way you might think. I am enjoying myself more than I thought I would," she admitted. "I see. You thought that we would be, what is the word, more brutish in our ways?" "No," she said too quickly, "I simply was expecting something more ostentatious." He let out a snort, and she feared she'd angered him until she saw his smile. "My people tend to be very 'ostentatious' in matters of conflict. However, we choose to be more subtle in matters of love." They turned, and she found herself facing the Ambassador's mate dancing with the same strange intimacy with the Captain. She looked away, not wishing to stare. He smiled again. She realized that he had a habit of smiling more than was normal for his people. Or perhaps, only what she expected to be normal. She was quickly discovering that she had much to learn about Tellarites. "Seeing them together disturbs you." "Of course not." He sighed, and adjusted his hands until he was holding hers like a small child's. "You need not fear telling me the truth, my dear. Your eyes are more expressive than you know. You want him." She looked pointedly at his ear. "You see much, Ambassador." "It serves me well. At the moment, I see a woman who cannot admit that she wants a man. Among my people, this is a serious problem." "Ambassador, please." "Why do you not go to him and tell him?" "It would be improper. He's the Captain. And I'm ... " "A lonely woman who would be in his arms." She stopped moving and pulled her head back. "Why are you doing this?" she whispered almost fiercely. He leaned against her and stayed silent until they had picked up the music again. "I saw your eyes the moment we first met, and I knew that you were dying for lack of something. Child, that was part of the reason I suggested this reception." "What?!" "I am an ambassador for a very good reason: I have a gift for uniting people. I am a mender of things that do not even realize that they are broken. You are broken. I would make you whole." Her mind began churning. Coming from anyone else, this would sound like a half-decent pass. "Come with me to the refreshments. I have something to show to you." They disengaged, and he led her towards the small table. Now she could see the technology in action: tiny robots, almost the size and shape of mice, were carefully checking on the food, bringing more out bit by bit. In the center of the table was a large orange globe, from which the mice emerged and disappeared into again. The Ambassador said something low in his own language into the top of the globe, then gathered a handful of small fruits, no bigger than the end of her finger. "Try this. It's called a yulla." She placed one into her mouth, and felt it dissolve as it touched her tongue in a melting sweetness. "It's delicious." She tried another, and a different sensation, no less pleasant, went through her mouth. "It changes every time you taste one. No person tastes the same yulla twice, so every taste is precious and cherished." A mouse-robot came out of the orange globe and zipped over to the Ambassador, something in its mouth. He plucked it away, and the creature scurried back into the pumpkin. He held the thing in his fingers close to her eyes so that she could see it in the dim light. It looked like nothing so much as a small, somewhat odd-shaped pearl. He placed it in her hand. "A gift for you." "Ambassador, I can't accept this." "Yes you can. It would be a breach of etiquette not to accept." "Then I thank you. May I ask its nature?" "Of course, but the only way to truly learn is to use it." "I don't understand." "It is a seed to a flower on my world, the same flower that eventually produces the yulla. It is said that the woman who holds the seed in one hand will find the love of her life touching the other before the center of the night." He must have seen the skepticism on her face. "I realize how it sounds, but I would have you know that my mate held such a seed when first we danced. That was ten hetas ago. This song will end very shortly, and I will take my mate to dance. When I do, you should ask your Captain. Or perhaps, make him ask you." Before she could say anything, the music stopped, and the dancers pulled away and applauded, although whom they were applauding escaped her notice. All she could see were the Ambassador's wife and the Captain moving towards them. "Gata, did you teach the Captain well?" "Of course, my darling. Now perhaps I may interest you in some education?" "Perhaps. If you'll excuse us?" The couple moved out to the floor again just as the music started again, a different rhythm than from before. "So did you pick up any interesting tidbits from the Ambassador?" He searched the table for something, then took a yulla and popped it into his mouth. His eyes widened. "Only dance moves, I'm afraid." He laughed, and she wondered how he had enjoyed his dance with Gata. Then she became aware that the others in their party were already dancing again and there were just the two of them alone. "Interesting reception." He took another yulla. "Yes. Captain?" "Yes?" "Would you care to dance?" Her stomach knotted. "Only if you promise to stay away from my toes with those shoes." "I promise." Together, they moved to be near the other dancers. She discovered that he was very light on his feet, and that his hands were as warm as she'd imagined. She kept the seed palmed slightly away from his touch, in case he should ask her what it was. Their foreheads were joined just barely, and his breath was as sweet against her own as the Ambassador's had been. She tried to remember how she had learned so long ago, the secret to keeping the music in time with the beating of her own heart. She felt so clumsy against his grace, yet at the same time, she was the master, for she had been dancing for all her life. They began to speak, very idly, in the timeless sway of the music. She mentioned a bit of ship's gossip, and he surprised her by having heard two other versions of the same story. At the same time, they noticed that the couple nearest them had a Tellarite female and a most assuredly non-Tellarite male. He was not exactly frowning, but he wasn't looking overly pleased, either. They turned in time with the music, and she was lightyears away from thoughts of anyone but the man who held her hands so gently in his own. The music changed, became more seductive if that were possible, and suddenly all the dancers were pressed close to one another. She was ready to pull away, let him share the dance with someone else, then saw in his eyes that there could be no one else. They moved closer, and closed their eyes to the wonder of the melody that consumed them, soaring with the notes, sinking within the spaces between the stars. After what might have been an hour, or perhaps a few seconds, the music stopped, and again the invisible musicians were applauded. Lights rose from nowhere. It was finished for the evening. Sadly, she realized that the dance was not the only thing finished, as he pulled smoothly away. The Ambassador wished them well, and with his mate, saw them to the transporter room. Just before she disembarked, he touched the hand where she still held the seed and smiled at her. No words, just a smile and the promise of magic that would only last until midnight. The transporter whined, and the group of them were home again. They both lived on the same deck; it was only proper that they go there together. In a fraction of a moment, they reached his door, and as with the Ambassador, there were no words to be said but two. "Good night." She turned and headed towards her own safe quarters, her own safe bed. She could close her eyes and dream of this night, that would in her dream perhaps end with his voice saying ... "Wait." That hadn't been a dream. She turned around. "Sir?" "I'm not sure if I'll be able to sleep after that. Would you care to come in and talk? Just for a while." She nodded, and he waited for her to enter the room first. She did, limping only slightly. "Do you mind if I take these off?" "Not at all." She slipped the awful slippers from her feet. "Thank you. That feels so much better." "I still say you should have taken them off earlier." She smiled half-heartedly, sat down, and proceeded to work the cramps out of her toes with her fingers. Let him see her feet. She didn't care anymore. She slid the seed into one of the shoes for safe keeping with her free hand. "Let me help." He knelt down and took one of her feet in his hands and began massaging it. Startled, she stammered, "Sir!" "There will be no sore feet on this ship. Got it?" "Yes sir," she said in a false meek voice and wiggled her toes in his hand. "Good. Now that we have that settled, let me work on the other one." He pressed his thumb into her arch and began making circular motions. She sat back, letting herself enjoy it as he worked her toes back and forth, then grazed her heel with his fingernails. "How does that feel?" "Wonderful." She felt something press against her instep and gasped a moment later when she realized it was his mouth, kissing her very softly. Then she felt a second one against her other foot. This had to stop. This had to stop now. He was the Captain, and there was probably something in the yullas that was making him ... making him ... making him do what she had secretly fantasized about him doing for years. "Tell me when you want me to stop," he whispered, still stroking her feet tenderly and placing a hot kiss against her left ankle. "Please don't," she whispered back. A matching kiss found her right foot, and she was lost. His fingers moved up the backs of her legs in a slow, almost lazy manner, preceded by tiny kisses along the way. He spent an eternity stroking and tasting her knees, teasing the backs of them until she moaned. His eyes darted up to hers from time to time, filled with fire that grew like magic in the night. His kisses became more urgent now, and she trembled beneath them. His fingers moved ahead of his mouth, sliding her legs further apart, and she tried not to tense up and felt herself doing it anyway. "Do you want this?" he breathed against her inner thigh. "I've always wanted this," she responded, stroking his ear with her thumb, then moving her fingertips to the fine hairs at his nape as his head moved a few inches forward. Soft wet lips merged with warm probing ones, and she sighed deeply, happily, wondering whether to scream or laugh. The tip of his tongue brushed against her outer layers, giving long loving caresses to the sensitive folds. His fingers moved into the game, pulling her open. She felt one long index finger gently push against her slick clitoris and her legs began trembling. His hot breath brought another liquid rush from within her, which he smoothed around with a firm wet tongue as if frosting a cake of her with her own sweetness. "Please," she gasped. "Please. I need you." She felt him pull away, and could not help the feeling of loss as he did. He stood, and she noticed how uncomfortable his pants were becoming for him. Still sitting, she grasped the bottom of the dress uniform, pulling it just high enough to reach the catch of his pants and loosen it quickly. Then she stood. Without words, they took hands and moved until their foreheads were touching once more. As if moving to the music again, they turned slightly, rocking slowly, until she found her back against a bulkhead. He pulled her awful skirt up as she tugged at his pants, sliding her hands down to reach the warm thing that she had longed to see and hold and feel within her for so long. She pulled him free of his trousers. In rhythm with the music in their minds, they rocked their bodies together and began swaying in time with the heartbeat of the ship. The wall scraped against the back of her gown, and the material rustled like leaves in a sacred forest moving in an ancient groove of their own. His lips found hers and pressed softly to them. As he slid deeper into her, his tongue probed the recesses of her mouth, and slowly at first, then more confidently, she returned the teasing movement inside his own, reveling in the taste of her other lips on his breath. His breathing was labored now, and his eyes blazing as he moaned and thrust against her, pushing her into the wall in his passion. She met him, stroke for stroke, unable to cry out yet but yearning just the same. Then she felt it. Unlike the short, hot burst that filled her after her occasional fumblings in the lonely darkness, this was different, deeper. Her stomach filled with the fire in his eyes, and an easy warmth spread through her radiating to the ends of her tingling toes. A tiny moan escaped her and she was at peace. He grunted moments later, his eyes squeezed tightly shut and his voice was torn from him in a name. Not hers. Oh, she knew it well enough, knew the bright young face that accompanied it, the warm smile that part of her had hated before and now would always despise. She knew that name, and in her soul she felt a clock strike midnight somewhere as all the magic ended on the final stroke. He collapsed against her, spent, still holding her hands, but moving them up to caress her shoulders, her hair. Then he opened his eyes as he pulled out of her. She hadn't been aware of her tears until he touched one and wiped it away. "I hurt you. My god, I'm sorry." She shook her head in the negative. "No, no. I'm fine." She smiled, but it felt brittle on her lips. He saw. "You don't lie well." "Perhaps not, Captain, but then again, neither do you." She whispered the name he'd called her, and his eyes widened. "I am so sorry, darling." She pulled her hands away from him. "Don't call me that. Not now, not ever. You can't even call me by my name." She smoothed down her skirt and readjusted the bodice. Before he could do anything else to ruin her life, she was going to leave. She was at the door when he said, "Please don't go." "I have things to do. Duties to attend. I'm sure you can sympathize. Sir." He looked own to the floor. "What about your shoes?" She shrugged. "Keep them. They don't fit my feet half so well as I thought they would." She opened the door and stalked out, not losing her composure until she reached her own quarters and could cry in peace. At the staff meeting the following morning, someone commented on the First Officer's absence, but the question was quickly silenced with a stern look from Captain Pike. The End