I.

(c) 1995 embies

How fucking confusing is this life 
that comes at me with raging eyes 
and attacks me till I stumble, fall 
and comes to deal it's last death blow 
and when the deed is almost done
and right before the the last drop falls 
the demon laughs and ponders how 
he might make me hurt more, again 

and wanton bastard catches drop 
and as I die he gives back me 
so I may not die quiet no 
but must live on, eternally, 
and laughs at me when ses his win 
and gives more drops to me back now 
so more he might make pain in me 
and take me back to Death's almost 

and as I waver in this state 
the option lies ahead of me 
that I may make that final drop 
leave, go far away from me  
I hate the choice oh hateful beast 
kill me, make me not have choice 
to live or die when wants to die 
but can't for no more wrongs can do.  

so make it easy oh dear beast 
take me please with you must part
send me off and farther, farther 
so might I have that choice no more.

II. Ways To Reveal Secrets

(c) 1995 embies


Alone I hide my secrets well,
The people never see,
What haunts the inner cavity,
My vacuous mad head.

I know they'll build a shrine to me
As soon as someone knows.
And I will go find comfort there,
Me being quite well dead.

III.

(c) 1995 embies


Fuck you oh world who says I'm small 
and thinks self strong for being big
for all your strength comes from your size
And all mine is regardless of.

IV.

(c) 1995 embies


when i was just a kid, i did as others did and wasn't wrong, and wasn't wrong, 
and wasn't, wasn't wrong.  

and froliced like kids do, and talked to guys like you.  and smiled and smiled 
and smiled and smiled and smiled and smiled and smiled 

i used to see the sun, and always get things done, and lived and lived and lived 
and lived and lived and lived and lived.

and played out in the rain, cuz i was still so sane, and splashed and splashed 
and splashed and splashed and splashed and splashed and splashed 

but now it all has changed, because i'm so deranged, since long ago, since long 
ago, since long so long ago.

and nothing's left to do, but ask for help, from who?  and pray and pray and pray 
and pray and pray and pray and pray

submissions always welcome, encouraged, and recieved with happiness. mail me directly.

embies' asarian poetry archives / she's anon-4552@anon.twwells.com / last revised january 1, 1997

I.

(c) 1995 embies

II. Ways To Reveal Secrets

(c) 1995 embies

Alone I hide my secrets well, The people never see, What haunts the inner cavity, My vacuous mad head. I know they'll build a shrine to me As soon as someone knows. And I will go find comfort there, Me being quite well dead.

III.

(c) 1995 embies

Fuck you oh world who says I'm small and thinks self strong for being big for all your strength comes from your size And all mine is regardless of.

IV.

(c) 1995 embies