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Rainbows

(c) 1992 Wendy Apagar


I'm told it's always darkest just before the dawn,
And on some future date this darkness will be gone.
That sunshine and rainbows will always follow rain
Because darkness and rain clouds can't always remain.
I will hold on to this hope deep within my heart
And each time the pain of buried feelings start
I'll pray for strength to feel and face what's hidden deep inside,
Knowing that God has placed a friend here by my side.

Grace

(c) 1991 Wendy Apagar


Lord, I thank you for today, for all you've brought me through.
I know I wouldn't be here now if it weren't for you.
I know the healing you've begun, you've said you will complete.
I know that in my desperate hours, my needs you'll always meet.
When I'm crying out to you in fear and in despair,
I can find your presence in the my friends who are right here.
Those people are not many and they've been hard to find,
But when I've asked them for their help, they do not seem to mind.
Lord, I just can't comprehend the love you have for me,
I know you feel compassion, but it's so hard for me to see.
Yet in the middle of the pain and anger I must face
You see me just as I am and offer me your grace.
Some times to know you love me, love from others I must feel,
And as I see your mercy, my shattered heart will heal.

storm of rage

(c) 1994 Wendy Apagar


whirlwind of anger
touching all around me
while I, unaware,
stood in the eye of the storm

deceptive peace
offspring of denial
I am not unaffected
by the rage within the storm

touching others
my anger is reflected
abandonment, lonliness, rejection, pain
I am isolated by this protective storm

seeking help
my life in turmoil
numb to most of my feelings
still unaware of the surrounding storm

an outstretched hand
a friend who cares
a place of safety is created
no longer alone within the storm

whirlwind of anger
no longer totally unaware
within our place of safety
we exit the ey and enter the storm

Wendy is the editor of Our Journey, a quarterly newsletter addressing recovery issues.
For more information e-mail her at wendy@zzz.com.

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