Too much
Or too little
I don’t know
Ideas
Thoughts
Unsubstantiated
Like something is missing
But what?
I should be so happy
But this happiness
A confusion about it
Causing this sudden anguish in my life
In tonight
Maybe it will go away
Maybe tomorrow I will be ok again
This is what I feared
What I feared the most
A sudden turn of events
From happy to sad all at once
Again it happens
And I am forced to wonder
Why I even try
I hate this