August 5, 2000 // 2:40pm
Listening to : my dad's radio
Well, here I am. I survived it. Barely. Na, actually it's not that bad, I'm just very sore. Everywhere.
Been depressed about not being able to start or finish anything. I have been basically vegging out for the past five days and I'm feeling stir-crazy. Thats why I changed this site around. Frankly, it's gettimg boring so I decided it's time for a change. Hopefully for the better.
It turns out that I don't have endometriosis. I'm happy about that but very confused about the rest. What do I have? I've been researching it and maybe I could have an ulcer. That's not too bad, but the testing sucks. I'm pretty scared about that actually.
I have many new projects ready to go. My new enlarger is ready to go, it only needs a lightbulb. Too bad I didn't think of it on Monday, it was my last 'free day' before this surgery. I have my chapbook finished and ready to be sent, just need photos. I'm being published again so life is cool.
I took some cool photos of Pavel and is friend Mike jamming. The lighting sucked so I had to flash everything. But I am condfident that I got some great shots. I also have a roll of infrared that I thought was fogged, that is really just *really* dense that needs to be printed....I can't wait to try it. It will be difficult but my friends at the forum say it is possible.
Mental state: still very bored and a bit depressed. I never like being held back from anything.....it made me feel like I was wasting time.....but then again, I was in alot of pain and frankly wasn't in any condition to do anything. But thankfully I am feeling a bit better and more capable, so life can begin again.
The title for this new version came from a sleepy, drug-induced haze where I thought about somehow incorporating my recovering from this surgery into my new layout.
As you can see there have been no journals from July. I've been najorly busy and just didn't have the time...and when I did it felt as though I was saying the same thing...hopefully that changes. I tend to stay in the same rhythm, and need to get out of it. But if you're super-curious about my previous entries, see the archives.
I'll try to write more often....will keep you posted on my progress. :)
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