"CrAzY"

You ask me if I'm happy-
Where is my smile?
You ask me to help-
Where is my generosity?
Why do you assume I ever had these
Items for me to sell to you?
Why must you think that
I'm good for you?
I'm good for no one,
And cannot help your cause;
Go try the other one
Who taunts me in my bed
And screams names through the dark
At me;
Maybe she can help you
Find the kindness you desire;
Maybe she can keep on going
And unlike me, never tire
Of the people in this town
Who think they're good
To me and to my head;
Who taunt me in my bed
And scream names through the dark;
So you think this is paranioa?
You think this is a game?
When tomorrow I'm not here
You'll remember my name
And scold the air
For taking me away
And tell the world
That I was crazy
And that I believed in God;
Right now I don't need you-
I need God and I need my head
To tell me that I'm sane;
Someone tell me that I'm sane,
Someone tell me that you love me,
Someone tell me to stay;
Come dance with me
In sweet silence and tell me
To stay;
Otherwise I'll say farewell
To this small idiotic town
And mock it as I go
Down into the realms of hell;
I might even leave a note:
Believe in God,
Sweet child of mine,
And tell this small town
That it was they who killed me
And not my Savior~
Strum me a song while I wave my hand
And don't cry
While you stand there alone
And acknowledge my existence
Which is only to cease
As of this day-
Just give me a kiss and
Say You're welcome;
For I'll see you in the waiting room,
And I'll ask you how life was and
You'll ask me if I'm happy-
Where is my smile?
You'll ask me to help-
Where is my generosity?
Why will you assume I ever had these
Items for me to sell to you?
You're driving me into the earth,
Let's go our separate ways;
But first do me a favor-
Tell God that I miss Him
And tell me that I was sane;
Just tell me that I'm sane.

Adrienne E. Helms (nothingfancy@juno.com)