Diary 175

08-10-98


You know, I'm starting to think that Dirk really enjoys taking chunks out of Roachboy. He spent quite a long time online today, just fucking with him. I wonder what he gets out of it? I've never found tormenting Roachboy to be particularly satisfying.

Could just be me, though.

I'm taking tomorrow off, so I can pick up my Aunt Lani from the airport. She's visiting us from Oregon for a couple weeks. She's the youngest of my aunts (29), and she's a big "save the animals" person. She volunteers at a humane animal shelter, fosters homeless cats, and did a lot of work with the spotted owl people.

I'm not sure if I'm goint to like her or not. She married a complete idiot, named Jock. He's got the social skills of a rotting corpse.

Work was dismal, mostly because no-one was there. I got nothing done. Unfortunately, they fixed the copying machine. Assholes. Then, Alex tried to dump his work off on me. I don't think so.

I didn't bother protesting, though. I merely waited until he left for the day, then dumped it on his chair. He knows better, especially when all he's doing is looking at gay porn sites on the Internet.

I didn't do much of anything else all day, either. Bored, bored, bored. The highlight of my day was recieving top-secret communications from Dirk.

When I got home, there was a bit of last-minute clean-up, then Dirk and I went online until Katie got online. Seems she and her SO had a bit of a tiff (not maligning the seriousness of it), and she unexpectedly found herself with free time to play with. So, Dirk and I went over to her house to visit.

I, of course, commiserated, while Dirk made a perfect ass of himself. I also talked a bit with Katie's mum. I may give her my resume to file with her agency, to see if I can get away from Alex, Claire, and the rest of the assholes.

I also broke one of my many cardinal rules and watched Ally McBeal (I really don't care if that's the correct way to spell it). It was alright. Not good enough to make me want to watch it again, though.

You know, I'm vaguely curious as to whether Roachboy uses the same tactics on his New Girlfriend as he did on me. You know, quoting Springsteen Lyrics, convincing her (and himself) that she sees him more clearly than anyone else. I wonder if dating someone so much younger than himself makes him feel younger.

Maybe he tries to suck the youth out of these girls, because he's so old and bitter inside. Maybe he tries to revitalize himself using their young bodies, their impressionable minds.

I wonder if she fakes her orgasms. I wonder if he uses the same whirling metaphors he used with me, because he could never bring himself to simply say what he felt, with no window-dressing and no pretension.

I wonder if she realizes that she's just another empty obsession that he's pumped full of meaning because all his obsessions have to have meaning.


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