Tower Records has some absolutely astounding books, I'm finding. Dirk found a book on legal ways to get high...did you know Morning Glory seeds can make you trip like LSD? All you need is 5-10 grams of the seeds; you can either chew them up well, or grind them up, soak them in a cup of water, and drink that. The high lasts for about 5-6 hours. The thing is, you have to get the seeds from plants, not from the package. Packaged seeds have chemicals added to make you ill if you eat them. One of the strongest varieties is Heavenly Blue, which most seed companies carry. Pretty kinky, huh?
We went to Peter's (our almost-lead singer)apartment today to see what the hell was going on. He told us that he was sorry, but he didn't think he'd be able to work with us. It seems he's started a new record company in the past few weeks, and that's taking up all his time, besides his other band. Nice of him to tell us now. However, he did give us the number to a couple other drummers in the area. Now, we have to start searching again.
I never realized how low Dirk's self esteem is. We were in the middle of a "non-argument" (the ones where there's almost complete silence), and he demanded,"You think I'm pathetic, don't you?"
"What brought you to this conclusion?"
"Just answer the question, yes or no: do you think I'm pathetic?"
"No. Why would I think that?"
He told me that everyone he knew thought he was pathetic; his parents, his brother, Ken, and Krisco. This struck me as odd, because all of the people he named have no ground to stand upon when it comes to calling other people pathetic. His mother has been a grocery-bagger her whole life, and is fairly stupid. His brother knocked-up his pit-viper of a girlfriend because he and his girlfriend kept on having unprotected sex after she got off the pill. Now his brother's pit-viper ex-girlfriend refuses to let him see their son, and he's is trying to date a fourteen-year-old. Ken couldn't handle living on his own at 24, ran up bills that he would never be able to pay off, and moved back in with his parents while blaming us for the fact that he couldn't cope. And Krisco....well, don't even start me talking about Krisco. She brings new meaning to the word "pathetic". I pointed all this out to him, and I think he listened. How can people be so pointlessly stupid?
I wonder about that sometimes. Do these people feel better about themselves by taking digs at the shortcomings of others? Does it make them feel superior? Does it make them forget their own shortcomings? I don't understand.