Well, it looks like we're not going to visit Deb, after all. She called at about noon today to tell me that we couldn't go because her roommate freaked, because she has a test on monday. After all the plans we made...Dirk's really disappointed. I am too.
Dirk wants to go even if we have to sleep out in my car the entire week-end. Not happening. Dirk will just have to get over being disappointed.
I wrote an e-mail to the girl who writes the journal called "Solely", Olivia. Have you ever done something, like reached out to another person, and then realized you must have sounded like a completely desperate psychopath? It makes you wonder why you bothered. They're not going to respond. They're going to think you're fucked-up. And you'll have tried to make contact with someone for nothing. I keep trying, though. Maybe we're all a little desperate to find someone who's like us, so we won't feel so alone.
It was beautiful today, and guess what. I missed most of it. Yep, slept through almost the entire day. This is totally unlike me. I'm usually up by 6:30 whether I like it or not. Maybe I'm coming down with something. I know Katie's got pneumonia.
I've completely given up on C--. I've determined, with the considered opinions of many other girls (okay, Katie), that he's probably come down with "the boy disease". The one where they start feeling things they don't want to feel, and back off, quick. Punishing you for their lack of emotional control.
It's odd that he would come down with this, of all people. He had a girlfriend when we started talking online, and he had admitted to me in the past that he had feelings for me. Guys are a strange and terrible species, I swear.
I saw Krisco coming out of Dirk's house today. Her hair's dyed bright red, and she was wearing a short black skirt, along with the mini-biker jacket she dug up from somewhere. I'm not one for fashion, but I don't believe that a little girl dressed like a tramp is something someone should aspire to look like.
I don't think I'm ever going to wake up. I'm not certain I want to.
Dirk's gotten an alarming propensity for looking at Internet Porn. To tell Dirk how horrible you think it is that he looks at this stuff when he's got a Sex Goddess for a girlfriend, Click Here.
So much for taking my journal and my site seriously.