school starts monday! its saturday night now... 3.24am.

i have an exam on friday for my winter subject. I have to stop having all these exams.

i went out just now. im abit sloshed.

i have a bump on my head, someone threw a bottle and it fell on my head. i dont know who it was, but i hope he slips and falls and breaks a finger or sits on some pre-chewed gum.

i have gum on my coat.

i hate gum.

i have no problem with the ban in Singapore. Gum is a menacing social problem.

mmph.

im hungry. i met a guy today, he was very sweet. He was from acjc. Why is it all the sweet guys i meet are ac guys? why are they so fluent in the social graces? hrm.

pretty boy.

boy boy boy

Will you slap me if i kiss you?

well i bloody well should have, i sometimes think.
 

last night i had a dream, it was such a lovely dream i slept past 2 more hours. 
I dreamt i met Thom Yorke, ethereal voice of radiohead. He told me he was asexual and i told him he was an asexual amorphic personality (which makes absolutely nonsense) and he laughed and told me he loved me. and that was nice because it was so real and it can be so nice to be loved by someone you admire. 

<-- Thom Yorke, closet geek.

Oh what a day. 

Its confirmed, my trip to paris is cancelled, i spent hours of last week not studying because i was so engrossed in travel websites... i even bought the bloody lonely planet guidebook. ($19.95, with summary of french history) i got the form to cancel my classes, and i was really looking forward to finally having a holiday. 
  
ah well. thwarted yet again. im stuck in an interminable rut. 
  
yes im still having exams. doesn't it seem like im always having exams? it certainly does to me.  
  
i would really like to leave, take that flight to paris and start a new life. its not as if i would suffer and die once i left the structure of family and step-by-step education. blast it all. 
  
my parents just made me cancel my violin lesson tomorrow, they had other plans. I felt terrible, and it wasn't even my fault. and then my violin teacher (who's really sweet) made me feel bad by telling me he'd cancelled other plans to fit me in.  
  
and then i've not been sleeping because im a compulsive reader and i found this site with addictive fan fiction, not that its beautiful literature (which is rather much harder to read at 5am). If u follow the link and the stories (particularly the LIAWOD one), let me say i want a guy like the persona the author gave damien hirst (you know that artist who chopped up and formaldehyded a cow? yes, he in a romantic role. ahah). I wish the author didnt keep making her characters 'pad' all over the place though. "she padded over to his side".. "he padded up to her" .. "she padded softly into the kitchen"... the first few times it even seemed appropriate. 
 
the url for the fan fiction website: http://www.escape.com/~stclaire/index.html 
click on it !. its more for the females though. heheh... it is So fun to read about someone's fictional fantasies with artists and pop rock stars... 
 
My exams end on the last day of June. 
  
You'l have to excuse me while i pad softly over to my books. 
I have to frigging study now.