mah lyfe dah.
09 October 1998
 

        Eh. my life seriously sucks man.

        Yah. now that i've said that, i don't feel like explaining it.

        Long time since i've updated... Went back to singapore for about 4 days in that time. I can't remember what i did. Oh damn it lah. i don't feel very funny now. Waste of one page. Then why the hell am i still typing? damn.

        I'm now an editor for the SSA newsletter. Elections were today. It was a walkover. Brilliant innit? : )  smile smile. bleargh.

        Okaayyy.... lets chheeeeeeerrrrr up.
 
        Well.

        If i'd written this a few days ago, you'd have read about nothing but my new fetish for Hats. That's right... heheh. Fetish!! Blame it on Jason Kay, the front man for Jamiroquai. God he is SO cute. And sexy. and an Incredible Dancer... and... THE HATS!!!!  He also has this rat-ish look which goes nicely with my rodent complex*.
*Explanations not forthcoming. But u can ask.

Here i stick some photos of him. Go see. ==> a lusty bluish tinge
        Awwright. now i have nothing to say again. *mope*
 
        I have no idea why i feel so down. I know i have alot of work to do, maybe that's it, but that hasn't been a reason to get depressed before. Maybe its that everyone is pairing off. Almost everyone i know is attached and i obviously am not. Its not even that i want to be. I haven't met anyone i'd seriously like. Its so Stupid. Am i lonely? not so much, though i do feel alone. Very alone. Can u feel alone without being lonely? i think so, its like im missing a past.

        Am i my past? When u meet a whole bunch of new people, its so easy to say oh lets get to know each other. What is that anyway. You don't exchange bio/s about yourselves... You do try, subtly : "so what school were you from?". All the usual stereotypes.

        Then u know what they're thinking about you, but what can you say? You don't know me, judge me not by my school, by what i wear, not even by the way im acting, because im not like this. Nope.

        I am so many other things, and so many things to so many different people, Gosh its tiring.

        I don't know what kind of person to be now.  I don't know don't know don't know.

         *BAWL*

        Ahhhh.. i hate being judged. I make lousy first impressions.
 
 
aaaahhhhhhh Jason Kay is freaking cute though isn't he. *mad grin* 
 
I bet he makes fabulous first impressions.
 
        Along with the new Hat fetish, i now have a Jason habit. There's Jason Kay from Jamiroquai (jam choir according to my father), Jason Nah, my (ephemeral) online lover, who not only is a Hunk, but also dances like Jason Kay(!!). He makes me happy by wearing the Hat (yes, he has the Hat!!!). And then there's the sundry Jasons i meet online everyday. Each one a new addition to my collection.
 
        Haha. wish wish.

        Hat  Hat  Hat.
 
 

keeping his head toasty   This is the teapot-cover hat. Yes it's quite strange but 
  he just looks so funky* in this shot. 
 
 

  * i usually hate this word.

 
        For those of you who've regularly read my updates, you never cease to amaze me, :)  but seriously, u might've noticed that in every new update, i tend to talk about a new guy. There was edwin.. then..the CDG (cute dark guy).. then the censored one (heheh), then jason (nah), then tony, then now, jason (kay).  There were more i think, but i forgot. Anyhow.. this time this week.. who is there besides mr kay. Well i met a guy who looks Exactly like edwin. CREEPY. very uncanny resemblance in speech patterns even.

*cue in eerie music*

"doo doo doo dooo.. woooooo.. *tinkle tinkle*...*door slams*....BOO! hahahahahahaha!"

I think, maybe my life is one big cruel joke.
 
        I bought a beret the other day. Just before i flew back to s'pore i think. One of those floppy non-stiff round ones. Anyhow, it was on sale: $10 down to $2.95. Irresistible. *grin*  Anyhow, i saw Clueless (love that movie) on tv last night and i noticed they wore alot of berets, so i got inspired and decided to wear mine too. Sigh. yeah, u know what's coming. i Don't know how to wear a beret. I think maybe my head's the wrong shape. i look like a chic black floppy satellite dish. Except maybe not chic. And not very dishy either.

Maybe i'm the joke.

An Incongruous Joke. That's what i put in my ICQ info-thing. So apt.
 
        Aiyah. im getting whiny. Wanna hear my latest bad pun?

Here goes:

Maybe Mark Anthony went to Rome just to borrow some corn.

        If you didn't get it, don't worry. Its so brilliant and subtle that it'll come to you eventually. If you did, well...hey don't hit me. stop that!. ow.

Oh wait... got another one. These are original by the way... ya. who else wld take credit for them. :)

How do u get bread to last longer? You put preservatives on it.
 
    Now i've inflicted my sense of humour on you, i'll attempt to impose my musical tastes upon ye. I listen to better music than i make jokes i assure you.


The Sporadically Weekly Mango Jukebox Selection:
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1. Cake - Never There  -- a very very good song. Anyone'd love it. Very funky*.
2. Pulp - Party Hard  -- i saw the video and fell for it. pulp is very cool yah.
3. Jamiroquai!!! Everything!! particularly Virtual Insanity and Too Young to Die .
4. Marilyn Manson - The Dope Show  -- a very strip-tease song. heheh...
5. Beastie Boys -  Remote control   -- one of the b-sides i think. a good one.
6. Custard - Girls like that  -- an aussie band, fresh and fun. Fun song. try to get a listen.

* its that word again! aah!


    Just a few songs i like at the moment. I could suggest albums if you're looking for new music.
there's the UNKLE project... with the album Psyence Fiction. Its a collaborative effort i think, with people like Thom Yorke from Radiohead (yes darren, quick go get it!). I've heard some of the songs and they're really good. You'll probably find it in the acid jazz/trip hop shelves at HMV...
 
    Korn is also good. I forgot the name of their new album but its worth a listen. Someone gave me the impression it was banned in singapore though. Mad. (but it isn't, it's really expensive though: $37/$38 (import?) - thanks go to Kelly for that information...)

    Some brilliant aussie bands include You Am I and Powderfinger. Also, Jebediah and Custard(!)... Regurgitator i've mentioned before.. who else.. hrm. Heh. oh yesh, I like Public Enemy's stuff too. i'm not sure how recent their last album was, but hip hop is cooool. heheheheheh. no they're not aussie, but they were here recently. and so was Sonic Youth. and no i didn't go to either. oh whell.

Don't i sound like such an amateur/loser... :) Anyhow... now i'm into club music too. im not sure if that's a genre in its own right (i wouldn't be surprised). I'm not sure exactly what it is either, but im talking about the type where people called DJ Swamp/Soup/Street/Sock rule at the turntables and do this amazing mixing. u know.. there's the base beat.. then the occasional "fbbethibbt" where s/he sticks fingers on the record and makes it go fbbethibbt...  heheh. oh u get what i mean. if not who cares.

    Beck's coming out with a new album! due Nov. 3rd. Those of you who can appreciate his genius and who still don't have a copy of Odelay, Go and BUY IT already! No regrets, assuredly.  The new album's called Mutations and im just so happy he's making more music.

        Since i'm on the topic of music.. and it's so comfortable, i think i'll end on it. I have a reeaaallly small collection of mp3s (see: no hdd space) but its a good one i think. i really like all the songs i have. Anyway, i'm listing those i have now, and maybe in future updates i'll update this. Meanwhile, if u were looking for any of these songs, just mail/msg me and i'll transfer them over.. preferably via ICQ.
 

my collection of music files
 
 
Take care of yourself, and do Have a nice day. You might as well.
 
 
jumping jasons... and the Hat!
 
 
 
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