august fifteen

UGH! so much to say! who'd've thought that there'd be so much going on? i am way too tired to go into all of it (i'm such a tease!) so i'll summarize wicked quick: ozfext yea!; liz phair show yea! except that it was only 45 min; bought mark clothes for the wedding; saw danyell; went clubbing with jessie. and...

i met andy's new girlfriend, felicia today. there's a neat story in here about us web stalking each other, reading each other's pages and whatnot. she posted where she's working and what her hours were for today, and invited visitors... so i visited. she knew who i was as soon as she saw me. and she was happy to see me. i think we're going to get along just fine.

it's not easy but it's simple -- Rx --

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august 17

ho hum.

i've got 3 days off in a row. yesterday was eileen's wedding, which was beautiful. we didn't go to the reception because mark wasn't feeling well, but he behaved properly while there. he sure looked cute all dressed up. i saw eileen's family, which was nice. they were the first people to take me in when i needed somewhere to live. very good people. i am thankful i was invited and got to see the wedding. you should have seen how happy they looked exchanging their vows. i couldn't be happier for them.

today i am bumming around the house. i should be cleaning up; it's untidy here. but feh. i am wicked crampy. think i'll hit target; i need gatorade and granola bars for ozfest tuesday. that's right, i'm doing another one. the first was a lot of fun. i spent most of the day in the tent, selling cds and meeting bands. i was out in the field with twisted method, a new band from florida, while their manager single-handedly sold 150 cds. i had the singer from chimaira leave a message for mark on our answering machine. didn't get to meet jason newsted or zakk wylde but maybe this time. also might stop at my store to trade in some cds and but new ones. i've got a dinner date with gina at 5pm. it's only 1pm now.

tomorrow i'll probably clean up. have lunch plans with danyell. dunno if i'll go to d&d; need to get a lot of sleep before driving to homdel at 7am tuesday. that reminds me; i need directions. thinking of getting my nails done. have to remember to go to the dmv and get my license renewed before the 31st. cannot friggin' wait till halloween.

joined the liz phair message board. it's kinda neat. i've never really been one for the 'online community', but hey. i'll try anything once or twice.

felicia wrote some decent things on her page about our meeting, but i haven't seen her on aim yet. mark was a bit nervous about it; i wonder what andy had to say. i wonder if i should stop in her store if i go to that mall today? it's a dangerous question... she works in a halloween store. don't wanna spend all my $$$.

we haven't heard anything more yet about the game chuck wanted to start. i figure if we all write up characters and show up at his house, he'll have to play.

ugck, feeling icky. at least i can start taking the pill today.

it's been so long since you've been a friend of mine..." -- Rx --

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august 18

feh. it was trickery; i had work today after all. i guess i did tell my manager i'd work if he needed me, but now i'm doing another 6+ day 45+ hr week. which explains all the $$$ i've been spending... :] but they let me go home early today on account of my ookie cramps.

dinner with gina was a tad disappointing. we had their new new ravioli dishes and were not impressed. she's been having some stress, so i was very glad to get her out for a bit to unwind.

i was home for a bit after that, and felt restless, so i called felicia. her friend ashley was over, so the three of us just hung out on the front steps and talked. it was nice. they're pretty funny gals. mark was really mad when i got home that i was at andy's house, but he wasn't home and i didn't go inside. as i said to felicia, it would be like walking through a museum. amusingly, the fake snow spray i put on the windows 2.5 years ago is still there, and her cell phone number is my old number. apparently, it's the official girlfriend line. it's been good for us both i think to talk to one another. i had a hard time accepting that andy was human, and assumed that any taint of me would've been wiped clean from his heart and home. just the fact that she felt compelled to learn about me confirms that i made some kind of impact, and brings a sense of closure that had been lacking. he is no longer the boogeyman to me, nor am i to her. sisters are doing it for themselves, or something. i wonder if my name still comes up on his caller-id.

so tonight i think i'm chilling at home. i don't feel that well, and i have laundry to do, and should get to bed pretty early. ( up at 5 am tomorrow! work till 7pm-ish! hour drive both ways!) maybe i'll finish watching buffy season 2 so i can buy 3 w/ some of my overtime pay. feh.

"...i only came here to talk." -- Rx --

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august 20

note to self: stop working so damn much. i feel like shit today, and don't have a day off until at least monday. ozfest was kinda sucky. ozzy cancelled due to illness, so zakk cancelled his signing. so we lost a lot of money. plus, i spent most of my day in the smaller tent where there was a severe lack of organization. it didn't occur to me until too late to take control. i got an autograph for tim from jason newstead, but no one else. kerry king from slayer was at the jagermeister tent but i didn't get to meet him either. we didn't stay to watch any of the bands cuz of my headache, but it didn't take as long to get home as it did to get there. i went to bed at 10pm. i feel hungover, which is unfair since i didn't drink.

paranoid as i am, i am concerned about felicia. i don't think andy disposed of her, but i have no way of knowing how mad he was about us hanging out. she hasn't updated her page, been on aim, or responded to my e-mail (which i only sent out last night... but still!). it's weird because i truly wish to cause no harm, and am upset thinking that i may have. plus, she was pretty cool and i like spending time with pretty cool people. i am a spaz.

need to go to the dmv, eye doctor. start planning halloween stuff. sold a cd on amazon for $40. if i brought it back to my store, it probably would've gotten me $2. getting really excited for the tori/ben show. did i mention that liz only played for 45 minutes the other night? sadness. waited 5 years for 45 min. she'll come back, w/o mraz (who was phenomenal, btw). gonna buy some homestar hoodies when they come out next month. gonna get my nails done next week, maybe.

haven't spent much time with mark in the past three days (work, d&d, work). i miss him. i close every night this week, and work sunday, and he has d&d sunday night, and even if i have off monday, we have d&D monday night, and the tori show is tuesday night... so i might get to see freddy vs jason and my bf next wednesday, before i go out clubbing. *pout* my cat is cool.

i'm not the kind of person you think i am -- Rx --

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september 1

i don't like it when i'm not updating. maybe i'll say more tomorrow.

all i wanted to do now was remind everyone that my birthday is wednesday the 3rd.

okay, maybe a bit of update. the tori/ben show should've been a 3 hour ben show instead. he was awesome. tori was... eh. maybe i'm just spolied (it was the fourth time i've seen her). i'm getting really psyched for the new hockey season. been on a big buffy high. reading a book by carl hiassen, who is very funny. it's a nice change of pace from the fantasy i've been reading forever. mark and i are going away for the weekend and i can't wait. apparently my ex ris is spreading fake rumors to people i don't know. in case anyone asks, i've been leaving shampoo every night with different men. (see, felicia, you should come!... actually, i'm not allowed to spend too much time with her, andy's orders. foo.) i convinced dave who i work with to get his ear pierced. sorry i missed you on AIM, alana. oh, and i have a boo-boo on my lip.

zak and sara -- Rx --

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september 11

oh, geez. has it been so long since i updated? and feeling the same way i felt last year on this day, that i shouldn't be talking about myself.

but i will.

my birthday was cool. i worked till 5pm, but then we had dinner at houlihan's (it's still weird for me to be there and not drink) and saw the medallion. our weekend away was awesome. we drove down to wildwood friday morning. the directions from our landlady were less-than-accurate, but the detour was fun. we drove past the coolest graveyard; it was on the side of the road, at the edge of the woods, away from everything else. when we finally got to the shore house, it was about 1pm. after settling in, we walked to the end of the boardwalk, which wasn't far, and had pizza at a place called little nicky's. then we walked along the beach, and back up to the boardwalk. mark tried the crane machines (for a care bear and a jason) but they're too rigged and he came up empty-handed. we never made it to the other end, and so never found dracula's castle but that gives something to look forward to for next time. we visited the seaport aquarium, or the russian black market zoo, where we got to pet nurse sharks. also, we saw s.w.a.t. at the strand theater, or the porno theater with 50 seats and a big screen tv. then we came back to the house, showered, and went to the casba comedy club for dinner and a show. we saw a fella named wally collins, who has an umcoming hbo special. it's really special to look across the table and see your lover lost in laughter. *glee* unfortunately, it was harley rider's wknd, and when we tried to go to sleep, we failed because they were racing up the street. so... we drove home at midnight. i stayed awake the whole ride. it was fun.

the rest of the wknd was pretty standard. we saw the order, which was so-so... but they showed the preview for alien which is coming out on halloween. i was so excited that i was shaking and crying. i saw aliens 18 times in the theater when i was a kid. so, it's a big. on sunday, we hung out at tim's store for a bit, and then i bought a digital camera. that's right; soon there'll be tons of pictures on here! (none naked. none. at least not of me.) this will help much with showing off mark's painting, which is getting better everyday. (seriously, hon, those new chaos knights will win you fame and prizes.) i had to step out to help my friend gina with a problem, but we managed to see most of the joe schmo show together. funny stuff.

tonight, he's making me dinner, we're going to watch smackdown and then we'll put on bulletproof monk. life is good. it's hummer week again. now that i'm on the pill, that's going to happen a lot more often. sadly, the trade off is all the blood. ick. i feel all crampy today, and probably will tomorrow, too.

g'bye, warren zevon.

OH! i got buffy 3 for my b.day. hooray!

jessie is in hawaii, and i am trying to not bother felicia. my sister sent me a birthday card, so i've been upset about that. but i also started putting together one of my jigsaw puzzles, and that's a happy. really think i should get my devil's tattoo before the season starts, or at least before the first home game. we'll see.

i think that's pretty much everything. sorry it took me so long...

all those other bastards were only practice -- Rx --

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september 21

why do i so enjoy reading other people's journals?

so we went to see underworld friday night with mark's brother eric and his girlfriend meg. as life would have it, meg is another one of andy's exes. i only started reading her journal very recently; i hadn't thought to link to it from felicia's before. there was a negative comment about me and i felt the need to clear my name, so i posted a messsge, and the movie-going plans followed. i'd met eric before, but i don't know him well. it was really nice to see him. he looked healthier and happier, and more like edward norton than i remember. meg was kinda quiet; we didn't have much tim to chat, anyway. i decided to go back and read her older journal stuff, which is what i am doing now.

people's journals that i no longer read: adam; rob; porter; alana; andy. people's journal's i like to read: felicia, meg, jeff. people's journals i bookmarked but rarely check: jeremy, sue, megan, chuck. damn blog trend.

my orange halloween lights are so cool. i think i'm about done decorating. i don't really feel like spending any more money on it. i wanted to do the outside, and i might add some webs and stuff, but as long as i'm here when the trick-or-treaters come by i'll be happy. the mall limited it's t-o-t time this year to 4pm- 7pm so i'll miss that. still haven't decided what i want my costume to be.

things to look forward to: king diamond, slayer, devils first home game, insect exhibit, pumpkin picking. much much more. i should have another 3 or 4 day wknd in october. can't wait.

i got this aweosme little step machine, so now i can exercise while watching tv! i missed the past 2 days, but did it for the 5 beforehamd. i can't last long (10 minutes, and 15 the last time) but i want to keep at it. sorta trying to cut down on the food intake as well. bummer that that is.

well, off to step.

"i know all i need to know" -- Rx --

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september 25

oh, what a day. i bought a new car. okay, not a new new car. a new used car. a '01 saturn sc1. silver. less than 20,000 miles. i bought a new car.

oh, what a day.

i get to bring it home tomorrow. i think i'm still in shock. one of the belts on the wagon broke again as i was drivng to work two days ago (in the pouring rain) and i decided i had enough. i'm giddy.

did i mention the tricked out side door?

*drooling* -- Rx --

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