When in doubt… add parsley.

What a wise saying… but then if I added parsley whenever I had doubt I would trip over the stuff every time I turned around!
I have been having a lot of doubt lately… hmmmm before I go any further let me run and get the dictionary and double check this word… ahhhh yes here it is! This is an older dictionary but it will do. DOUBT: Waver in opinion, hesitate, doubt: To feel uncertainty as to something; be undecided in opinion or belief.
“To feel uncertainty” is certainly what I have had… Maybe I ANALyze things a little to much… I just want to make sure I get it right. Do you know what I mean?

It is hard being a mother… it is hard being a single mother… it is hard being a single mother that wants to date… it is hard being a single mother that is dating someone exclusively… it is hard being a single mother who is dating someone exclusively and considering her next step in that relationship… it is hard being a single mother who is dating someone exclusively, considering her next step in that relationship and trying to start a business. WHEW! What a mouth full!

The way that I have heard the word doubt used maybe it is a little strong for me…
I don’t doubt about my being a good mother. I feel uncertain at times if I am a good mother.
I don’t doubt that my boyfriend loves me… I know he does… just sometimes feel a little uncertain about myself and my role in our relationship.
I don’t doubt my abilities to run my side of this business… just sometimes feel a little uncertain I can handle such a heavy load.
But then doubt MEANS to feel uncertain… wow this could be a vicious circle.

I doubt my car will make it around the block one more time.
I doubt I will loose that five pounds before I see my sweetie next week.
I doubt getting the dog fixed is going to stop that nasty thing he does to poor Gene’s leg.
I doubt my ex will ever change for the better.
I doubt…
I doubt…
I doubt…
I doubt there for I am?
I am going to have to start a damn parsley garden!