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I find no relief
In the old belief
That what goes around comes around
People know no pain — that's all I've found
Chorus
Black colored glasses
Darkness only pass
I'll plunge out my two eyes — no longer to stare
Upon this cloud that waters my eyes
Pretending the truth is just lies
Just when I think my world is numb
My mind becomes open, conscious and free
My third eye is open and now I can see
That I am too focused on what I've become
Unable to see what I could be
When I was filling myself with too much of self
Not letting myself be truly empty
Heave on earth when I'm free of my hell
The man makes love with reflections
That only come to hate him
Victims of his deep-hearted infections
His world is ground level grim
His shadow is darker than a deep cavern
Eyes once passages to the soul
Snow puts out coals that burn
My face slammed up against the wall
I didn't want anyone to see me
When I heard the single door open
The bated breadth of the stranger
Shocked the silent solitude of my senses
When I felt a physical
Hand find my shoulder
I was no longer in denial that
the stranger was here for me
I'm sometimes overcome by its sheer size
And I have to cover up my squinting eyes
I want to find a way out
Of my perfect doubt
I want to let myself drown
In these new emotions I've found
I want to take a stab at the groom
But I have to claw myself out of this tomb
Too long have I lived dormant
Overcome by love's torment
I know that it's now or never
And I won't soon forget her
Last night, you slept
I slept awake and dreamt of you
You've got me chained against the wall
I'm in love with this pain for you
I see down the distance of a misty hall
You've got me chained against the wall
And I'm not sure what I am going to do
You've got me bagging for a butterfly that's never flying
I want to dry those glistening wings
But in a dungeon world there's no use trying
The bitter sunlight only stings
The moon's reluctant, the sun's unforgiving
I trace the waterfall path into the cracks that part
I see my internal death is what keeps you living
Back to cocoon, a second chance to start
When your conscience still wants you
The pain of the past can haunt you...to the grave
The past can be present
If you can't sleep through the night
Your caught in a moment
What you get I know I need
Like a wound that won't heal
I continue to bleed
Your the only sense I feel
I want to pull you apart
And see what man is in your heart
I've got to find the reason why
You wouldn't love me...you'd rather die
What is it about you
That makes me doubt you
Just because I'm talking to you, doesn't mean we're going to makeup
Now when I dream of you, I want to wake up
I used to dream about you, wishing I could sleep in
Just because I'm hugging you, doesn't mean we're going to make out
I used to yearn the day I could touch you
When I think of you, a rash starts to break out
Just because I'm sitting across from you, doesn't mean I'm going to eye you
I used to madly love you, now I have to really try to
Just because the air's cleaning, doesn't mean we should hurry
I used to be carefree and anxious about loving you
Now loving you only makes me worry
When I'm weary from this race I have to run
When I don't know how I'll make it through
I consider what your hands have done
Then I spread out my hands to you
My soul thirsts for you like a desert
My skies are black, no longer blue
I consider your joy, even though I hurt
Then I spread out my hands to you
When my enemies make me hate and that's all I think of
When I act like the Golden Rule's not true
I consider the morning that brings me word of your unfailing love
Then I spread out my hands to you
Guero to die
I saw myself
Exposed in the mirror
I no longer
Wanted to live here
12:52am
ii.
I don't want to live here anymore
The world doesn't seem clear anymore
I want to look towards forward to shore
This bottle cannot carry the message
The word was lost across
The vast wilderness of sand
The last thing I can understand
Was finding my mind fully rewinding
Reminding me of death's sting
Could bring any child lost
Under any pretense into the dense
Forest of fear and hopelessness
I don't want to live with
Lest I confess this stress
Really is driving me heavenward bound
I really could have changed and been to world around
1:08am
iii.
Could I cross the
Line with you
Why'm I lost when
I'm with you
I want to find a way
To define you
What I'd give if I knew
All you say is true
1:13am
iv.
There is a war
......Satan's winning
I wish we knew before
......it was beginning
Because it's happening so fast
I don't know how much longer
God's resistance will last
I don't think God had a plan
That a homosexual man
Should forfeit his mind
Because he can't walk a line
God doesn't expect us to live unhappy
Jesus took our sins so we might live free
Satan wishes to imprison man in sin
The war seems lost before lives could begin
1:34am
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