Hands reach out to your place but you are not there. The warmth from your body still emanates where you laid. My eyes search for your form and see you not around. I rise from our bed and begin to seek you. A flash and a spark light up my eyes see a flare of flame. At the end of the hall as you light a cigarette. I hesitate to go forward as you hunch over the keyboard. I look at the clock and see its lighted dial mock me. I hear the fevered tap tap tap as the words fly from your fingers. I remember when you spoke to me in that same loving way. But now your secret conversations the ones you hide from me. The ones that speak of loving her and that she loves you too. I turn and silently creep back into the cold bed. Pulling the blankets up and pretending to sleep. My heart again lies wounded deep with in my chest. Another time I have failed to understand the dynamics of love. Tomorrow I will pretend as if nothing is at all wrong. All the while I will make my plans for moving on. I love you very dearly but I am not the one for you. I am sorry if my leaving hurts but it is better now than later. Be happy and joyous my friend for that is what I dearly wish. And it saddens me that I could not be the one to fulfill it. I will treasure our time together and never will forget the tenderness you showed me and the love I wished for. Goodbye dear friend. May God bless you and keep you. Goodbye dear friend. May love light your way.
