Past

My chest tightens
and my heart quickens.
As your name drifts across my mind.
I think about you often,
are you safe and happy,
do you ever think of me.

A song plays
and I turn the radio up.
Tears unbidden well up in my eyes.
This was the song
that so many others
associated with you and I.

Lonely dark hours
spent in deep thought.
Wondering what i did wrong again.
Thinking about how
I might have been 
different, better, without flaw.

The love is there
still deep and true.
I will never forget what you mean to me.
I wish you well
and love untold
and weep for it is not me.