At times I wonder...

 Why do you say that you care for me?
            When we have only just met?
Why do you say that you have feelings for me?
            When we have only just chatted once?
Why do you say you would wait for me?
            When you know my love would become astray?
Why do you wait for me through these long months?
            When you know I might not return to you?
Why is it that you want to be with me?
            When there are others who are much better than me?
What is it that you see in me, that makes me attractive to you?
            When all I see in the mirror, is nothing more than ordinary?
What is there about me that makes you so happy?
            When all I do is bring you worry and pain?
Do you truly know who I am?
            When you have only known me for so little time?
Why, you might ask do I have such little faith?
            Perhaps I fear myself, and know you deserve the best?
The best is not found within me, I am perhaps the opposite?
            If you knew half of my life, you might even run away?
Should I ever let you know the truth to my life?
            Or perhaps I should just run away?
I do not want you to be harmed or pained,
            That is why, I must live this way.
Perhaps you would never understand me,
            Perhaps you might never get to,
            Perhaps it is just better this way,
For me to say, "Goodbye".