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It's the most wonderful time of the year.
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      There was an instant's hesitation, and the die was cast.
Macfarlane could not suppress a nervous twitch, the infinitesimal
mark of an immense relief, as he felt the key between his fingers. He
opened the cupboard, brought out pen and ink and a paper-book that
stood in one compartment, and separated from the funds in a drawer
a sum suitable to the occasion.
      'Now, look here,' he said, 'there is the payment made -- first
proof of your good faith: first step to your security. You have now
to clinch it by a second. Enter the payment in your book, and then
you for your part may defy the devil.'
      The next few seconds were for Fettes an agony of thought; but in
balancing his terrors it was the most immediate that triumphed. Any
future difficulty seemed almost welcome if he could avoid a present
quarrel with Macfarlane. He set down the candle which he had been
carrying all this time, and with a steady hand entered the date, the
nature, and the amount of the transaction.
      'And now,' said Macfarlane, 'it's only fair that you should
pocket the lucre. I've had my share already. By the by, when a man
of the world falls into a bit of luck, has a few shillings extra in his
pocket -- I'm ashamed to speak of it, but there's a rule of conduct in the case. No treating,
no purchase of expensive class-books, no squaring of old debts;
borrow, don't lend.'
      'Macfarlane,' began Fettes, still somewhat hoarsely, 'I have put
my neck in a halter to oblige you.'
      'To oblige me?' cried Wolfe. 'Oh, come! You did, as near as I
can see the matter, what you downright had to do in self-defence.
Suppose I got into trouble, where would you be? This second little
matter flows clearly from the first. Mr Gray is the continuation of
Miss Galbraith. You can't begin and then stop. If you begin, you
must keep on beginning; that s the truth. No rest for the wicked.'
      A horrible sense of blackness and the treachery of fate seized
hold upon the soul of the unhappy student.
      'My God!' he cried, 'but what have I done? and when did I
begin? To be made a class assistant -- in the name of reason, where's
the harm in that? Service wanted the position; Service might have got
it. Would he have been where I am now?'
      'My dear fellow,' said Macfarlane, 'what a boy you are! What
harm has come to you? What harm can come to you if you hold your
tongue? Why, man, do you know what this life is? There are two
squads of us -- the lions and the lambs. If you're a lamb, you'll
come to lie upon these tables like Gray or Jane Galbraith; if you're a
lion, you'll live and drive a horse like me, like K--, like all the
world with any wit or courage. You're staggered at the first. But
look at K--! My dear fellow, you're clever, you have pluck. I like
you, and K--likes you. You were born to lead the hunt; and I tell
you, on my honour and my experience of life, three days from now
you'll laugh at all these scarecrows like a High School boy at a
farce.'
      And with that Macfarlane took his departure and drove off up the
wynd in his gig to get under cover before daylight. Fettes was thus
left alone with his regrets. He saw the miserable peril in which he
stood involved. He saw, with inexpressible dismay, that there was
no limit to his weakness, and that, from concession to concession,
he had fallen from the arbiter of Macfarlane's destiny to his paid and
helpless accomplice. He would have given the world to have been a
little braver at the time, but it did not occur to him that he might still
be brave. The secret of Jane Galbraith and the cursed entry in the
day-book closed his mouth.
      Hours passed; the class began to arrive; the members of the
unhappy Gray were dealt out to one and to another, and received
without remark. Richardson was made happy with the head; and,
before the hour of freedom rang, Fettes trembled with exultation to
perceive how far they had already gone toward safety.
      For two days he continued to watch, with an increasing joy, the
dreadful process of disguise.
      On the third day Macfarlane made his appearance. He had been
ill, he said; but he made up for lost time by the energy with which he
directed the students. To Richardson in particular he extended the
most valuable assistance and advice, and that student, encouraged by
the praise of the demonstrator, burned high with ambitious hopes,
and saw the medal already in his grasp.
      Before the week was out Macfarlane's prophecy had been
fulfilled. Fettes had outlived his terrors and had forgotten his
baseness. He began to plume himself upon his courage, and had so
arranged the story in his mind that he could look back on these
events with an unhealthy pride. Of his accomplice he saw but little.
They met, of course, in the business of the class; they received their
orders together from Mr K--. At times they had a word or two in
private, and Macfarlane was from first to last particularly kind and
jovial. But it was plain that he avoided any reference to their
common secret; and even when Fettes whispered to him that he had
cast in his lot with the lions and forsworn the lambs, he only signed
to him smilingly to hold his peace.
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