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SubMerSion
By Lia!
I have heard the Mer
Maids singing
Each to me
Each to me
They lap upon the shore
Their warmth that is cold
in the chill summer night
of Missed Opportunity
The Mer
Men
sing to me
sing to me
I want to make love to them
In the turbulent depth of sea
sea sea no me in sea
There is a bliss
in drowning: an ex
tasy
out of body
out of self
drowned in wavesong wonder – I
I remember the dream I had where you were the sea and I was chained to a rock in a white dress and the waves rushed in and broke on me and the white spray rushed between my legs: ex
tasy
My God
My God
I have lost my moment
Val I have to tell you that I hate you
because you stopped me that night
when it was right and it would have
been so easy to let them embrace me
and it would have been so easy and it
was warm despite the cold and it was
night and there would have been
phosphorescence in the sea and I would
have glowed like a goddess as I sank
into the myth-depth that is you:
My God
My God
I have no other heaven
But this dream of
Sub
Mer
Sion
Under the sea
Under the sea
I hear the mermaid singing
or at least hearing the song
of the bright crustacean of the oversky
sung:
It’s better
Down where it’s wetter
Take it from me
I did not follow thru because
of you Val and I hate you because
if you hadn’t stopped me I’d be
With them – with him – I Would be
A mer
maid singing
Up on the shore they work all day
Out in the sun they slave away
While we devoting full time to floating
Under the sea
Douglas Adams said the dolphins were more clever than humans. He said people think they’re smarter than dolphins because they have achieved things like the wheel and wars and New York and all the dolphins do is muck about in the water all day having a good time. The dolphins think they’re more clever for precisely the same reasons.
The dolphins are right.
I want to be one
of Doug’s dolphins
to leap sea-glazed
from wave to wave
and speak the high
unintelligible song
that dances through sea salt
I want I want
But I am not because of you Val
because of you I’m trapped here
in Hell(ifax) and can’t get out
because the only sea nearby is
full of shit and I don’t want to
drown in shit though that’s
really what I’m doing:
being an academic
The fish in the sea is happy
As all thru the waves they roll
The fish on the land ain’t happy
They sad ‘ cause they in the bowl
Two lost souls living in a fish bowl
Disney meets Roger Waters
Strange things in a strange mind
Waters Waters Waters Waters
There are breakers in my dreams again
Maybe it should have happened that
day at botanical beach when I stood
too close to the edge and the rogue
wave almost took me but if he wanted
me then it would have been:
It was just a reminder
There will be time
There will be time
When he WILL want me
And Val will not be there
The only heaven I know is
Sub
Mer
Sion
dreaming of my sea-god
chained to a rock
so the Blonde Man
can’t stop me
and the sea rushes in
and I am not afraid
as the waves rise and break
and the white foam rushes between my legs
and I can feel you in it
and I want to be one
My God
My God
I feel you in each racing wave that breaks on me and I want to drown in you – in eternity – I want to lose my self in you
My God
My God
I could throw it all away and watch it dissolve into sea like sugar cubes into my coffee which I drink because I have to wake up from the dream and resurface from sea-wave to ripple in a cup of coffee with a sugar cube dissolving in it as I want to dissolve in you
But as I stand chained
To this rock
And the waves break
	And I know that it is right
My God
My God
Eros
Thanatos
I am for you
Debra comes and pulls me out
Just like Val did
Just like Val did on the beach in Comox
So instead of ex
Tasy
I found screams and screams and screams
I could toss it away
My life
My self
I WANT to toss it away
into the bright cold waves
that love me in a way
no person could
so I dream of dolphins
of mermaids
of breakers
of omnipotent lovers
who turn into sea
and beckon me to do the same
I have no other god but Chaos
I have no other heaven
but
Sub
Mer
Sion
The time has come for that union
which may bring paradise or oblivion
either one would be better than this
