Flood:

So familiar, oh - it's back again
Can't believe it arrived so soon
I'm forcing tears to flow
Because I don't know what else to do
Can't feel my hands, they're numb
Wish it would travel to my chest
Flood through my veins and lift this pain
That settles on me like a concrete floor.
So soon I feel the stains again
Seeping through, killing my insides
Turning black, falling away.
Don't even have memories to haunt me
Just reminders that nothing remains
- I have nothing, nothing
Friendship lost is friendship lost
Nothing built on an invisible ground
And I can't believe it's here so soon.

Saw the crack but walked on anyway
Just like before, but lesson lost is lesson lost
And now the music flows through my head
Scraping my heart out by small threads
Reminding me why bittersweet is bitter-sweet
Thinking of unreturned letters
Thinking of the place you filled
The scar, ripped open, pouring out filth
Running down my body, like a flood
Feeling my throat constricting like I'm drowning
Can't even enjoy my intoxication
The loneliness already invading my soul
Already falling back into my hole
No light to lift me out
Can't see a way to find myself
Would rather lie still and feel the weight
Feel the soil and feel my flesh sinking...

And your face I'll hold in my memory
'Til my eyes are numb with seeing it
Again and again I'll cry blue tears
And I will hear your voice and feel your lips
And feel your fair skin until I feel sick
I want to be sick, but I can't
Not with your soul in my mind.

-Kimberly N. Hunt
(c) 1998, 1999

written July 1994