Get your own Free Home PageThis particular note stems from something said to me in a recent e-mail from one of my friends. In it he said "I sometimes just lose faith in all of humanity." He meant it somewhat as a joke, albeit not meant to be a laugh out loud joke. I believe he wasn't serious, at least. But perhaps I am wrong.
But then I, of course, had to think way too much and think about it literally. And my solution was this. Personally, I have the exact same thing happen to me practically every day. At least, every school day. Which makes sense since those are the days I'm around people the most. But this realization wasn't very pleasant, first because that my opinion must flip-flop a lot since I haven't killed my self yet, and second because if I think this way at least once a day, that must mean there is at least some truth to the thought. It must be at least somewhat true that human life is pretty much worthless.
Let's zoom out for a little bit, shall we?
Think where you are. I'll use myself as an example to help you along. First, I am now sitting at my computer typing up a bunch of my opinions which very few people will ever read and fewer will care about. Don't object to be polite, cause you know that it's true. But then zoom out just a little at first. There are between five and six people just in my house at the moment, some of which have probably had similar thoughts. Zoom out a bit more. How many people on this block of my town? How many people in my entire town? And the chances are very good that at least some of them have had the exact same thoughts at least once before. Correct? But then zoom out some more. How many people in my state? Country? Approx. 250 million people live in the United States, if I'm not mistaken. That's a lot of people. That means my entire town makes up less than 1 percent of the us population. Hell, my entire state probably doesn't make up much more than five or six (maybe up to twelve, I really don't know) percent of the population of the United States. These are numbers that you can't even comprehend, it is not humanly possible, don't even bother to try. But to further irritate you, let's zoom out twice more. How many people live on this planet? 9-20 billion? I don't know, perhaps you do. Whatever the number is, it's daunting, and you could never understand it. I am not being contemptual, it's just that truth.
So you probably understand me by now. I could continue about the galaxy, universe, dimension... but that's unnecassary.
So just think about that. This means that everything you've ever done was pointless, because it's more than 99% likely that it's been thought or done before.
But Life is still worthwhile, so don't go getting depressed just because of this.
"Why?" you ask,"What makes it worthwhile in view of all this?"
In short: Love, friends, happiness, and the fact that you don't have to think about this. You can just say "Oh well, Life is worth it. If not for any reason I can think of, just because Jeremy says so."
And I do. Perhaps in a later installment, I will give you greater details as to why.
Back to Notes.
Back to Main Page.
Get your own Free Home Page