when i hear your voice so sweetly whispering in my ear i wonder what i've done to deserve this...or if i needed to do anything to earn this wonderful stream of positive words, flowing gently through my telephone. Over the wires, and into my heart. When i hear your laugh, so unique and charming, i feel a sensation of warmth in my heart.

And when you tell me not to take any shit from anyone, because i shouldn't let anyone negatively affect me, i feel comforted knowing you are behind me. Looking out for me 100%...i love how i feel when i talk to you, when i think about you, when i mutter that i love you to myself...because i don't want to ruin our friendship. Was life meant to be lived or watched? Is this caution or stupidity? What would you say if i told you how i feel? I think its ridiculous, why should you respect it? How can you possibly feel something for someone who lives what seems like millions of miles away, who you only have ever talked to, not seen; who you have never had physical, personal contact with and you are unaware of whether there is chemistry? But i don't feel stupid because we may not have chemistry, but because i don't care if we do.

I am afraid that we will not, but that doesn't make me think negatively about my feelings...chemistry, click, we have that already...it boils down to physical attributes, which people always adamantly claim they don't care about, looks unimportant, or height/weight unimportant. Even its what is on the inside that counts. Then why am i so busy worrying about how you will see me, what your eyes will see & what mine will see when they look at you? I am implanting my own negative thoughts into my mind...we're probably never meet, i'll never experience what i think i feel for you, i'll never tell you to your face, in a slow, strong, sure tone that i am in love with you - wholeheartedly; unconditionally, you and why shouldn't i have that opportunity?