A Bedtime Prayer
I'm burning out from the inside,
My worries bleed me dry,
I'm being eaten alive.
The future burns too bright.
I have to turn away my eyes,
I can't stand the sight.
Lost from the inside,
I rage against helplessness, and fear failing.
Does this make me a fool, filled with vain pride?
I've always lived by my calculated plans,
Leaving so little to chance.
Now I can't grab this dragon for the distance it spans.
I wander a true night
Looking for a divine inspiration,
Or a god to hear my plight.
Being told I'm too young to expect to know all the reasons and rhymes
Does little to quiet my fears or heal my uneasy mind.
I stand distrustful of the benevolence of time.
If I die before I wake
At least my soul the world will take.
' hope not anyone will have cause to say,
she never tried to find her way.
-srw
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