Breakdown

Feelings
extreme

sadness
extreme

tears
a stream

I scream

of course they all hear me
they turn their head shake their head turn their head roll their eyes

I say the words
they hear none

Shake them

I do

violently 

let their head fly off fly off fall off hit hit something stomp smash kick 

I do

I do

I do I do I do I do I do I do I do I do 

are you listening?  HEEEELLOOOOOOO can you hear me?

I said die!

I said go 

away

far

away

I SAID GET OFF ME!

stop

let go

let me go

let me go away

far 

away

if he wont let me I gotta go on my own so I did 

and I left

and I left

away far away

gone

through the trees 

I can't see past my tears

its a different world  

when the tears filter the sunlight

Things are distorted

its much darker 

Im afraid

Big brother protect me 

save me shield me help me

dont fuck me

my body he has it I left it 

to him

I gave it over

gave

gave

gave

gave

I stoped fighting

I gave up

gave

gave

gave

gave

I gave it up

it 

my body

MY body

I don't want it anyway

who would want it

no one wants it

throw it away

toss it away

its trash

its filth

tear at the skin

take it off get him off 

stain

filth

dirt dirt dirt dirt

wash it off

scrub scrub scrub 

scrub harder

I'm in the shower

washing the dirt off scrubbing away

of all places of all times

you invaded my privacy 

you invade my shower

You invade my thoughts, my sanity, my well being, my innocence

Cut that child down to nothing, brutaly

I can never be clean

I can never be clean

the drain

the dirt wont go down I try but I don't fit

squeeze shove 

I remember now

I didn't fit
Its over

just the shower

the abuse goes on

day after day

after day

after day

after day

after day

pieces fall into place

but where do I?

Do I have a place

but he doesnt belong why does he fit

god you did this

FUCK YOU!!!!

I can never take it back