Listening to the sound of my thoughts
Lately, they’ve been pretty rhythmic
lots of drums with violins
screeching through them.
Lots of loneliness and sorrow
strewn among the anger
The tv helps drown them out,
but sometimes the thoughts find a way to break through.
I just turn the tv up and try to ignore them
But sometimes the beat pounds through me
like a freight train
or a downpour
and the tv won’t go any higher.
It’s then
when the pounding is so fierce
that I need to remind myself
to breathe,
that I hate the symphony.
And guess what’s on
every channel?