"My search for a loving reality"

How can I believe what you say today?

When I know your lying out of bitterness.

And when you chose to ignore my begging cry to unite a mother-son relationship,

I cleared my mind of what little love I had.

Then proceeded to live a noncaring lifestyle.

I corrupted the lives of many families with my hateful past.

But the situation continued to worson when others tried to help put me at ease.

I could not accept their generosity.

I took it as a threat to my unknown future.

Now my misunderstanding has left me frightened.

Am I going to be alone in this cold heartless world?

I can only hope I find a warm caretaker in my search for a loving reality.

With a life long dedication,

I should be able to fullfill my grasping need for a loving situation.