Peace in the
Womb
The womb is a very peaceful place. You float in warm liquid surrounded by dim red lighting and the rhythm of your mother’s beating heart. In this environment, you experience the natural state of existence.
The natural state of existence is one of bliss, peace, and connectedness to the astral and causal universes. Here, there is no hunger, no cold or hot, only comfort. The rhythmic beating of your mother’s heart is the sound of the harmony of the Universe.
Sudden Chaos
It is Time! Time to be born. You search around for the way out. Finding it a tight squeeze, you push and rest, push and rest. Suddenly you find you are in a hellish chaos. Masked, giants in blue/green gowns lift and tousle your helpless body. They toss you back and forth, poking, scrubbing and cutting as you scream and in a futile plea for mercy. The peaceful, dim, red light of the womb becomes a stabbing glare. Frigid sharp air replaces the comfortable warm wetness of the womb.
Each breath feels like fire as oxygen replaces the amniotic fluid in your tender lungs. The doctor cut your umbilical cord that was your source of oxygen for the last nine months, so now you must rely only on your lungs with no rest, no relief. The pain is so intense that you force out every out-breath. You hold out that painful air as long as you can but soon you start to go unconscious and your body forces you to take another breath of fire.
Things Do Get Better So You Forget
Finally the pain becomes too much for you to bear and you slip into unconsciousness. When you awake, you feel bruised and ill but the torture has stopped. Wrapped in a warm blanket to keep away the assaultive cold you snug and secure from the recent nightmare. Instead of scrubbing and poking you the nurses are feeding and cuddling you. The memory of your birth seems distant but looming. You cannot cope with the recollection of what just happened so you bury the memory along with the critical decisions you made in the time of chaos.
The Definition of Reality
When chicks emerge from the egg, they imprint the first face they see. The first face is "mother" to the chick. Human infants imprint as well, but we do not imprint "mother". We imprint "reality". Evolution programmed our brains to establish our ontology as quickly as possible. During those first few minutes of chaos and hell, we made critical decisions regarding the nature of reality and our relationship with the universe. Each person makes a unique set of critical decisions that we carry throughout our lives. One common decision is the urge to die.
The Legacy
Each of our critical decisions about life, the universe, and reality continues to color (or discolor) our lives as time goes on. You may carry with you feelings of failure, hopelessness, or frustration coming from your helplessness as a newborn infant. You may decide that men hurt you or you may decide that women will betray you. You may hate cold or water.
For example when a masked doctor cut your umbilical cord, you may have decided that unseen powers beyond your control take what you need. Later this can manifest itself as fear that the Government will seize your property and your money. It may manifest as an ex-spouse using the unseen force of a giant law firm to take your property and force you to pay alimony (the bleeding after the removal of the cord).
Another common example is the feeling that no matter what you do, life in the world is no good, so you turn to religion to help you recreate the womb. Heaven, Nirvana, the Summerland, and Maha Samadhi are efforts to escape the body and to re-enter the womb. At the root of these beliefs are: (1) The decision that all pains and troubles started when you entered the world and (2) Before you entered the world you constantly experienced the natural state of existence. Therefore, to return to that natural state of existence you must exit the world.
Rebirthing - the Resolution
In your panic and fear, you buried the trauma of your birth along with your critical decisions about reality in your breathing mechanism. You may notice you tend to hold your breath between the in-breath and the out-breath. You may notice you force your out-breath. You may breath shallowly or with strain. This is how you maintain you self-imposed amnesia.
Rebirthing is a
process that centers on a special breathing technique. This
technique breaks up the old patterns of breathing that "lock
in" your buried memories and decisions. With it you
gradually bring up past traumas, re-experience them in light of
who you are today. Today you are no longer that helpless infant.
Today you can cope with what frightened you as a defenseless baby.
In this light, you can integrate the memory of your birth and
release the fear and panic. In This light, you can change your
critical decisions about life. You can make heaven on earth!
Graphics and Text on this page are © Copyright 1999 Timothy Scott Gore