QUESTION: I have the feeling that, due to my childhood, there exists in me a childish greed which now manifests in a need for special consideration. Do I displace or do I superimpose this original need?
ANSWER: Yes, you are quite right. You so completely denied this childhood greed until recently that you go way overboard by denying yourself every gratification and every fulfillment. You feel extremely guilty, not only due to this still undeveloped part in yourself in which the childish greed exists, but also due to the legitimate, rightful desire to receive. You feel just as guilty about the one as you do about the other. Therefore you go overboard by denying yourself any gratification.
QUESTION: In an involvement with a new person, how can one be sure that it is not a question of transference of the parent?
ANSWER: One can be sure only by deeply examining one's feelings and then ascertaining the parallels, the similarities of reactions. But a relationship need not be shied away from because it may also contain elements of transferred emotions. Not only can one grow in such a relationship -- particularly when being alert to oneself -- but it is seldom the case that spontaneous, direct feelings toward the real person in question do not also exist, which might then make the relationship rewarding for both. To the degree that one recognizes oneself, to that degree the relationship will grow more real and less a repetition of old patterns.
January 10, 1964
Copyright 1964, the Center for the Living Force, Inc.