Are there any questions now?
QUESTION: It may be that perhaps in some respects I have caught a glimpse of what it is to come near the threshold between understanding and knowing. Perhaps you could say something about the fear, the withdrawal,
and the reluctance that one has, although one knows that there is a knowing beyond it and one knows it is a great thing, yet one shrinks from it.
ANSWER: Apart from the many psychological factors which we find again and again in this work, there is a much more fundamental and all-encompassing fear and reluctance behind it which applies to every single individual. I have mentioned this factor in the past, but perhaps now it will be understood in a different and more profound way. And that is the fear of being. The fear of being means the fear of life, the fear of death, the fear of love, the fear of pleasure, the fear of taking risks, the fear of change, the fear of loss, the fear of the unknown, the fear of pain, the fear of trust, the fear of letting go of control, and the fear of self -- with all its conflicting, and apparently conflicting, right and wrong, and apparently right and wrong, emotions, feelings, reactions, drives, needs, and expressions. It comprises all of that. As long as man does not understand the significance of this fear, then he cannot know what is behind it. Therefore, he cannot overcome it. For, in overcoming this fear lies the greatest threshold of evolution that this or any other truthful path brings the individual to, and that is: floating with the universal forces -- not stemming against them -- and thereby mastering them. Man's misconception sees a duality here, an either/or. He feels that either he is in control -- in other words, that he must manipulate life, that he must manipulate the world around him, that he must manipulate his own most vital creative forces -- or else he feels himself lost and endangered. Thus, he cannot come into being. He will not come to the understanding that being and mastery -- or, to put it into different words, activity and passivity -- are not only not mutually exclusive, but they are actually inter-connected and inter-dependent. Man's fear of himself becomes more difficult to overcome because he often does not fear his real darker side, but what he believes it to be. Often the best that man has to give is considered unacceptable, while the most destructive part of him rules him, unbeknownst to himself. He holds on tightly to himself. In other words, he refuses to let go and to take any chances. And as long as man fears himself, then he must fear life, he must fear death, and he must fear love -- and all the rest of it. In other words, he must fear being, because he fears his own being.
Save all your questions for the specific discussion reserved for this lecture. It is a very important one. The more you participate and bring
out your confusion, the smoother will be your path in going through these
four stages. In the meantime, try to discover in what respects and to what degree you are still immersed in automatism, in what respects and to what degree you are aware, in what respects and to what degree you understand, and in what respects and to what degree you approach the threshold to the fourth state, that of knowing. The way to determine this is by the way you feel about it. Automatism makes you feel bleak, hopeless, depressed, anxious, afraid, unalive, bored, disgusted either with yourself or with others. It makes you feel compelled to do, compelled to say, and compelled to feel things that you disapprove of. Awareness removes these symptoms and, as long as awareness remains, it induces relief, thereby liberating certain energies. But there is as yet no question of change. In other words, it cannot even be seen yet where and how change is possible. Understanding gives this outlook. Knowing has accomplished it -- and it is constantly accomplishing it, for
true living is never an end-result. It is a constant growing into more experience and into more self-expression. Therefore, your constant knowing affects your constant growth.
May this working year bring you nearer to knowing. May some of you take
the first steps in crossing this threshold. You have all the help and all
the guidance you need. The spiritual forces involved in this venture
of communication are infinitely more real and more powerful than any of you realize. But these helping forces can and must do no more than sustain your own efforts. The initiative toward growth must always come from you at each stage of your upward road. There are many facets of working toward this goal -- and they should all be utilized. One of the most constructive tools on this path, and one that must not be neglected by any
of you, is using the other person as a mirror, and involving yourself with others -- so as to duplicate life and inner situations in such involvements.
It cannot be emphasized enough how effective such means of working with others are. This road has not yet been fully explored by any of you. So much valuable material remains to be derived from this tool. Use the other person as a mirror. For no matter how much others are also involved with their own
blind reflexes, they are often a good mirror for you. Do not shy away from
such interaction.
This coming year is bound to be a crucial one for those of you who persevere in the task of self-finding. Be blessed. Receive the warm strength flowing toward you, enveloping you and enfolding you. Be in peace. Be in God.
October 2, 1964
Copyright 1964, by Eva Pierrakos