QUESTION: What if one doubts that one's needs are justified? Isn't it also a question of what should be?
ANSWER: This is part of the confusion. If you do not know what you are supposed to want -- in other words, what is a legitimate need on your part -- then you get confused between the childish aspect -- which desires unreasonable and unrealizable love and attention -- and the adult part of you, which has a legitimate need for human warmth and for affection. In this confusion you may reject yourself for the latter, while at the same time you rebel against not obtaining the former. These confusions must be brought out into the open and examined so that you can put order into them.
QUESTION: I am aware of the fact that I distort reality. I wonder how this applies to my work situation, wherein I am caught in a hostility cycle with my boss. At least on my part I feel very hostile to him. This is very real to me, although I know I am over-reacting to it. Would you comment on this?
ANSWER: As you already know, this does not really have much to do with your boss. It is all a question between you and your father. You have to ask yourself the relevant questions. What do you really feel about him? What do you believe that he felt about you? And why? If you tackle these three questions only, then you will already be more in clarity on the level of what you believe exists, rather than being in the fog of not knowing what bothers you. Out of these questions then more questions will arise. But let us not hurry ahead. do not be impatient. Just concentrate on these three questions, but without taking anything for granted. It is essential that you first ask yourself these questions and then that you answer these questions. Then -- and only then -- you can tackle the next level, that of considering what is.
April 12, 1968
Copyright 1968, the Center for the Living Force, Inc.