Psychic Nuclear Points Continued -- Process In The Now

By The Pathwork Guide

Greetings, all my dearest, dearest friends. May you all receive the blessings, the strength, and the love that are poured forth as a result of your combined efforts and of your combined commitments to your innermost being. In this lecture I shall continue the sequence of the topic I started last time. Once again, I ask you to open your innermost sensitivity and your intuitiveness in order to understand, at least to some degree, the deep meaning of this lecture. For bringing to it your intellect alone will not give you an adequate comprehension of the depth of this topic. And again, as with the last lecture, what may first appear to be purely abstract cosmic knowledge about creative processes will, when you pursue it and follow me all the way, lead into the second part of the lecture and become clearly and immediately applicable to your life here and now. Your inner process will become more comprehensible when you perceive, to whatever degree this is possible for you, how this process is directly related to and is part of larger cosmic processes that exist always.

In the last lecture I explained to you about psychic nuclear points and psychic nuclear spiral configurations. I will briefly recapitulate these in order to make this lecture more comprehensible.

Every smallest particle of creation consists of an endless series of psychic nuclear spiral configurations that are intense energy movements winding up in a climactic point which brings this particular creation into manifestation, on whatever level of reality that may be. Each of these configurations consists of a series of psychic events -- of consciousness content. In other words, these energy movements are not merely mechanical constructs that exist separately from the mind. They are always expressions of the mind -- either the greater mind or smaller minds, as the case may be. Each creation has several sequences of such configurations that intertwine, that interweave, that overlap, that form and that reform themselves, that create, that fall apart, and which then recreate themselves in ever self-renewing, perpetuating, extending patterns of interacting spiral configurations. Each pattern may seem to -- and may even be -- a creation within itself, quite different and purposeful within its more narrow framework. At the same time, it is part of a larger scheme of a purposeful pattern of creation.

Let me give you a simple example on the physical level. Let us suppose that you decide to get up from your chair, to move through this room, to walk down the stairs and out to the street corner -- for whatever purpose. That total plan is one configuration, one spiral. As you arrive at your destination, the explosive, climactic point has brought your plan into manifestation. This particular creation has now made its appearance on this level of reality. However, before this result can come into being, you have to take many steps. Each step is a plan in itself, it is an intent to move certain muscles, because even though you may move these muscles automatically by now, this intent still exists. The intent, the movement, and the execution of the intent follow a certain plan. The plan, together with the execution in each particle, creates many smaller (the terms small or large are not correct on this level of reality, but I have to use them for lack of better words in your language) spiral configurations, complete in themselves. Each step is the creation of a spiral form and is a psychic nuclear end point -- complete with consciousness content, with purpose, with plan, and with execution. The total walk consists of a larger such total form, consisting of those smaller ones -- the individual steps. But the walk from here to the corner is not an isolated creation either. It, too, is part of a larger scheme; a plan, a purpose, an intent, of which the walk is just as much a partial creation as the step is a partial creation of the walk from here to the corner. This formula is very important for you to understand because it represents the scheme of creation itself.

Let us take another example. Suppose you wish to build a house. Again, the same principle applies. So and so many partial creative spiral forms converge into a whole which, in turn, is again only a part of a larger plan. So, when planning your house you may first have to work for a number of years so as to be able to purchase the property and then to hire the architect who plans and designs the house; the architect, in turn, must execute his own plan: hire a contractor who organizes the work with various sub-contractors who must cooperate with one another; then laborers, interior decorators get to work until the house is finished. Each goes through an infinite number of a series of interacting psychic nuclear points, each totally formed in its own perfection, the whole of which becomes part of a larger plan and scheme, and so on and on. Each step in its smallest particle is a creation in itself. Each "little" creation is the explosion of a psychic spiral formation. The larger creation consists of many smaller ones, which extend and extend. For example, the purpose of the house itself is only an infinitesimal step of a whole larger series of creative, intertwining events. You may follow through yourself, with some imagination, how this house is, relatively, only a small step in a larger scheme. This larger scheme, too, is only an infinitesimal step of a still larger scheme -- as this one human life is when considered over a whole period of its evolutionary spiral movement.

This is a very important process for you to visualize intuitively. The examples I gave are simple. Yet even in these simple examples you can imagine how many psychic nuclear points are necessary in order to weave together a whole network of larger psychic nuclear points, which, in turn, move, create, explode, fall apart, form together in a new meaningful pattern, related to a larger plan. Trying to imagine the almost unimaginable meaning and purposefulness behind these plannings may give you an inkling of the Divine Mind at work at all times in its benign, loving wisdom and power of creation. Understanding this principle even to a small degree will give you another insight, namely that even an insignificant act like walking from here to the street corner is a creation. It requires the most brilliant creative genius to set in motion the energy system, the muscular coordination, the control, and the innumerable components necessary to execute such a creative act, with all that forms a part of it. And walking from here to the street corner is not an isolated creation. You must have a reason to walk there, and that reason, again, is only a small part of a larger plan or scheme. This interweaving, forever accelerating, enlarging, self-perpetuating process of creative patterns, each in itself a perfection within its own fragment, and this fragment only a part of a larger fragment, and so on and on, is a vague sketch of the creative process per se, always at work.

Imagine the creation of a planet, the creation of the human anatomy, the creation of a mathematical system, the creation of the literally infinite qualities contained in the ether, and still you may not even vaguely perceive how many entire systems of creation -- systems within smaller systems -- are contained in the creation of each of these examples. There could be no smallest particle of air that is not in itself the perfect creation of a psychic nuclear spiral point and a climactic explosion. Each of these particles is a part of a larger scheme, as I illustrated with the other example. I only wish to convey that the smallest or the biggest creation -- from your point of view -- undergoes the same serial law that is the basis of creation itself. This is why I repeat myself. When you look at your inner makeup, at your reactions, and at the creations of your mind, then it will help you to perceive this process. For the same principle exists with both positive creations and with negative creations.

Since the universe is filled with being, then there could be no smallest measure where there is non-being. Each of these nuclear points has both a content and a meaning. It is not separate from the consciousness. It is an integral part of and a result of the consciousness. And when you understand the inner meaning of a nuclear point, when you perceive a nuclear spiral point, fully comprehending its meaning and its purpose -- in other words, its message -- then you will have transcended, to a certain degree, the narrow confinement in which you suffer from seeing the world out of context. The less you see that these smaller part-creations are only fragmentary particles of a whole, the more you believe that the smaller particle is all there is -- and therefore that it has no connection with anything else simply because you cannot perceive more -- the more fragmentized you must be yourself in your momentary consciousness and sense of awareness. When I say momentary, I mean as long as you reside within the narrow confines of your human limitations.

Conversely, the more you can perceive that everything that you experience is only a fragment, a smaller part, of a larger ongoing plan -- like the one step that you take as part of the whole walk, the walk being a fragment of a larger plan in your mind -- the more you are aware of and therefore connected with the All-Consciousness, the Whole. Therefore, you are nearer to bliss.

Time is a manifestation of this fragmentation. For time is nothing but the illusion of a disconnected view of reality. In the framework of this particular topic, time is a perception of the partial steps, of the smaller creative units of the spiral nuclear points. In other words, you do not see the whole structure of this particular particle. This is why often man suffers from a feeling of senselessness. When man is in this limited state of consciousness, then he is fragmented, and therefore he is oblivious of the larger process.

According to man's state of consciousness, time is experiencing what is as a sequence and not as a part of a whole -- not linearly, but all the way, endlessly and in width, depth, and scope, in dimensions that the human mind cannot perceive at this point of its development. Each moment of time, to speak in your terms -- each moment of being, to speak in my terms -- is in itself a psychic nuclear construct, containing meaning, containing consciousness, and containing a purposeful design. Each fragmentary second is that. If you string along second upon second upon second -- not only sequentially but in depth and in width -- then you may perceive that there is no time, that this is a point of creation that is endless and that is always there. That is what we might call the Now Point.

It is possible to occasionally experience the Now Point -- to have a sense of it -- even in man's present state of development. But this requires much higher states of consciousness. And that must be earned. Mankind as a whole has now just about left kindergarten. When the human consciousness grows and matures a little, then it will perceive life not only as the fragment that is immediately obvious, but it will also sense that the fragment is only one part of a larger fragment, and so on and on. When that is the case, then the human consciousness is ready to experience the Now Point. Though a person may have only occasional inklings of such a perception, these will be enough to imprint upon the mind the fact that there is much more to his life than what he immediately experiences.

Being in the Now Point means being completely in the Now. This is what we are going to talk about in the second part of this lecture. Only when you are in the eternal Now are you truly in bliss, are you truly safe, are you truly secure, are you truly fearless, are you absolutely certain. But not as wishful thinking, rather as the absolute, realistic, justified inner certainty that does not stop merely because certain momentary manifestations seem to stop. That sense of eternality is the true bliss. When there is no fear, then there is complete relaxation. The word relaxation could be misleading, and therefore I hesitate to use it. But the human language is limited and we have to do the best we can with the terms available to us. So let me describe what I mean as best as I can. A completely fearless state -- one that is without any contraction and without any tension -- is the state that makes the personality susceptible to the ever-existing bliss of the universe. But this is far from being a passive state. The lack of tension does not imply either flaccidity or motionlessness. It is an ever-moving state in which the pulsatory changes of tension alternate with openness, with total receptivity. In the ordinary, human sense the flexing is a kind of charging so as to give spring to the creative movement that follows from it. This alternating movement of charge and let go is a creative whole which makes the entity participate in the creation. Both these movements are relaxed in the sense of being without fear and without defense. They express a state of deep knowing that all is well in the universe.

This state is immensely blissful. Deep in the heart of all human beings the longing for this bliss can never be extinguished. When man fragmentizes his consciousness -- and therefore creates the false reality of the three-dimensional world -- inwardly he is still connected with both the greater reality of his eternal being and with his eternal Now Point. His manifest consciousness will constantly strive for this state, whether he knows it or not. This striving is the motivating force that moves him to grow, to search, to move, to accept his temporary hardships which are self-created and to walk through them as through tunnels so as to free the self from the obstructions. This requires a motivating force. For you constantly fluctuate in an inner battle between wanting to move -- and hence follow the longing -- and resisting the urge to move, thereby giving up the bliss that your heart knows exists. This is a tremendously important struggle that each entity must go through. At one period in the evolutionary ascent the struggle is won. The commitment is made to the movement, even if it seems to bring either momentary discomfort or some temporary hardship. But that is an illusion. What is really discomfort and what is really a hardship does exist, and therefore must manifest, whether or not the entity decides to move in the direction of his own inner destiny. To follow this movement is the only way the hardship can be understood and therefore dissolved. A denial of the hardship only appears to eliminate it, so that the further illusion then comes into existence that the hardship is created as a result of the decision to turn inward into the direction of the real self.

The striving for the bliss is the motor force. It is the motivational force that tips the scale of the inner battle between movement and stagnation on the side of movement; of the inner battle between reality and illusion on the side of reality; of the inner battle between fulfillment and despair on the side of fulfillment. This must occur at one stage or another. However, man also seeks shortcuts. He often wants to attain the fulfillment of his longing without paying the price. This price is the hard labor of searching, of seeking and finding, of learning, of growing, of changing, of self-purification, of traversing all the self-created pain, and of going through all the evil aspects within the self. In other words, the Pathwork.

Now let us briefly consider what such shortcuts may be. Several are possible. Let me list a few. Sexual activity can be such a shortcut. In the sexual experience the blissful Now is most often experienced, although very rarely sustained. When sexuality is an escape from the problems, from the difficulties, and from the unpleasant aspects of reality, then sexuality is sought as a cheap way of attaining a semblance of the universal bliss which the heart knows exists. As with all cheating, it cannot work. At best, this bliss will be an illusory one. Therefore, it will be shortlived. When the blissful universal state of the eternal Now is attained through honest growth, then sexual union will be but an expression of it. It will be the result of two beings who relate on the deepest, the most honest level -- two beings who fuse their spirituality, their emotional selves, their minds, and their physical beings. The bliss that results from this is a foretaste of the Now Point. In other words, then the Now Point will be experienced temporarily.

The most blatant false search for the Now Point is through drugs. The drug experience does remove the physical, three-dimensional boundaries, and thus reveals the reality behind the great curtain. But when this revelation occurs without having earned it -- by making the state of consciousness compatible with this experience -- then the price is high. I hardly need to illustrate the point. The same applies to alcohol. The inner struggle is always a combination of two aspects of the personality. On the one hand there is the great urge to be in a blissful state, which a part of the personality remembers and desires. On the other hand there exists a resistance to doing the work that should be done. The attempt to compromise between these two sides is the cause of such false ways of attaining the Now Point. The fall from the state of bliss is then all the more painful and the state of ordinary, physical consciousness all the more dark. In scripture the Fall of the Angels is often symbolized as a one-time happening. But it is actually a reality outside time that occurs when the fragmented state of consciousness accrues as a result of violating some spiritual law. The false search for the Now Point is a violation in that it wants to gain the result without paying the price. The insistence to be in heaven without being ready for it makes the personality plunge into hell.

Meditational exercises are another way in which man seeks the state of bliss. Offhand, it would appear that this is an honest search, for it usually entails a lengthy practice of concentration exercises, and sometimes a quite ascetic way of life, which is supposed to prepare the personality for the experience. This is often an illusion. Extended fasting, concentration exercises, chanting, and the self-hypnotic reiteration of meditational phrases can indeed produce results. There can be a temporary experience that reveals the great world behind the curtain. But if all these practices are substitutions for self-search, for self-purification, and for change from the depths of the distortion, then in essence they are similar to the more crassly destructive escape routes, such as those we mentioned before. If the meditational exercises are mechanical, then the way is an illusory one. Only when the Now Point is a result of slowly-earned development will the new perceptions be truly yours. Otherwise a lot of energy is being put forcefully into something that cannot be maintained with a feeling of ease. Therefore, it must eventually split itsef off from the undeveloped parts, which then are pushed out of consciousness. Thus a tremendous contradiction occurs. The blissful Now Point is truly a result of unification. If this unification is not attained honestly and if shortcuts are being sought, then instead of unifying an even greater split will occur. In fact, in such a case the personality started off less split than it will find itself after temporarily tasting and savoring the blissful Now Point by artificially induced means. I include mechanical exercises and practices as such means.

There is only one safe and secure way to obtain the blissful Now Point -- the revelation of reality in its unlimited dimensions -- and that is by fulfilling the task for which you have come. Only a path such as this can help you to do so. You must learn to go through your pain: the pain of your illusions, the pain of your guilts, the pain of your undeveloped side. Ultimately this is what it all amounts to.

What is the nature of the state when the Now Point is lost? It is not being aware of -- being cut off from -- spiritual reality. It is believing that the temporary reality that you have created, which is an illusory reality -- if I may coin this apparently paradoxical phrase -- is reality.

Now I come to the most crucial part of this lecture. I said before that being in the Now Point is being intensely aware of the meaning of this Now Point. When you strive away from the Now Point, then you lose the awareness of the meaning of it. Then you create a superimposed reality, and therefore a false reality. This happens in several ways. In the first place, not being in the eternal Now -- in terms of time -- is due to being either in the past or in the future. In other words, to not being in the present, in the infinitesimal present. One can be in the present to some degree, but still not be truly aware of the Now Point. When you are in the future, then in each minute you are already ahead -- perhaps in the next minute, in the next hour, in the next day, or even in some far away future, in a wishful daydream of how it will be or how it should be one day, or of how it could be by magic. But you either bypass the Now Point -- that could give you the key to actually working toward that cherished future point -- or you hang on to something from the past that governs you, often without even knowing it.

Your pathwork brings you in connection with both. Often it is only after laborious groping that you become aware of how much your past has influenced you. For instance, your past makes you react to something that takes place now as if it were still the past. In your distorted vision you believe that the current event actually is the same as the past one. Not that this belief is articulate. If it were, then you would be nearer to the Now Point. The fact that you are convinced that your present reaction is an appropriate one to the Now is a measure of your alienation from the Now Point. The degree of such superimpositions from the past to the present is much stronger than even you realize, my friends. And some of you have seen this. But as you grow further, you will become more conscious of this time projection. Often what you believe are free actions, determined by the current situation, are not at all freely chosen actions, but are actually determined by events that happened in your past -- and by the subsequent reactions you had that may or may not have been appropriate then. In either case, they are not appropriate now and they only lead to a distortion of reality, and thus to a false creation that blots out your connection with the real Now.

By the same token, when you view your life objectively, then you will see how much your wishes and your strivings into the future determine your experience -- and therefore your lack of true depth experience -- now. So you lose the Now Point as a result of the past and of the future that tear at you from both directions, as it were. Speaking crassly, this lack of awareness of what really takes place creates the illusion of time. To put it differently, the false reality -- the result of the lack of self-awareness -- creates a fragmentation, and therefore a disconnectedness.

To be in the Now Point and to comprehend its meaning -- in other words, not to live either in the past or the future -- is not something that you can directly determine in your mind by an act of will. The act of will does come into play, but it must go toward establishing self-awareness in all those mundane aspects that are unwelcome for you to face and to deal with. Only then will you be in truth and only in that way can you establish a sense of reality. And only as a consequence of all that will a new sense of timelessness evolve spontaneously, effortlessly, when you least expect it. It will come as a byproduct of your search for your own truth. As a result of your self-exploration, the past will cease to be the present. Then you will completely trust the future because you will know that the future can only be an extension of the Now. If you are in the Now in full truth, then you build a future (in your terms) that can be wholly trusted. Thus you don't need to toy in a wishful way with the future because you don't need to escape from the present. Then the forever Now takes on a new reality.

Other ways in which you lose the Now Point of each fragmentary moment in time -- in which you exist, in which you breathe, in which you think, in which you will, in which you feel, and in which you experience -- are very familiar to those of you who have spent time and effort on this path. They are even known in this material world by those psychological schools which attempt to find the inner self. They seem to have little to do with cosmic and creative processes. In your world today they seem quite humdrum concepts, far removed from such topics as we discuss now. But they are intensely connected with the processes under discussion. They are (1) displacement, (2) projection, (3) denial.

I will give simple examples of each. Then you can use these examples for your further pathwork, for your further self-exploration. Suppose there is something painful in you that you struggle against (and you all know how much you struggle in that respect). You lose the Now Point through displacement. Let us take the example that you dearly love a person who hurts you, and who therefore angers you. You do not wish to offend that person. If you show your real feelings, then the consequences may be the loss of that person, whom you need and therefore are dependent on. This would cause a pain that you wish to avoid. Nevertheless that person has done something to you that pains you, and therefore that angers you. Acknowledging that pain may also destroy a bubble of illusion that you do not wish to give up. Perhaps the illusion is that the beloved person ought to be perfect, and therefore never do things to hurt you. The purpose of your illusion is to avoid unpleasantness (in this case confrontation) and/or risk (the possible loss of the loved one). You hope to avoid all risks, to avoid all discomforts, and to avoid all pains by building an illusion into which you then invest a lot of your energy so that you can maintain its fictional reality. Nevertheless, the energy of the pain and the energy of the anger which you experience are very real. Therefore, they need to be disposed of. This is another aspect of the illusion that simply by not acknowledging them -- in other words, by denying them -- your pain and your anger will go away. The mechanism by which you try to solve this problem -- often so automatic that it is not even perceived -- is that the feelings for this beloved and important person are transferred to another person, perhaps on another issue. This other person may not mean as much to you. His anger, his rejection, and his retaliation may be less dangerous to you. Or you are so secure in this person's love, tolerance, and understanding that you can safely put this load on him. In that way you have solved the problem by finding a necessary outlet for a tight energy accumulation without jeopardizing the relationship with the all-important figure in your life. This is what I call displacement. Apart from the guilt of such a shrewd device and the dishonesty of it, displacement also creates a false reality. You begin to live in a self-created world that has no bearing on what really is. This makes you completely unaware of every fractional Now Point. You cannot discern either its meaning or its message, until you are willing to set it all straight again.

Many of you have advanced sufficiently on your path and have experienced a number of times the fact that when you fully face the most undesirable, the most dishonest, and the most petty infringements of the truth in you, then you get into a state of bliss even before you change that part of you, but simply by dealing honestly with the issue. The reason for this is that you are in this particular Now Point of your untruthfulness, in this particular Now Point of your deceitfulness, in this particular Now Point of your negativity. Displacement creates chaos and disorder. It creates a total confusion about what really is. It creates a total disconnectedness from the continuum of your inner experience. Thus it must create fear and fragmentation. The example I used is a frequent one and it exists in your lives to a much larger degree than you presently realize. Here and there you see some of your displacements, but not nearly to the degree that they still go on in all of you. You often shift something from one person to another or from one situation to another. Sometimes you are just too lazy and too resistant by habit to deal with the real situation. Then it comes out in the false one. There can be no question about coming into your forever changing, forever self-renewing, and ongoing Now Point unless you stop this procedure. In other words, unless you fully make up your mind to see what you are doing and to what extent you are doing it. The lack of awareness of how you are doing it only makes the problem worse. The minute you see that you have the problem of automatic displacement, then the problem is already diminished.

Now let us take projection. Although you are a little more familiar with that, you are still blind to how you react to others precisely because you do not wish to see something in yourself. Sometimes the other person may indeed have undesirable traits, though at other times this may not even be the case. But whether or not it is, it matters little. The important thing is that the energy that should be used toward facing, toward confronting, and toward dealing with the aspect in yourself that you do not wish to experience is being abused by becoming angry with and annoyed at the other person. You do this because you wish to maintain the illusion about yourself -- namely that you do not have the trait in question.

Denial is self-explanatory. You neither displace nor project what you do not wish to experience, but you attempt to deny its existence. All these procedures -- being influenced by the past; striving toward the future; displacement; projection; and denial -- are attempts to get away from the Now Point in the illusion that something that is unpleasant can be avoided. You create by force a new reality that is not founded on truth. In essence this means abusing your creative faculties. What really is accomplished is the creation of more fragmentization, therefore a further alienation from the psychic nuclear Now Point, with all its glorious meaning and its relationship to the Whole.

The love of all our friends who work in this beautiful venture is streaming forth to all of you. The blessings will multiply in your hearts and in your deeper minds as you let yourself feel these blessings. Be your innermost God.

November 14, 1973