TOM REID: I ask for the force to help me to uncover my inner feelings and to discover my heart. For years I have been repressing them and now that I want them, I find it difficult to know them. I ask for the force and for God's help.
GUIDE: You need to believe in yourself. In other words, in the forces which are within you. Then you need to let them melt into the forces that are being given to you now. You need to ask your innermost being to let you know how much beauty, how much life, and how much experience is waiting for you. I give you the force. You are being blessed.
MARGARET SCHWARM: I'd like to say that this lecture points very much to where I am in this in-gathering contraction of rest. My defenses against my sexuality and my denial of the baby in me are slowly breaking apart on a very deep level since I have made the commitment to go deeper into my body, to accept it, and to love it. I see now that I have taken the first step on the bridge I want to cross. My body is feeling the struggle between the old and the new. The old is stubborn and hard to move, and the new desperately wants to change. It is frightening and painful, but I know that I will win and I pray for that. I would like the force to strengthen the new and to weaken the old. I want that baby to grow up into a beautiful woman who can claim her full sexuality and experience the joy and the pleasure of it.
GUIDE: It will be so if you wish it with all your heart. It will be very helpful if you conduct a dialogue between the old and the new. You need to learn to love that part of you that you have hated and rejected until now. Then you can unite with its positive forces and use them. In other words, the inner uniting must take place first before the total flow and the force of your sexuality can unite with another entity. Make peace within yourself! Stop hating yourself! Learn to love yourself! You have received the force. You are blessed. Go in peace.
GENE PIPER: I'd like to say that this lecture struck me very deeply and is also an indication of where I am. I ask for the force because I feel apprehension about this new phase on this new spiral round. I come up for trial in two weeks. I ask for the force to be able to face the apprehension that I feel mounting and to be able to give in to my fear that has many aspects and that I'm just beginning to get in touch with. One of these is the violence and the rage that you have told me about before and that I'm just beginning to see and feel in myself. It's a place in me that I have denied for a long time. I feel it loosening now inside of me and surfacing. I ask for the strength to be able to confront this place in myself and find the strength to go into and through the fear of my violence. I know that I need to do physical work, and work on many levels. I ask for the strength and the help and the guidance to be able to do this.
GUIDE: As I give you the force, I want to say this to you. Let out your strength that at first -- and on the most superficial level -- manifests as violence and as rage. Express it courageously with your physical being. But express it with a joyous welcoming, receptive attitude toward it. Know that this is your true strength. It only manifests in a distorted way for the fraction of a second in cosmic time. Then you can use this beautiful strength as your power in the best sense of the word. It is the power of your love. It is the creative power with which you can shape and mold your life. The following is the attitude you need to cultivate. It is a step of courage: "Here is my strength!" This power that is yours may manifest itself in the form of rage, of violence, and of cruelty for a few minutes. But when you have developed this attitude of welcoming, positive expectancy, then you can express the same strength in the great hallelujah to your life, to yourself, to God, and to your beautiful unfoldment. For that I give you the force. The force has been given to you. You are being blessed. Go in peace.
SHARON GREENFIELD: I have felt, ever since I joined the pathwork and more intensely the last few months, how I really do not want to know the truth about myself or about anything else. This refusal to look at the truth manifests in confusion, in lying to myself and to others, in alienation from myself and from others, and in a very strong, intense resistance to meditation and prayer. I have been experiencing lately a lot of feelings of hopelessness and isolation which I know, at least intellectually, as states of unreality and distortion. And I feel very much that this refusal is an expression of the words "I won't" to life, to giving, to changing, to taking the responsibility for myself as a woman. Along with all of this I'm also in touch with a part of me that does deeply want to know the truth about myself and that wants to acquaint myself with the lower self and my higher self without exaggerating or belittling either one. I ask for the force to help me sustain my commitment, to look into myself for the truth, to going through whatever emotions and experiences I need in truth, and to travel into the place where I can say, in truth, that I want to devote my life to living and to working according to the will of God.
GUIDE: I give you the force and I say to you, as a suggestion, learn to say the positive commitment that you have just expressed: "I will face the truth. I am a divine manifestation. I want to completely unify with this part of myself. I want to give my best to life and I want to receive the best from life." The more you say this with affirmation and you mean it, then the more this is going to be so. The key for you is to have the courage to mean it. Then it will become your reality. If you say it and you mean it -- and you state it strongly, joyfully, and believingly -- then it will be so. But you have to do all that in order to make it so. I give you the force, you have received the force, and it will take its effect. You are blessed.
JOHN PIERRAKOS: I would like to ask a question. This is a question that has to do with the Center. We are in the middle of a very complicated transactional situation in relation to acquiring the rest of the property in our Center. Would you like to comment primarily upon the complexity of this transaction about the complexity that is preventing a clear and direct solution?
GUIDE: You see, my friends, the trouble is that I do not see it as complex (laughter). What to you humans seems so complicated and so complex is often nothing but the necessary outpicturing of your doubts, of your fears, of your negativities, of your negation, and of your denial -- both in the personal and in the collective. But it is not so complicated. If you trust, if you do your best, and if you struggle just a little bit with it, then everything will flow, as it actually already does.
JOHN PIERRAKOS: May I ask another question, in relationship to the lecture? Could you give any kind of an idea about the rhythmical state of the expansion, contraction, and the static. In terms of our time, does it have any rhythms?
GUIDE: Yes, each aspect has a different rhythm. That is, each aspect of the individual consciousness and each aspect of the collective consciousness, of the universal consciousness. In your personal life the development of a single quality has a different rhythm and a differen timing from the development of another quality. Even the same quality may have different phases. This is the overlapping mentioned before. So there is a constant interchange. When the development is harmonious, then it makes a beautiful tune. There is a harmony. All these different spirals and pulsatory nuclei create a different note in the symphony of life.
November 19, 1975
Copyright 1975 by Center for the Living Force, Inc.