QUESTION (Moira): A group of us who work with children in the path as helpers have started what we call a children's seminar, where we discuss the problems of working with children. One of the subjects of discussion for our next meeting is sexuality in children. I wondered if you could address the children tonight on this subject and help us who work with the children.
GUIDE: It is a wonderful thing that the old taboos are removed. The old restrictions that make sexuality into a dirty, guilty secret no longer exist need to exist. It is important that a growing human being first knows of and then learns to accept this beautiful force, this divine force. At the same time it is of equal importance to realize that the greater a force is -- whether it be the force of sexuality or any other spiritual force (and there are many) -- the more it requires a tremendous amount of maturity -- and young people can be mature. This means a sense of responsibility and self-discipline. But self-discipline does not mean a denial of pleasure. It means the constant process of self-purification, of honesty, of truthfulness, of commitment to growing. If this deep and sincere commitment to self-discipline is lacking, then the sexual force cannot be borne. Therefore, it will turn into destructiveness. It is important to understand this. It is also important to realize that without a loving heart sexuality becomes shallow, unfulfilling, and empty. Therefore, it will always be guilt-producing, no matter what the mores of your outer society may be. This is an inner guilt for wanting to grab pleasure in a selfish way, without any lovingness. Only when that attitude of lovingness is cultivated can guiltlessness exist, and therefore the full capacity to enjoy all the pleasures, including sexual pleasure.
QUESTION (A child): I want to know why I hurry through life.
GUIDE: You hurry through life because you want to shut out your anxieties and your fears, my son. And you need not do so. You have people around you who will help you first to feel and then to explore your anxieties. The anxiety that you produce by denying your anxiety is much greater than the original anxiety. So my suggestion is this: When you wish to rush, then hold still and allow yourself to feel your fears, your worries, and your negative thoughts. Then express them to your helper. Discuss them in your helper sessions and with your Path friends who have more experience to guide you. This will free you of these anxieties so that then you can be calm. It is wonderful that you have asked this question.
QUESTION (Andre): My daughter is in a very low energy level, especially in the morning. It is very difficult for her to move in the morning. I know there is a characterological reason for this, but I would like to know if there is anything that I can do about it and what is the deeper meaning of this problem.
GUIDE: The meaning is that she uses a great deal of energy in an artificially stirred up way. There is a lot of sexual energy there that she does not know how to handle and that creates an over-agitation. Then this is pushed into an overactivity that is not organic or harmonious. As a result, an imbalance is created. Therefore, at certain times energy is lacking. Now, you may not be able to immediately do something about this. At the same time, your awareness of this may already have an effect on another level of reality.
QUESTION: I find that I am filled with distrust and suspicion and fear, and it manifests in paralyzing my own creations and my ability to work and to pull things together economically in my personal life. I wonder if you could help me.
GUIDE: The first stage on your path is the most difficult struggle. The further you go, then the easier is becomes. But in this first phase you will find it difficult to remove your mask self and look at your lower self without losing sight of the fact that you also have a higher self. Yet this higher self must not be confused with the mask self that you have identified with for such a long time. You had confused this mask self with your higher self. To remove the mask self is complicated, for if you focus only on the lower self, then you despair. At the same time, if you revert back into your mask self, then you are right back where you started from. Your despair is due to the fact that you cannot differentiate between your mask self and your real higher self. You believe that if the mask self is taken from you, then you are going to disintegrate into an evil person. The lower self is never beautiful, it cannot be, for it is a distortion of the beauty. You need to pray for the courage, for the strength, and for the faith to go through this phase so that you will find the real higher self, not the false version of it. In this initial struggle my suggestion is to make yourself available to all the help that is here for you. In other words, give yourself to every aspect that the Pathwork offers you and you will come through. You also need to make a full commitment and ask for the courage and for the trust to give birth to the Christ in you so that you can to go through your lower self and not evade it out of wishful thinking. Your distrust is an outpicturing of your inner lack of trust that there really is a higher self in you. Your distrust is that you know deep down that your mask self is not genuine and you project that lack of genuineness onto the outside. For it is a human being's weakness to always believe of others what he feels about himself. One cannot suppose that others are different. You need to get over these hurdles. If you really want to, then you can make it.
QUESTION (Margaret M): I also feel that I strongly mistrust my higher self and even to ask for help from it is very difficult for me, because there is a part in myself that persists in wanting to doubt and wanting not only to mistrust but to really prove the unreality of beauty. And I want very much to take the step and ask for your help.
GUIDE: Open your heart. Then the blessing that is here will flow into you. Speak these words: "I want to give up my negation. I want to see the truth of the God within me." Say these words and so it will be, so it must be, for that is your destiny, that is your true nature. The other is but a temporary bad dream. But a dream with a deep purpose and with a meaning. It is a dream that is a task. Your earthly lives are dreams that are tasks.
QUESTION (Albert): I would like to ask your guidance on our crisis intervention program. We have tried to follow your suggestions as closely as possible. But as far as I am concerned there are two kinds of attitudes: one that is over-cautious and examines everything and that kills spontaneity, and the other which gives in with a carelessness rather than a trust in the spontaneous growth. And I find that when we discuss individual cases we get caught in this type of dilemma.
GUIDE: I would make the following suggestion here. When a person who is in a state of crisis asks for the help, then the difficulties will be relatively small. But when the person refuses to acknowledge his state of crisis, then help should not be forced upon him. At the same time, it would be important to tell the person: "We think that you are in a state of crisis. We are willing to give you help, if you wish it. If you do not wish it, then it is your responsibility." And then let it go at that. Now, as to the people who are open for it and who request it. So far, you have always seen that it was very helpful and quite effective. The only thing I might suggest is that when you get entangled in these contradictory currents, you immediately let go and flow together in an inner focusing to your inner channels, to the guidance of the will of God. When you do, then it will come. You will find the right balance between giving, outgoingness, movement, and between spontaneity and cautiousness. At certain times it is advisable to discuss the problem with the person who is in need of help without necessarily making it a helper session. At other times simply be there with love and prayer and companionship. No rules exist. Only the intuitive connection will be valid and reliable. And that will come through prayer.
QUESTION (Ann H): I find myself in a state of being very aware of how my judgments hurt me and poison my life. Yet I can't seem to stop these judgments from coming up all the time. I'm wondering if perhaps you could help me.
GUIDE: When you observe yourself in this state, then just hold still and question yourself: "What would happen if I were to give up my judging?" Experiment with it. You will discover various states. For example, a black hole of nothingness to begin with -- which you fear. It is something that you cannot name, or label, or pin on anything. That is the creative emptiness that you have to go into and out of which the true feelings will emerge. Your negative feelings -- fear on a more superficial level -- are a cover-up for that empty black hole, or what seems to be such. In order to know the real you, you need to have the courage to go there, to learn to trust it and to learn to let yourself be with it.
March 1976
Copyright Eva Pierrakos 1976