And then try to observe from a little distance and with a little detachment your own reaction when you do this. That should be a very interesting phenomenon to you, for it should furnish you with some clue about the conflicting currents in your own soul. There is one part of you that truly desires to advance and to sacrifice the comfort of self-deception. But there is also another part of you that struggles violently against it. If you can bring yourself to view these conflicting parts of yourself like an emotionally uninvolved bystander, for the moment at least, then you will know what is going on in you and how much these resisting parts of yours are responsible for your trials and tribulations in life. That is very important. When you go about following through what I have just advised you, do not take for granted that, because of your outer good will and sometimes superficial good intentions, these resisting parts of yours are something to belittle. In fact they have to be reckoned with as a powerful opponent. You have to face that part of yourself too, not merely the fault itself. You have to realize that there is a side in you that does not want what the other side in you wishes. To recognize this discrepancy is the most important factor of all. So far you have always rationalized that conflicting or fighting part. You were so affected by the negative side in you that the good or positive side in you that wants the right and wise thing was overpowered. You rationalized this defeat with alls orts of other explanations. And then, my friends, even the most intelligent of you, even the wise ones, became very blind and very unintelligent in this one respect because of evasion. Evasion is blindness, and blindness is the contrary of light
or enlightenment.
There are three major parts of the self to be dealt with on this path of purification: the conscious mind, the unconscious, and the subconscious. The two latter are not at all the same. The unconscious is that which could be conscious if you would choose to look in the proper direction. You are simply unaware of it because your inner gaze is pointed to another direction. But the moment you change the direction of your view, it becomes conscious. It is very much there, on the surface. You have to make this distinction very clearly.
When you begin on this path, you first deal with the conscious. And I have given you various tasks and advice on how to go about it and how to formulate simply, in a conscious and organized manner, that which is already conscious. But before you delve into the subconscious, you have to meet the unconscious first. What I have so far explained to you in this lecture is the unconscious, and I have shown you here how to deal with it. Only after you have eliminated some of these problems will we consider how to go into the subconscious layers that are important for you to become aware of.
There may be many images that have formed during your early years and which affect your life now. Some of these images you bring with you from previous incarnations. Due to their existence in your soul, incidents have occurred in your life that brought them to the surface. In the right kind of spiritual progress, everything that pertains to your growth will be brought into awareness at the proper time and in the proper manner. The borderline between these three divisions -- conscious, unconscious, and subconscious -- cannot always be clearly definied, but generally you should keep this division in mind, so I am giving you this task, my friends. Those of you who have followed through with my advice concerning the first conscious layer, try now to look at the unconscious, that part which you are unaware of but which is right in front of your nose. Take your immediate hardships or problems and handle tham in the way I have shown you.
Now I will mention three main faults in the human character. These three main faults, from which stem either directly or indirectly all your various individual shortcomings, are selfwill, pride, and fear. This is very important
for you to realize. You may not think fear a fault, but I am telling you that it is; if you would have a faultless person, he would be unafraid. You all know that the opposite of fear is love. But this knowledge in itself will not be sufficient for you to understand that these three main faults are connected with one another. It would hardly be possible for you to have one or two of these faults without the third. But what may be possible is that out of the three, one or two may be unconscious, while the third is quite strongly apparent, even to yourself. Thus, it is very important to write your daily review and to check your reactions to all you have felt during the day in response to often seemingly unimportant incidents. If you try to formulate concisely an unpleasant inner reaction of yours, then you will always come to the conclusion that most of the time there is an element of fear involved in it -- fear that perhaps other people do not do what you wish or do not react according to your liking. In other words, if there is a strong selfwill, the fear is there automatically that this selfwill will not be gratified, or that your pride may be hurt. If you had no selfwill, you would not have to fear that it would not be gratified. So you can see the connection. These subtle, smoldering fears are infinitely more frequent and also more harmful than the obvious and pronounced fears.
If you begin to check your various impressions of the day and find your reactions, you can see where the element of fear comes in and whether it is connected with selfwill and pride, and to what extent. So begin to observe these inner reactions of yours and analyze them in these terms without trying to change yourself immediately, because feelings cannot be changed by a mere act of will, but they will change if you first learn to observe them. Get a little distance to yourself and see the underground workings of your reactions and the behavior of your various soul currents. Merely by doing this consistently for some time, eventually these strong reactions, inner desires, and inner pressures will become weaker. They will not cease right away, but they will become weaker and occur less frequently. Eventually, if you continue to do this in connection with adequate and pertinent prayer, they will change and leave you
a liberated person.
There are two other points I want to make at this time that are not entirely connected with the foregoing. Many of my friends here seriously desire to fulfill a task in God's vinyeard. But have you ever asked yourself whether you are truly ready for it? When I ask whether you are ready, I do not mean that you have to have a great deal of knowledge, because this intellectual knowledge will be given to you in one way or another so far as it will be necessary. But in other ways, are you really willing to sacrifice when sacrifice is necessary? Ask yourself why you want to do it. Oh yes, there is a part of you that is very sincere, that wants this out of pure reasons or motives. However, try to discover the other part that mingles in, the part that may not be as ready to pay the necessary price and therefore merely wants ego gratification. This part wants to fulfill a task mainly to receive recognition and appreciation, or perhaps to cut a heroic figure. No, my friends. You first have to work in very small ways before you are worthy to fulfill such tasks. You must not expect that God's world is lenient in this respect. It may be lenient in many other ways, but here the responsibility is too great. If you fulfill a task, you must realize that it no longer concerns you alone. There are other people involved, and if you disappoint them in any way, it will count very much against you. You have to figure out that you will work for many years without any recognition; you must really learn to sacrifice. Not only must you give up your comfort and some of your time, but also other things, my friends. These are not outer things, for that would be so much easier. These are inner things. They comprise most often what is most difficult for you: giving up your pride, your fear, your selfwill, your egotism, or a particular resentment or resistance to a person.
To fulfill a task demands a great severity with the self and by the self. It means that you have to not count on recognition from any human side for a long time, but on people who at best take your help for granted and, at worst, are against you. For a long time you have to take into account that nobody but God and yourself will know what you are doing. If you are still willing to continue under these circumstances, you will be tested for it. And if we recognize that you are ready, we may try you out, but it may only be a try -- for many are called but few are chosen.
Here is another bit of advice on an outer detail. When you sit here at any time when you meditate, then I would advise you to be entirely relaxed, and also not to sit with your legs or arms crossed. Hold your hands with the palms upward, for in a good meditation, whether it is a trance session or simply a meditation, strong forces are present. You are most receptive in the palms of your hands, and these forces can better penetrate into you through them. There may be physical healing forces present, or some spiritual force that you need, and perhaps a force that will help you to overcome some of your psychological problems. Whatever it is, it is important for you. However, if you keep your limbs crossed, you cut off this current. This is why I advise you to do it. To sit this way all the time may seem like a hardship at first, but if you learn to be entirely relaxed, you will be able to sit like this for hours and will not feel it. You will almost feel your hands lifted; you will not even have to support them in your lap any more. They will lift by their own accord, as though an outer power were at work. You will not feel any weight in them. If you can succeed in this, without too much forced concentration, you should be entirely relaxed and should feel a very beneficial effect.
And now, my dear ones, I am ready for your questions.
QUESTION: May I ask a question from the Bible? What is the true, spiritual meaning of the statement: "To those who have, more will be given, and to those who have not, what they have will be taken away?" Does this refer to faith, or what does it refer to?
ANSWER: It refers to all spiritual qualities. Take love, for instance. To those who have love, more love will be given, because it is the nature of all pure, spiritual qualities to regenerate the same quality from themselves. If you have love, so much more love comes to you, and you can then give it to many. But if you have very little of it, and if this little is diluted by impure currents, then you will lose even the little you have. It wastes away. The same applies to all other divine aspects, not only to faith or love. So
you must break the vicious circle. Everything goes in cycles, both negative and positive. The negative cycles work as long as you are in the state of mind in which you break the respective spiritual law. Then the negative currents in you are so much stronger that you lose the little positive quality you have. But
if you break this negative circle and set up a positive one, then the positive quality becomes inexhaustible. Then the more you give, the more will come out of you.
QUESTION: It means putting yourself into the great cycle of love?
ANSWER: Yes.
QUESTION: I read in the papers about the Pope objecting to delving into the subconscious, that it can be harmful.
ANSWER: Well, it can be harmful if it is done by people who do not understand how to handle it. A lot of harm has been done, also by qualified doctors. I have mentioned that, too. If the subconscious is taken apart without the realization of the existence of spiritual law and certain spiritual facts and truths, then a person can have a breakdown. It is as though you took apart a machine and you do not now how to put it together again. It can be the most useful, the most wonderful thing, but it can also be a very dangerous thing, as it is true with so many other things. Take, for instance, mediumship. It can be the most precious jewel and it can be very harmful. It is the same here. It depends on how it is done.
QUESTION: It seems that so many people have a different interpretation of the word "love." Can you give us an interpretation? What qualities does a person have to have in order to give it and receive it?
ANSWER: I think I can answer this best in a short sentence. Real love must be entirely free of ego, of pride, of vanity, and of selfwill. That is the answer. So you will realize that there are very few human beings who are capable of divine love. Does that answer your qustion?
QUESTIONER: Yes, thank you.
QUESTION: I would like to know about a departed friend of mine. I keep thinking about him and I wondered if there was any meaning in this. Why do I keep thinking of him?
ANSWER: I will need a little time. Just a moment. You keep thinking of him because often he is near you. Very near you. He wants help. You can help him by praying for him and by teaching him certain things. Think about him: his life, his views, and then compare this with the spiritual knowledge you are gaining now. See where this knowledge may be missing in him. Because of that lack, he may be in a certain need. And since there is a bond between you -- and he trusts you -- you are the one who could best help him. You could do this by teaching him in thought. But first think what lack of spiritual knowledge may be a hindrance for him now, then you will be able to teach him. Perhaps one day, all of a sudden, a thought will be in you in the form of a question. So you may be inspired by him and thus have
a sort of conversation with him. That will be very useful.
QUESTION: I don't quite understand how I can help him, though.
ANSWER: As I said, if you think about his views, you will undoubtedly realize that he had some wrong ideas about spiritual truth. This lack is a hindrance to him now. This is what you can teach him by having a conversation with him in thought.
QUESTION: Do I have to keep thinking of him?
ANSWER: You do not have to do that constantly. It is sufficient for you to figure out where his lack of spiritual truth may be a hindrance to him now. You have known him, after all, and you have known some of his opinions, his attitudes, that may indicate his spiritual foundation. That will give you a clue to where he has his difficulties. Then take five minutes every day -- whenever you want -- to talk to him about these things, as though he were still in the flesh. You do not have to do it in a loud voice. Explain to him certain things that you are learning that he may not believe as yet. That will help him because he trusts you -- and therefore he is more likely to accept something from you than from other people he has access to, even people in the spiritual world.
Well, my friends, this is enough for now. And so I am leaving you with the Lord's blessings for each one of you. May He give you the strength, the courage, and the light to face yourself and to be open, so as to redirect your life and put it into the proper channel, so that you can grow in harmony. Never feel lonely or alone, because God is here and everywhere. And He loves each one of you very much. Go in joy and in peace. Be in God.
April 1, 1958
Copyright 1958, Eva Broch