Heartbreak High

as we go forth in life
balancing the strife
and the good times we receive
it helps me to believe...

Well, there's something to be said
for the man who gets ahead
but lately I did find
that a backtrack in my mind
could be...maybe...
something to sing about

I remember
a time when I used to smile
I remember
we used to run wild
I remember
the laughter in a game
I remember
but now we're not the same

I was sitting at a desk
a place where I felt best
in the comfort of solitude
adventures not pursued
I began to think about...
and I really thought this out...
so many chances not taken
when I was shy...I was mistaken
maybe...I could be different

I remember
a time when I used to smile
I remember
we used to run wild
I remember
the laughter in a game
I remember
but now we're not the same

sometimes it's hard to set aside
the past when you want to hide
from the present, but it's the present
that makes the future

I remember
a time when I used to smile
I remember
days of running wild
I remember
but that was way back then
I remember
it's time to live again

FACES IN THE CROWD

All along the corridor
they sing this song that they want more
weak or strong, push through the door
right or wrong, they're after more

see a face in the crowd
in his place
he can't cry out loud
cry out loud

by a group of a social game
trying to move, but stuck the same
bad to stoop to inflict the pain
to join a troupe for personal gain

see his face in the crowd
in his place
got to cry out loud
cry out loud

LAST IMPRESSIONS

last time I saw you, I was slapped in the face
a misunderstanding and I'm all in disgrace
now you get to hear me apologize
I hope I can reach you, look into my eyes

last impressions
mistakes made
true confessions
out of the shade
out of the darkness
into the light
I ask forgiveness
let's make it right

you know I like you, yeah we could be friends
for themselves your asshole men fend
but I'm a nice guy and a family man too
got lots of spare time that I could spend with you

last impressions
mistakes made
true confessions
out of the shade
out of the darkness
into the light
I ask forgiveness
let's make it right

there comes a time to forgive and forget
Come on...Bury the hatchet

HOLDING ON

I've got to get to you
I've seen you for so long
I've got to get to you
something in me's gone wrong
I've got to get to you
to find out things I wish I knew
I've got to get to you
what can I do?

if you've gone
where did you go?
if you've gone
I wanna know
if you've gone
I still love you
if you've gone
I still wanna see you too

be with me
tho you been mean
be with me
you can be clean
be with me
come and stay
be with me
love leads the way

I know I'm holding on
to a hopeless dream
but I'm more relentless
than I seem

HOLIER THAN THOU

Well, I thought that you should know
so I'll tell you right now
with you I can't grow
cos I'm holier than thou
I thought that you would see
the why and the how
you're not good enough for me
cos I'm holier than thou

GENERAL RULE

I don't piss standing up...as a general rule
(as a general rule)
I don't piss standing up...as a general rule
(as a general rule)
I might miss standing up...I know it's uncool
(I know it's uncool)
I don't piss standing up...as a general rule
(as a general rule)

when I face a conflict, I turn my head
cos I don't want to find myself dead
when I reach a river, I don't swim across
I look for a bridge while time is lost
and when I face a conflict, I turn my head
that's why I said...

I don't piss standing up...as a general rule
(as a general rule)
I don't piss standing up...as a general rule
(as a general rule)
I might miss standing up...I know it's uncool
(I know it's uncool)
I don't piss standing up...as a general rule
(as a general rule)

when I get embarrassed, my face turns red
so I try to avoid it by staying in bed
then I'm feeling restless, like I want to dance
you say "come on over", but I don't take the chance
and when I get embarrassed, my face turns red
that's why I said...

I don't piss standing up...as a general rule
(as a general rule)
I don't piss standing up...as a general rule
(as a general rule)
I might miss standing up...I know it's uncool
(I know it's uncool)
I don't piss standing up...as a general rule
(as a general rule)
as a general rule
(as a general rule)
as a general...RULE!

MILK IN HER EYES

she has milk in her eyes
she has milk in her mouth
and she takes a drink
when she goes down south
she's dreaming tonight
she's thinking up lies
she's so hard to excite
when she has milk in her eyes

SONG OF LES

it's late
and I'm feeling bad
I wanted to relate but turned down chances I had
feeling like
I wanna make some friends
kneeling like
I wanna make amends

some kinda mystery why I cannot talk
find an opportunity and I wanna walk
don't know why I can't learn to communicate
don't know why when I talk seem to aggravate

I'm fine
but people say "he's a nerd"
don't wanna be seen with me cos they are not ensured
feeling like
they're gonna lose a friend
if they like
someone not in the trend

some kinda mystery the way people are
find some words of cruelty and take them too far
don't know why I always get my feelings hurt
don't know why I always get treated like dirt

it's late
and I'm feeling tired
sleep was gonna wait but now I'm feeling inspired
feeling like
tomorrow's a new day
and I like
to be feeling that way

some kinda mystery this disappointment
find a piece of history that's just a fragment
don't know why I'm always setting my hopes high
don't know why, when the days just keep passing me by

IT'S A JUNGLE DOWN THERE

and I confess
I’m a little nervous
I'm a little shy
and you know why

(down, down)
It's a jungle down there
(down, down)
It's a jungle down there
(down, down)
It's a jungle down there
down there, down there, down--
(down, down)
It's a jungle down there
(down, down)
She's a jungle down there
(down, down)
She's a jungle down there
down there, down there, down there

she's a little crazy
she's a little sly
you feel your manhood threatened
with that look in her eye

(down, down)
It's a jungle down there
(down, down)
It's a jungle down there
(down, down)
It's a jungle down there
down there, down there, down--
(down, down)
It's a jungle down there
(down, down)
She's a jungle down there
(down, down)
She's a jungle down there
down there, down there, down there

still I fit real nice
and she tastes just fine
but in 30 seconds, twice?
I must draw the line

(down, down)
It's a jungle down there
(down, down)
It's a jungle down there
(down, down)
It's a jungle down there
down there, down there, down--
(down, down)
It's a jungle down there
(down, down)
She's a jungle down there
(down, down)
She's a jungle down there
down there, down there, down there

HOLD ME, DON'T LET GO

late at night
filled with fright
hold me, hold me, hold me...don't let go

gone's the light
hold me tight
hold me, hold me, hold me...don't let go

feel a chill
love lay still
hold me, hold me, hold me...don't let go

in the storm
keep me warm
hold me, hold me, hold me...don't let go

by the way
I think I should say
I want to send my love your way
I want you to say...

hold me, hold me, hold me...
don't let go

SHOW TUNE

sometime, while I'm watching TV
I might miss a sunset
sometime, while I'm watching TV
it could be I'll forget
someone, who's in a hurry
who might need me to help with something
sometime, while I'm watching TV
the church bell could ring

but TV for me is no waste of time
I watch it and I love it and it ain't a crime
and sometimes, you know that in life I see
glory and friendship, love and beauty...
while I'm watching TV

sometime, while I'm watching TV
I might miss out on knowledge
sometime, while I'm watching TV
I think, "could've gone to college"
sometime, instead of watching a movie
I could be stretching my brain
but sometimes, when I'm watching TV
at least I am entertained

cos TV for me is no waste of time
I watch it and I love it and it ain't a crime
and sometimes, you know that in life I see
glory and friendship, love and beauty...
while I'm watching TV

and I see people together
holding hands through the stormy weather
they get along and their problems are solved
in just one hour, I feel mine too disolved
while I'm watching TV

FIXATION

I saw you one day
I heard myself say,
"you are a good guy"
I thought I was dead
when I turned my head
as you passed me by

I thought we could walk
I thought we could talk
together in the halls
and people would see
who was walking with me
no loser after all

I had a fixation for you
temptation too
and to what end?
until we were friends?
I didn't know
how far it would go
and now I love you

I ignored the Lord
the One I've adored
except when asking for you
and you were so nice
I thought more than twice
about falling for you

I spent most my time
mute as a mime
when I was at school
but when I was home
and I was alone
I'd pretend things were cool

I had a fixation for you
temptation too
and to what end?
until we were friends?
I didn't know
how far it would go
and now I love you

and I dreamed about you
and I fantasized
and I saw you for real
and I realized...
time is passing by

it's hard to love
when the feeling's not mutual
it's hard to care
when your heart you can't share
it's hard to talk
when you don't know what to say
it's hard to walk
when you don't know which way
it's hard to laugh
when you feel like crying
it's hard to live
when you feel like dying

HURT LIKE THIS

you don't need to hurt like this
you don't need to feel this pain
if you've done something wrong
what could possibly be gained
from all this guilt?

you don't need to hurt like this
you don't need to shed more tears
you don't need to strive for approval
you don't need the added fears
try to relax

do you check with your heart
before taking action?
or do you sometimes act on impulse?
it's a common reaction
so get out of your prison
you don't belong there anyway
everything's okay

you don't need to hurt like this
you don't need to sigh and lament
from all the bad words thrown at you
from all the silent treatment
hold onto your love

you don't need to hurt like this
you don't need to dwell in the past
you can look to new things ahead
and the heartache will not last
just a memory

do you check with your mind
to see what you have learned
if so then a rewarding life
you will have earned
so get out of your prison
and start living today
your life's okay

WHAT?

well, I'm sitting here, life's out of control
and I don't know what to do
I try not to fear, I try to hold on
but I don't know what to do

why can't life be easier?
why the struggle to survive?
shouldn't it be more than this?
why do I not feel alive?

got to try not to worry, there's been too much stress
and I don't know what to do
need change in a hurry, my life is a mess
and I don't know what to do

if I could have the answers
to questions old and new
I'd see what lies ahead
and I could push through

but as it is, I lose every time
cos I don't know what to do
there's hers and his, but I can't find mine
and I don't know what to do
no, I don't know what to do
and I don't know
what
to do

LOVE (WHAT GETS ME THRU)

I watched the sunset
and tried to forget my feelings
I watched the moon rise
I saw my love's eyes in my mind

I walked in the dark
I noticed a spark
a special kind of light
but it fades and it moves
and it turns and it grooves
clear way out of sight

what is it that I feel now?
I don't know
is this love real now?
I don't know
and I can't figure out
if I should feel joy or despair
I'm starting to doubt
if the love was ever there

there are so many things
so many strings attached
odds are not there
it doesn't seem fair for me

you'd not go along
they said it'd be wrong anyway
so what is this fight?
what is the right thing to say?

what is it that I feel now?
I don't know
is this love real now?
I don't know
and lust is so strong
it clouds my judgement
it does me so wrong
I can't take a hint
maybe this is all a fantasy

so I sit here and pout
thinking about my future
don't know what's in store
but I know I need more in the future
dreams get too old
they can't all hold in the future
dreams let me down
dreams too profound about my future

and different times with different people
in the same old fight between good and evil
where do I stand? I don't want to fight
my face in my hands, all I do is cry

what is it that I feel now?
I don't know
is this love real now?
I don't know
but with all I've been through
a sea of emotion
laughter to tears
peace to commotion
I've got to believe
things will get better
I've been crying over love
what gets me through

EVERYBODY ELSE

everybody else has a car
everybody else can drive
everybody else has come so far
everybody else can feel alive
everybody else goes to work
everybody else can feel secure
everybody else calls me a jerk
everybody else is safe and sure
everybody else is girl and boy
everybody else is man and wife
everybody else thinks love’s a toy
everybody else has a life

when you felt all eyes on you
it was just a mirage
and they knew they were lied to
when you explained your collage
not too many pieces
you could fit together
not too much to say
except "how’s the weather"

everybody else is fun and games
everybody else is social club
everybody else puts me to shame
everybody else in the hot tub
everybody else talks up a storm
everybody else laughs at the joke
everybody else has sex as norm
everybody else will drink and smoke
everybody else will flirt, so cute
everybody else in friendly strife
everybody else will aim and shoot
everybody else has a life

when you waited for them
it was all in vain
they won’t wait for you
they won’t stand in the rain
so you waste your time
watching it go by
out of sight, out of mind
they won’t hear you cry

everybody else has a friend
everybody else has a love
everybody else follows the trend
everybody else will push and shove
everybody else gets his desire
everybody else stands for his rights
everybody else can start a fire
everybody else has special nights
everybody else ignores the gun
everybody else misses the knife
everybody else wrapped up in fun
everybody else has a life

everybody else has a life
everybody else has a life
everybody else has a life
everybody else has a life

BEYOND WORDS

see the smile on your face
see the look in your eyes
see myself out of place
as I wear a disguise
trying to be myself
while at the same time
putting past on the shelf
to just leave it behind
the day seems unreal
as I sing with the birds
the way that I feel
is beyond words

thought I might never love
didn’t know that I could
saw you standing above
any cloud where I’ve stood
I reach out my hand
hope you’ll be lifting me
so that where I now stand
I no longer will be
is this song for real?
It may seem absurd
but the way that I feel
is beyond words

heard you're going away
think I’ll be staying here
not much more to say
not much more that’s clear
if you could know this
it’s good while it lasts
this love that you miss
you went by so fast
If I shouted with zeal
you’d still not have heard
and the way that I feel
is beyond words

I AM HERE

you first said hi and there was feeling
then no goodbye but I am healing
can't help but cry cos that's my feeling
we're close--a lie--but that's my healing

but wounds don't heal that easily, hon
the clouds still manage to block out the sun
and since I'm dressed up with nowhere to go
you're doing who knows what, I thought you should know

I am here
if you ever need me
I am here
if you ever care
I am here
in case you're thinkin' about me
I am here
but you're there

you teased me awhile and I got upset
but I loved your smile so bad I'd forget
you couldn't see my ambition yet
you promised to me, but you would forget

but I can't forget how you make me feel
when I'm with you, my life is for real
but you've got a life that's far from me
I wish you could know, I wish you could see

I am here
if you ever need me
I am here
if you ever care
I am here
in case you're thinkin' about me
I am here
but you're there

so you dive into that big world
intertwined with thousands of others
I know you'll thrive in the real world
fit and aligned with thousands of others
I'll have to be strong in my own little world
watching you from under the covers
cos you belong in that other world
doing what you do with thousands of others

standing beside and watching the rest
I dream you're good, I dream you're the best
I can't be mad just cos you're not
I shouldn't have had such a moronic thought

I am here
if you ever need me
I am here
if you ever care
I am here
in case you're thinkin' about me
I am here
and life isn't fair

I am here
so think about it
I am here
as if you give a shit
I am here
and even here I don't fit
I am here

I am here

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