integer and angina you look so uneven from here sort of sex-bleached the seed of dawn still in your hair, in your eyes candle fiancee of the suburbs with spare parts to be disavowed and tenderized i see the echo in your eyes full of andante and a cocooning impishness white will-widow mother-of-pearl mother of bulls and milk head full of body job you deal in smuggled dreams czarina of immaculate contraception waltzing to girlish bathroom sounds mechanical pleasures and smiles daddy would be proud of you and i am sicerely yours prodrome scanning the didactic storm i can't believe it's not butter cancer of the hair jelly technology everywhere sorry, i have to have my teeth cleaned this weekend gang of biker mathematicians welcome to the monkey house we shan't go to the market today name was russell radical moderate into the commercial steam thruway my brother-in-law is also a poet as clean as i wanna be can't beat the feeling look there, a lil' dog i bet a job would put me out of business pure metaphysics to utter is obscurity whether wading in zen snow or watching a televized zen show by mule and ox-cart a case of altruistic nepotism reading is writing spreadable even when cold pure metaphysics lama or imam upholstered and unabridged the name of the game the mistake of victims iron rubber, lead glass rubber it's not fashionable to be over 30 these days in the name of a chinese proverb wholesale peasant checkmate needlework in army fatigue anemic arabesque soldiers running with kalashnikovs obliged to lounge tanktopped bodies satiate gothic chambers with sofas and futons and with an element of crime the more the merrier adorned with see-through jewelry my score's agrowin' psychological back seat congratulations, my condolences no title, none at all what we inhabit we salvage misinclined to show any propensity we are metabloc felons unignorant of impulses and isotopes artless in salience we run dives & saloons through the whole gamut of gender ideals in cast blissfully dormant we raft on the wings of our hyperkarma to dominance we patent abject cordiality we exert, venture and deride unlike the premarital the nominal scored rounds that we samba ideogram of ignition levantines bathe in travertine pools ie give them the full chassis & conduit attention wafer lips, aspic nipples ie join the car chase after their launch into full throttle mode their beauty like the laws of rituals from the codices of lost central asian fiefdoms and ie an arrogant argonaut no doubt / ie seek out their idea for a nimbal pedestal strictly arithmetic this is the season with its own horse sense and horse chestnuts ie sit in white apartments with large windows forgetting the linear beethoven stands naked in the park shivering dogs run after their toy balls thru the white leaves on the ground and below the drifting faint wild mushroom smell grey boulders record time it's the season to dream of half-sisters, color-coding and politics a season of mean melancholy thru the gamma arbour oh it's going to be easy and boring and difficult mobsters walking their pink pitbulls let's have one for the libido palm tree on my head oh man of man y faces my standing-up enzymes misfunction again from the other point of view let me introduce her no sweat i like orders and she cooks in white furcoat sinema saving storm between two points to lose yourself in the shortest path indeed just why should i be interested in myself plain reality yes, as far as the i can see the land's green and fertile and dry actually, equal part green and blue for the sky above it is just as much a part of it and the same size too dotted with occasional groves and farms the people unfettered and criminal relatives of circumstance their faces vaguely pleasant and unfamiliar chicken brandy, dust stew space extending into all directions the mind staggers jumpily, wearily land of all intangible dreams are limitless here too and unreal no nonsense oh happy happy prosody your fair dissonance kind of kind the emphatic squander late medieval am i not or aren't i? bridges to bridges between dots of ash- and locust-trees ash and locusts flourish oh power of power dada in reverse your dialectic mannerism never fell flat that it did, it did that early morning seed ie ain't no gentle woman you need not be afraid of me ie come in the morning my task is concise to be plucked and pruned the act is precise oh negative deja vu sex leering at quaint allusions with so-called syncopated myopia ie recontaminate feeling a bit ingested feeling some liquid trickle from the corners of my mouth and with the snout of a dreamy barrow ie dig into the morning's thighs and spill sleep's pills to proselytize definition song to have / or not to have the loafing won't let go of me like they say like i i- magine to be subcultured he'll sell you his body he will sell you his soul but his brain he'll drink away to be subcultured instead instead of homestead like tiny psychograms i hope not instead i stomp out my ungainly tango to our asymmetrical hearing this month, this long uralic yearning won't let go of me the delicate moment 's fast afasting and beyond and indelicate thoughts and to belong apparently i'm interested in you- r thoughts and beyond belong ball bounces, rebounds this definition song subharmonic paradise authentic illusions of eschatology even though we are committed to being retroactively happy still there are tasks to be administered paradigms to be egged on with great effort we learn to stagnate but even as we are sampling the new role as a global human-machine interface our experiences still seem near-real so we sing the anthem of compromise cheering with empty glasses the daily collateral sedatives already taken there is still self-righteousness to be practiced promises to go bankrupt addictions to be marauded and plundered crude social palimpsest on a thin cellophane the situation is more improbable every day circularly behind chaos schedule the blueprint needs to be reformatted every day since we are clumsy renegades of confident devices (listen) the reactionary prosperity will prove to be prognostic the more informer we are the greater our capacity for psychopaths there are schemes of booms to compensate for and a rampant affinity to overcome but faith friends if it doesn't happen by itself we can always force it a fucking anthill overly close & overly disconnected murmur of the city-sea spreading in front of us its lights scattered like pearls in its daylight mazes we are exceedingly well-coordinated dressed in moleskin puposed as cats holding on to pleats of translucent curtains these are the configurations were long lacking insight from pink to grey experimental ordinariness overly close & disconnected we could be reading about ourselves just the same like being at a party where everyone's there only to tell about it later and what the heck my lovely my so-called eco-terrorists but who is the joke on? who is the joke on? thought thing you see a man try to think the fish don't think cause the fish knows everything trying to think of some way out reason it away! fail better! make me sway! hold me to the letter! and one more thing ie'd rather think eden with its snails time is money / life's a show would you change the channel please! the telephone analytical the subtle web, taste-liberating beneath & behind / yarmulke & yashmak eden with its snails dances beyond technical skill from pink & grey between plates of ravioli and the cold sweat of limp scrotums looking for a way / to overoutplay behind draped windows people skip / shuffle around characters from so many soap operas psychosomatic anti-guerillas looking for a penetration into experience which would make for a distinguished & indistinguishable style rub it in this third degree burn planet mud makes another turn negative among the cycads, among the gerunds guesthosts play hide & seek as you reach / one end of your intention you might want to know which one it is? what the speculative criteria? and if the movie has a 'fuck-you' ending on the shelf with the anti-deodorants heaps of times and morals that sound, it's beethoven's nineteenth! or is it dj kissinger? don't change the channel please! ie can hear the ballastic red-cross missiles among the cycads, among the gerunds lingers a melancholic evil chimeric sandpipe, mascular dysentery lonesome department of lumberjacking somewhere on the spectrum of gunshops & baby shoes poet-pimp tends to his unnameable discharge partner, it's like this: "oh, your silver ring is so beautiful! would you mind taking it off? i'd like to take a picture of it ... oh, and i'll need the silver in it for the negative." when in doubt bring me your white elephants with a cheap smile practice your artificial diligence if you have to nothing is under-irregular if you queer it broccoli or broccoli & baseball bat just you take the right combination retrace the steps of this ratrace just which city of angels is it anyways? buster, this is serious thing does it say 'gorgeous mutilation', or 'generous melancholy'? can't even read the fucking sign the pristine facts are just that they are funny but not true and so not so / funny hell you need rights for? this is the royal people's bank or the brotherhood of ploy & scam the prior metaphysics is moot the ideomania dismissable but fear not comrade only the ratio and the ingredients are incorrect contemporary cellphones sring everywhere like so many birds, each with a different tune, a different pitch tropical topic a view ie could live with without ever getting bored of it people would talk in an objective, if proud, way (and manner) say a bay with bamboo huts a wooden pier, palm trees and silver sand between rocky outcrops and ie would lie in a long-hung swing and ie would lie if ie said otherwise ie have but one more wish: the there could well be here as well blessed with the curse ie am and everything ie touch see, think, feel and sense turns into words thus do the things of my inner & outer worlds ferment into these unsavoury curds then thicken into a lumpy stew as this curse of king midas turns into lines & stanzas regardless if it is the sea or the blessing of the full moon light ie have to pull in the fishhooked exploits of my life with an athletic approach like any other fisherman to capture / a slippery acrobatic sense and cook it into a frothing, seething stew my non-performing loan to you light washing, strong toweling so once advised me my favorite uncle one of my role models a bright, drunken & lost man which reminds me the highest praise ie ever received was when after one of the student concerts my music professor called me a real marxist composer whatever that might mean also when ie was just a kid the very same uncle told me that ie will make a first-class hooligan thereby greatly exasparating my poor mother well, the way ie look at it if you live by the road, you die by the road the ballad of good long john the story of good long john well, it needs to be told - written in capital letters in a style palin & bold - if it has to be written well good long john he wasn't - a very delicate man he ate his bread pudding lemon - with kohlrabi, garlic and ham and then one day he learnt about - the sages of calmer days his heart ached so & much - to learn their fitful ways all the where & when and then he drove to their forest temple - and though he wasn't too sharp he certainly wasn't too simple - he kept the engine running he kept the windows locked and then he saw the sages walking - for the very first time above their haloed heads - floated a smell of shampoo and he joined their slow-paced line and then his heart became content - he was a disciple all the fitful ways - now he could decipher and then tea time came and went - long john looked content he sipped his drink - and he went to sleep in the communal tent and then in the middle of the night - right thru the mosquito net good long john he jumped - and into his car he leapt and all that the sages heard - was what long john murmured "from their tea, these lovely folks, they left out the teabag their ways are fine, but so is mine, and i like my tea with a teabag." hysteron proteron a dog not pekingese - a courage not dutch don't slight the question - don't wear a grudge turnip, okra, apron - they burden the belly come to think of it - so does the telly auspicious signs - manifest in the sky suchness advances - spasmic and sly so whether you're a ninja - or whether you're uzbeg this time's as good as any - for finally to beg in the things you've been planning - for a long time be it tuna canning - or cardiac arrest presidential candidacy - or petiter crime sanatorial all you ill-at-ease or unwell or if you have a nasty indigestion heed these words of spiritual travel they have a fire / that will cleanse desire and pacify the restless mind not for play, not for purification not for the irony of iron but out of boredom, curiosity or duty guard your thoughts & guard your body you can never be too alert come to a halt, stop the thinking slow down your vital signs watch your step & watch your breathing be mindful & inanimate until your eyes go numb and hurt join the nimble chaingang of like-spirited fellows until you're all in step and your quick mood mellows chew 30 times then swallow there is no morning glory in it for you or just that / it's a sauna for the mind it will uproot the unwholesome sweat off and sort for thoughts for you and inspire a duty of insight and at night between a straw-mat and a wooden pillow when you are tossing take comfort it's the real thing it's the jack dee of mental flossing and on the last day of re-treatment you can congratulate each other but to exchange addresses you need not bother just say have a nice day optimal ie gotta get me a gig going this orchestral delirium it makes no sense - or difference why, ie don't even feel anything at all move over kenneth this is our nostra don't you mind that blood-sucking finch whatever the point, it's always debatable with a careening & persistant tug whatever it was ie was wanting some fruits just taste robustly bitter just don't eat them or don't complain find your lucrative hammock your reward will be swift and arduous like a man forcing melody from his unplucked guitar how so? put on that smug smile of yours sg as simple as life with the rhythm of windshield wipers sometimes we are indistinguishable from ourselves with all the inactive ingredients sy's just gotta be irresponsible in today's overorganized world to a disease sickness is so homely, fever is so snug, the comfort of a bed, the flavor of a drug. more addictive than sex, it's remedy in moderation, and cure-all in excess. as dark's another light, and ease leads to complacence, so disease makes us fight. a superior teacher, it liberates the soul with its physical bind. and enlightens the mind. by their mere existence musky at ease they prove a prowess a mishima humbling danger like lava the slow flow, the analgesic eyes beckon with an underwater inflection a merciful killing namely the hypnotic calmth of iguanas the muck of love lightly sweet / of young coconut milk as darkness is metonymy orchids & orchards engulf so underwater the motion, the emotion unsound so why come up for air? ultimate toothpaste not nice the auditory sciences on all fours none included intrepid the compost the idle fuses upscale (&?) ragged veteran of unemployability and in the kantian bathroom and foggy days pulled the plug deep what we sustain vascular detours interdisciplinary or monster of a tourist the luddite diaspora on drab benches the checks the deep music of no importance ok, but at least not equal please