Wednesday June 18, 1997 -- What if... |
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I'm doing the
Diary Collaboration today
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The Question (From the Meyhew Project What would you do if you had a steady source of money that was almost enough to support yourself? That is, you do not have to work full time, and you only need to earn a bit of money to top up the income. What would you do to earn money? What would you do with the rest of the time? Would you stay at your current job? This seemed like such a valid question for me now. I've realized I don't really like what I do, and tomorrow is Business Trip Day, out to out St.Louis customer. I've been thinking about it alot, lately, so I'm glad this is the topic. I think I can say that if I didn't need my current job to eat, I wouldn't do it. No way. I might consult, and program still, but just for spending money. And then only if I couldn't sell my writing. I don't have any writing to sell, yet, but I will, soon. [crosses fingers]. To me this question is really about work. How much do you like to work? How much do you really like your job? and is your Job work? I mean, work is something no one likes to do. We might like our job, but if we do, it doesn't feel like work. I've had jobs that didn't feel like work, at least for a time. I loved them, they were great: challenging, fun, hard, but exhilarating. My current job is sometimes like that. But even though I'm fairly good at my job, I don't like it. And the less I like it, the lower-quality job I do. And that's why I'm dreading St.Louis tomorrow, as I head off with something I'm not proud of, without really thinking about what I need to do or say. Unless I've really mistaken things, I might really screw up tomorrow. I could be wrong, I could be confused. I don't know. I'm not really proud of it. I just don't know if I care enough, anymore. Then the fear jumps in. What if you one day feel this way about writing? What then?
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