Entry for June 26, 1997

Thursday, June 26, 1997 -- New plans

Mom doesn't have cancer, but they are one test away from knowing what it is

One Day until I tell AJ I'm bi.
Six Days until my new demo.
Six Days to the next writer's meeting
Seven Days to my vacation in the mountains
Twenty-three Days till the picnic
I know, it's several days since I've written. Let me try to catch up...
Tuesday...
Got some real work done today, helped out by the addition of a Project Manager. He seems a nice enough fellow, even though he doesn't have any real technical experience. He knows the functional area, so he'll get along well with the veeps.
Me, I got a request for a haircut. At least they're paying for it. I guess growing it long again is out until I become a hippee writer. That's what I get for working for a company that has banks as customers. I love Charlotte. Not!
The AirConditioning at work is broken. It's 95 degrees outside. Around 2 or 3 it was too hot tothink in the office. This morning the Branch Manager told us we could wear shorts and a t-shirt to work tomorrow. Cool. Too bad none of mine are suitable for work. Well, the gesture was nice.
I talked to Azura tonight until almot a quarter to one. I wasn't even tired. I slept well though, I must have had really good dreams. Wednesday
The air is still broken at work, but I did get alot of work done. I can see the light, so it's getting close. I spent most of today bouncing off the walls, telling LadyDawn and Mikki about Azura.
We talked again tonight! Made more plans for the Independence day, and Azura decided to go to the picnic.
Now I'm finally excited about the picnic.
Thursday.
Those were my aborted attempts at journal entries. I'm a little worried about my writing. I wrote about 500 words on Tuesday, for the meeting next wednesday, but had trouble with that, and had real trouble composing a journal entry.
I'm not really sure why, since I still have alot of emotins. Most of them are positive. Thing are going decently well at work, and wonderfully at home. I've been spending alot of time talking to Azura, and I'm very glad of that. Mikki met her today, and liked her, as well. LadyDawn met her Monday or Tuesday night.
I can't wait for the four of us to ride up to the picnic in Indiana. That is going to be such a fun trip.
This weekend, I'm visiting my long lost friend AJ. She is going to introduce me to good friends of hers (Something more there? I must find out!) and tell her the secret I have put off for years telling her. I talked to her tonight, and told her i had something to tell her. I reminded her that we hadn't talked since the Christmas/New Years party 3 or 4 years ago. She reminded me that we'd had a short chance to talk at the one a year and a half ago. I remember that, she did a tarot reading for me. She's wiccan, did I mention that?
I told her then that I had something to tell her. I didn't want to tell her with K there. He is homophobic, and was an ex-roommate and good friend. (Ex-good friend, too. I just let the friendship die.] I've been letting AJ and my friendship die too. There is so much we need to talk about.
I think AJ has a good hint of what I'm going to say, or the sort of thing. I've got some hints about her too. Juicy gossip sometime...assuming it's something I can tell. This journal may be laid bare of my secrets, but I have to keep other people's...
The Supreme Court Unanimously overturned the CDA today! Huzzah! One more step towards a truly free society.
And that reminds me of a disturbing trend in Washington, these days. All our problems are presented in terms of children. This makes for good, emotional rhetoric, but does it really address the issuses? Do we really want to create a less free society just to protect our children from the slightest harm? Or should we look for a better way? I'm not saying..."Don't protect the children", I'm saying let's think before acting. And emotional rhetoric leads us away from real thought.
Ok, I don't have kids. I've been told that my attitudes will change when I have kids. Maybe so. I intend to teach my children to think. I want them to learn and reason. I'm going to give them the tools, to not fall for the traps that everyone else is merely trying to hide from the children. Am I idealistic? Probably. But I need to hope...

Generic Joe's A Typical Male

Thursday, June 26, 1997 -- New plans
Mom doesn't have cancer, but they are one test away from knowing what it is One Day until I tell AJ I'm bi. Six Days until my new demo. Six Days to the next writer's meeting Seven Days to my vacation in the mountains Twenty-three Days till the picnic		I know, it's several days since I've written. Let me try to catch up... Tuesday... Got some real work done today, helped out by the addition of a Project Manager. He seems a nice enough fellow, even though he doesn't have any real technical experience. He knows the functional area, so he'll get along well with the veeps. Me, I got a request for a haircut. At least they're paying for it. I guess growing it long again is out until I become a hippee writer. That's what I get for working for a company that has banks as customers. I love Charlotte. Not! The AirConditioning at work is broken. It's 95 degrees outside. Around 2 or 3 it was too hot tothink in the office. This morning the Branch Manager told us we could wear shorts and a t-shirt to work tomorrow. Cool. Too bad none of mine are suitable for work. Well, the gesture was nice. I talked to Azura tonight until almot a quarter to one. I wasn't even tired. I slept well though, I must have had really good dreams. Wednesday The air is still broken at work, but I did get alot of work done. I can see the light, so it's getting close. I spent most of today bouncing off the walls, telling LadyDawn and Mikki about Azura. We talked again tonight! Made more plans for the Independence day, and Azura decided to go to the picnic. Now I'm finally excited about the picnic. Thursday. Those were my aborted attempts at journal entries. I'm a little worried about my writing. I wrote about 500 words on Tuesday, for the meeting next wednesday, but had trouble with that, and had real trouble composing a journal entry. I'm not really sure why, since I still have alot of emotins. Most of them are positive. Thing are going decently well at work, and wonderfully at home. I've been spending alot of time talking to Azura, and I'm very glad of that. Mikki met her today, and liked her, as well. LadyDawn met her Monday or Tuesday night. I can't wait for the four of us to ride up to the picnic in Indiana. That is going to be such a fun trip. This weekend, I'm visiting my long lost friend AJ. She is going to introduce me to good friends of hers (Something more there? I must find out!) and tell her the secret I have put off for years telling her. I talked to her tonight, and told her i had something to tell her. I reminded her that we hadn't talked since the Christmas/New Years party 3 or 4 years ago. She reminded me that we'd had a short chance to talk at the one a year and a half ago. I remember that, she did a tarot reading for me. She's wiccan, did I mention that? I told her then that I had something to tell her. I didn't want to tell her with K there. He is homophobic, and was an ex-roommate and good friend. (Ex-good friend, too. I just let the friendship die.] I've been letting AJ and my friendship die too. There is so much we need to talk about. I think AJ has a good hint of what I'm going to say, or the sort of thing. I've got some hints about her too. Juicy gossip sometime...assuming it's something I can tell. This journal may be laid bare of my secrets, but I have to keep other people's... The Supreme Court Unanimously overturned the CDA today! Huzzah! One more step towards a truly free society. And that reminds me of a disturbing trend in Washington, these days. All our problems are presented in terms of children. This makes for good, emotional rhetoric, but does it really address the issuses? Do we really want to create a less free society just to protect our children from the slightest harm? Or should we look for a better way? I'm not saying..."Don't protect the children", I'm saying let's think before acting. And emotional rhetoric leads us away from real thought. Ok, I don't have kids. I've been told that my attitudes will change when I have kids. Maybe so. I intend to teach my children to think. I want them to learn and reason. I'm going to give them the tools, to not fall for the traps that everyone else is merely trying to hide from the children. Am I idealistic? Probably. But I need to hope...
Generic Joe's A Typical Male

Thursday, June 26, 1997 -- New plans

Generic Joe's A Typical Male