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A-Typical male's journal. |
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I'm trying to write a retrospective of my year. I've come a long way in the past year. I've gone from penniless, jobless, and alone to meeting Azura, my fiancee, and getting a good, well-paying job. The path has been rocky. I've made a lot of mistakes, but I'm happier now, for all I went through. Sure, I spent time in jail. Sure, I let my power and phone get cut off. Sure, I locked Maggie in the outside storage cabinet by accident. But I've come through that. I resolved my car driving problems that put me in jail, and ensured that I wouldn't have that problem again. Since Azura came, I haven't had any problems paying bills. And Maggie is fine: she might even have forgotten. But that's just a surface of my year. The things that stand out as I sit her in my office typing this entry. I've gone through a lot of worries and stress. I've put a lot of that here. I've also put a lot of happiness here too. This year, I've made progress towards an elusive goal to answer the question: "What do I want to do?" I still don't know, but I've been gathering clues that point me in a direction. Certainly the fact that I'm even going through this exercise says something about where I want to go, and my determination to arrive at that point. I feel like I grew up this year. I've got a ways to go to really grow up. But I'm starting to take the responsibily for what I do and I have the ability to make things right again. In the new year, I'll be getting married, and paying Dad back for all his help -- most of which came from last year, not this. If I hadn't grown up some, there would have been no way I could say yes to Azura's question that quiet moonlit October night. I knew, then, that things were different for me--and they were going to keep changing for the better. We are going to move again in a month or so, to a place that is going to become our home for awhile. Perhaps as long as we hope. We're both going to work on capturing our dreams. We've made plans for years ahead. Comfortable with each other, we have the patience to make them come true. Generic Joe's A Typical Male
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