Let's be grandparents, right now
We can start tonight
It's gonna take us a minimum
Of thirteen years
Before we can expect some results

"Disposable Love", Sam Bisbee

oh i know i should come clean
but i prefer to deceive
everyday i walk alone
and pray that god won't see me

"Digging Your Scene", Dr Robert

Mmm bop, ba dupa dop
Ba du bop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, ba duba dop
Ba du
Mmm bop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, ba duba dop
ba du bop, ba duba dop
Ba du

"MMMBop", I. Hanson, T. Hanson, Z. Hanson

In our fight against the end
Making love, we are immortal
We are the last two left on earth
And I was lost for words
In your arms
Attempting to make sense of
My aching heart
If I could just be everything
And everyone to you

"Not Enough Time", A. Farriss & M. Hutchenence

You turned the tap dance
into your crusade
Now here you are
with your faith
And your Peter Pan advice
You have no scars
on your face
And you cannot handle pressure

"Pressure", Billy Joel

I know I've pushed my luck
So many times
I'm slippin' slowly now
Loosin' track, of my mind
Well this shadow I've become
Will step out to meet the sun

"One Last Try", Howard Jones

***

You were the one who refused to give up
You were the one who lifted us, lifted us off our knees
Now it's our turn to give you some help
Fresh air that's just what you need
Not the stale bread from the failing bitter table
It's so hard
Where's the justice we cry
It's there and will follow us 'til the day we die, 'til
The day that we die

"Fresh Air Waltz", Howard Jones

***

Three-thousand doorways
Reveal a thousand more
Treasure each moment
forevermore...
I promise to love you
And do my best for you
I need you to help me
To find my strength
And walk with me
All though my life
My lover, My Husband, My Wife
Share this journey with me

"Wedding Song", Howard Jones & Andy Ross

**

But all this talk is only poetry
Only as true as we would believe
We must live to fight the negative
Not to court the self
in defeat

"Elegy", Howard Jones

**

Demolition by words
wrecked all over town
Working for one break
Head down, passed out
You always tell me
I'm just one more thing to hide

"One More Thing to Break", Freedy Johnston

This is the book I never read
These are the words I never said
This is the path I'll never tread
These are the dreams I'll dream instead

"Why", Annie Lennox

And the preacher he stopped preaching
And a hush the church did fill
And then a great white dove from up above
Landed on the window sill
And the dove flew down beside him
And a fork appeared right in his hand
 And with everybody watching
The preacher ate that bird
right there and then

"Church", Lyle Lovett

For the nine months I carried you
Growing inside of me
No charge
For the nights I sat up with you, doctored you, prayed for you
No charge
For the time and the tears and the cost of the years
There's no charge
When you add it all it up, the full cost of my love is
No charge

"No Charge", (attributed only to) Ball

Whil young girls fangs
And crystal wrists
Wait patiently
For me to twist
I look away
To distant rains
To water falls
And honey days
And boys in black
And blue rinse eyes
Gaze whistly at my slender thighs

"Crystal Wrists", Peter Murphy

i used to know my right from wrong
i used to never be afraid
i used to be somebody
i used to have something inside
now just this hole that's wide open
i used to want it all
i used to be somebody
i'll cross my heart and hope to die
but the needle's already in my eye

"Down In It", Trent Reznor

Lighten up
Baby
On my love
Lighten up
Like summer & ices
And stars above
This month'll soon be gone
These blues linger on
It's the time of the month

"The Descent of Luna Rose`", Laura Nyro

There's a few straight guys I know
They wanna know who plays the woman's role
I shake my head and say it's not like that
Some guys have the imagination of a doormat
Our roles are not cast in stone
We trade off getting boned
Cause we're versatile

"Versatile", Jon Ginoli

On the hottest night of the summer
On a sticky, steamy street
I was glowing like the sunset
I knew how happy we could really be
Your suntanned body stretched out
on the carpet
in front of me
I know as long as I live
I'll never lose that memory
Well I guess I shouldn't say no more
You can do what you want to do
I just had to say,
I really wanted you

"I Really Wanted You", Jon Ginoli

Working in that big department store
Wishing we could spend our days outside
Taking our breaks at the same time
It felt like more than friendship was on the line
Talking for hours upon end
I was someone you could relate to
Daily you were dropping king size clues
You had me going, I was going hard for you

"The Summer You Let Your Hair Grow Out", Ginoli and Freeman

***

Pet Shop Boys

For everything I long to do
no matter when or where or who
has one thing in common too:
It's a sin
It's a sin
Everything I've done
Everything I ever do
everyplace I've ever been
It's a sin

"It's A Sin", Tennant/Lowe

***

Don't tell me
What to draw, what to paint
Who to sleep with, what to think
What to film, what to see
What to watch, who I can be
How to talk, what to eat
What to read, what to write
What I want, what I need
How to look, who I can be
Don't lay your morality on me
And you don't have to prick me
I bleed anyway

The politics of dancing
The politics of, ooo, feeling good
The politics of moving
Is this message understood?

***

You're the only thing that sobers me up
And keeps me always trying
It may look bleak but I can't be weak
And go with more crying
Each moment I search it won't get worse...
So when will I stop denying
Give up these lies
Time's ticking by,
As I watch this body dying
I'm gonna get some answers

***

I lie down in a river of blood
go to the edge and die a thousand times
look to the viscous barrier
I might end, I might heal this night
at the point beyond which something will happen
at the point beyond which something will occur

***

Smashing Pumpkins

with the headlights pointed at the dawn
we were sure we'd never see an end to it all
and i don't even care to shake these zipper blues
and we don't know
just where our bones will rest
to dust i guess

"1979", Billy Corgan

***

Don't show me faded photographs
Just tell it from the heart
And after all that we've been through
Don't you know I feel for you
We've got nothing in common
 so much to lose

"Nothing in Common", Tom Bailey and Alannah Currie

***

2 Pac

When I was sick as a little kid
To keep me happy
There's no limit to the things you did did...
There's no way I could pay you back
But my plan is to show you that I understand
You are appreciated

"Dear Mama", T. Shakur, J. Sample, T. Pizarro

***

Bonnie Tyler/Nikki French

Every now and then,
I know you'll never be the boy you always wanted to be
Turn around
Every now and then
I know you'll always be the only boy who wanted me the way that I am
Turn around, bright eyes...
I don't know what to do
I'm always in the dark
We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks...

"Total Eclipse of the Heart", Jim Steinman

***

Midge Ure

With every waking breath I breathe
I see what life has dealt to me
With every sadness I deny
I feel a chance inside me die
Give me a taste of something new
To touch, to hold, to pull me through
Send me a guiding light that shines
Across this darkened life of mine

"Breathe", Midge Ure

***

Hank Williams

I'm not gonna worry
wrinkles in my brow
'Cause nothin's ever gonna be all right no how
No matter how I struggle and strive
I'll never get out of this world
alive

"I'll Never Get Out of this World Alive", Hank Williams/Fred Rose

***

XTC

I won't believe in heaven and hell
No saints, no sinners, no devil as well
No pearly gates, no thorny crown
You're always letting us humans down
The wars you bring, the babes you drown,
those lost at sea and never found
And it's the same the whole world 'round
The hurt I see helps to compound
That father and son and holy ghost
Is just somebody's unholy hoax
And if you're up there, you'd percieve
that my heart's here upon my sleeve
If there's one thing I don't believe in
It's you...
Dear God

"Dear God", Andy Partridge

***

Yaz

In his face age decends on youth,
exaggeration on the truth
He caught me looking then
but soon his eyes forgot
And everything he seems to do
reflect just another shade of blue
I saw him searching into you
and ached a while

"Ode to Boy", Alison Moyet

***

I'll come to you at night
When all the world is sleeping tight
And lie beside you,
till the early morning dew
You can't hear me, you can't see
But you can feel me when you readthat she left addressed to you
I'm Mr. Blue
And I'm here to stay with you
And no matter what you do
When you're lonely,
I'll be lonely too

"Mr. Blue", Vince Clarke

***

Novel Thoughts

The brilliance of a book edited down to a line or two

**

"Don't Panic"

- "The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy", Douglas Adams

**

"What is life but a temporary victory over that which causes ourinevitable death?"

- "The Road to Wellville"

**

"It is a mistake to think you can solve
any major problems just with potatoes."

- "Life, the Universe and Everything", Douglas Adams

**

"Never pick up a baby to kiss it... They always puke on you,
and somebody always gets a picture"

- "Debt of Honor", Tom Clancy

**

"Thank you, Sisters, from the heart of my bottom!"

- "Colossus" from "Incarnations", Clive Barker

**

"He was a lovely boy.  Your heart went
out to him: he found a way to make you do that.  And no,
Luther"-- she wagged a finger at the reverend-- "it wasn't
exploitation.  I don't think it was ever about
domination, having his way.  It was about
needing, and just getting off on
being close.  He got as much pure pleasure out of
just being there, touching, bein' touched, watchin',
hangin' out, as any man I ever knew"

- "Primary Colors", Anonymous

**

"Panic"

- "Mostly Harmless", Douglas Adams

**

Poetry Arcade

Snippets of sonnets and the like

***

Allen Ginsberg

Sunflower Sutra

...How many flies buzzed round you innocent of your grime, while you cursed the heavens of the railroad and your flower soul?
Poor dead flower? when did you forget you were a flower? when did you look at your skin and decide you were an impotent dirty old locomotive? the ghost of a locomotive? the specter and shade of a once powerful mad American locomotive?
You were never no locomotive, Sunflower, you were a Sunflower!
And you Locomotive, you are a locomotive, forget me not!
So I grabbed up the skeleton thick sunflower and stuck it at my side like a scepter, and deliver my sermon to my soul, and Jack's soul too, and anyone who'll listen...

***

Arthur Rimbaud

Phrases

When the world has been reduced to a single gloomy wood for our four astonished eyes, - to one beach for two faithful children, - to one musical house for our pure harmony, - I shall find you.
Let there be here on earth only a single old man, calm and beautiful, surrounded by an "unheard-of luxury," - and I am at your knees.
Let me have realized all your recollections, - let me be the girl who knows how to tie you up, - I shall choke you...

***

...And lastly, I offer you this gem:

E. E. Bradford

The Tree of Knowledge

...The lusty lad, more lightly dressed
Rolled up his sleeves and bared his chest,
A sister served: the boy returned.
A ball came bounding back and burned,
As if red hot, her dainty cheek.
She cried and reaved. Ray did not speak,
But let the girls, like angry bees,
Swarm round and sting them at their ease;
And when they all had said their say,
He simply bowed, and strolled away.

Before you think me insane for that last one let me tell you where it came from: A book called "Very Bad Poetry". Truly a horrendous collection. If you ever see it around, poke through it.

***

Something About Them

Robin Williams

"Tonight Show: 9.28.98"

On reincarnation:
"Life's a bitch and then you die and then you die and then you die"

Before this section continues, I offer the following quote and my own, personal rebuttal:

"I don't want to be labeled as 80's bashing, but it
was all fucking crap back then, wasn't it?  People
out there are a lot more passionate about music now.  You
can't get passionate about Howard fucking Jones, can you?"

---Paul Weller as quoted in the Dec. '97 edition of "Vox"

Ahem, yes Paul, some people were quite passionate about their music in the 80's. While I am a total fan of Mr. Weller's work, from the Jam right on up to "Wild Wood" (his last two albums were kinda lame, funny enough), maybe Mr. Weller should remember that passion goes beyond "trendiness", and Howard Jones has been steadily crafting albums since 1981. Thank you for your opinions, but Howard is still God, while you are merely talented.

And now back to my regularly schedualed silliness

Betty White

Entertainment Weekly: Did you catch a cold from spending so much time in the water?
Betty White: No, the water was kind of lukewarm- which
worried me a little with that many people in it
EW: You're an outspoken animal lover.
 Would you rather have a sweater from the original
sheep or the cloned Dolly?
BW: When you're built like I am,
you probably need a sweater from each.

If you just haven't had enough of me yet, then get your butt back to Grand Mental Station.

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