Suppose I told you I wanted to kill myself. Would you even take the time to listen?
Uttering these words would be a foolish act. You wouldn't even turn your head. Instead You'd be fidgiting in your seat, wondering how much longer you're stuck there. "Can I go yet?" is all that's on your simple mind. Leave, then, if you don't care. I'll just stay here, to ponder over my meaningless dilema. So go, enjoy yourself. Don't worry about me. I'll be fine. If you can't find me when you get back, don't worry. Either I'm dead or alive. But don't bother your pretty head over my silly life.
Running
I went running.
Running away from life. Life causes problems. Problems seem to find me. Me and you. You are old news. News is never good.
I went running. Running and looking. Looking and thinking. Thinking about my next move. Move to where it's nice. Nice is a state of mind. Mind over matter. Matter of fact. Fact is I'm gone.
I went running. Running to forget. Forget about it all. All that matters. Matters not to me.
My Wish
One day the world will see me, they will know me, they will want me. They will see my true worth and my true power. They will know what I once was and regret what they once were. They will remember the chances they had, the opportunities and they will look back in shame. In shame of how they treated me and my life. They will regret knowing what they passed up for something better, only at that time. They will remember the pain they brought into my life, the misery, the suffering. They will hang their heads in shame of their remembrances. I will be there to laugh, mock, and scorn them. I will be there to inflict the pain and misery on them, that they once inflicted on me. I will be there to show them what they can't have, what they once had the opportunity to have. I will be there to see the look of regret upon their faces. I will be there to watch, listen and enjoy their suffering. I will feel my power grow as I watch them suffer in pain and misery. Pain and misery that they once gave me. I will be there to watch every second and cherish it all as I take it in. Then, I will die happily and peacefully.
English
I look at my clock: 12:30 a.m. I stare back at my paper. I notice that it is staring at me. It's waiting for me to crumble. Its eyes glare at me, trying to convince me that I can't write. It knows I can't write, and I agree, but I continue to show no fear. I force my eyes away from my paper and back to the clock: 12:35 a.m. I have to do my essay! The paper flashes me a wicked grin. I wad it in a ball and watch my cat kill it.
Greed
I was on my way to my car when a man jumped out of the darkness. He tackled me down to the solid tar and held me so I was motionless.
I tried to scream in rage, but no one was nearby to hear. Trapped, unlike a bird in a cage, and down my face ran a tear.
I tried to fight with my feeble power, but he held tighter and pinned me down. Above my body he stood like a tower and out of fear, I didn't make a sound.
He came down closer to me, to steal from me and went for what he came for. He was so close I couldn't see, and my future I couldn't ignore.
His job was almost over, but yet he was hungry for more. In my life he had made a cut and lemon juice on it would be poured.
He left me lying in the darkness, to wallow in my shame. Once again I was motionless because I was to blame.
Me
abuse me break me crucify me disect me erect me fuck me gut me hurt me inject me jack me kiss me lust me make me not me open me penetrate me quaff me rape me split me tempt me untie me vacate me wake me xylon me you me zap me
Disgrace
Just because you think you're cool doesn't mean you are. Oddity is what scares you, normality draws you near. Conformity is what makes you who you are. King of the school you are, or so you think.
