So different, yet the same, attracted, unsure of the others game. Feelings strong, unusually deep, haunting thoughts, invading sleep. Comfortable? Confused? Longing? Friendship abused? Scared of less, wanting more, is it time, to open the door? See what happens? let things be? allow emotions, to be set free? or to do, what I do best? destroy the thoughts, lay the emotions to rest. But can I keep doing that? just destroy my feelings, or will the ultimately destroy me? I dont know.. Scared to ask for more, yet wanting, needing, craving. Companionship, tenderness, one to hold, even to love, Is that wrong? even if it is a friend? Am I betraying her? Is it wrong, to feel as I do? for one, much younger than I, yet mature beyond her years, that even I forget at times, and speak to her as an equal. I hardly know her, its foolish to feel this way. heading for another fall, maybe, maybe not, I dont know, After writing this, will I be able to look her in the eyes? or just look down and away? Time will tell, I know she will read this, maybe she feels the same, probably not, will this change things? I dont want to lose what little I have, to risk the friendship, my hands shake as I write, lips tremble, head aches, eyes burn, feeling wrong for doing this, but knowing it needs to be done, unsure whether to reveal it, or burn it? Confusion, the insane dance of the heart and mind, whirling maelstrom of thought and emotion, battle for supremacy. looks like the heart won, if your reading this now. Please dont judge me harshly, for feeling this way, I cant help it, despite my protests, I am human after all, subject to all human frailties, needs, wants, desires. I am sorry to do this to you, the possessor of my soul. If these feelings are unrequitted, please make no mention of it, and know when all is said and done, worst comes to worst, I am your friend, and shall remain so, regardless............