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HUH?
I just finished watching Before Sunrise (ya know...ethan-julie. smooch smooch yah yah) and it was basically TOTALLY different from Get Shorty ( chilly: Look At Me). I’m talking about the mellow Vienna setting with no action what so ever. The mushy stuff in life. It got me thinking (as ethan hawke always gets me doing..) what’s out there for me? I’m so curious yet so scared. Even uncompassionate about it. But I know somehow I’ll try to direct myself away from the path of nothingness to what I dream of......but fate has me tied down in a way. I won’t say it, but fate leads your life in a direction. But I don’t know if you can control that direction. Sure everyone says shit like you take control, it’s your life.....you’re in power. BlahBlah shit. Sure all that motivation may work, but when it all subsides down fate takes over and drives you somewhere. where? I guess you need that total 24/7 motivation awareness going on......they should do these experiments based on something like this. Keeep the motivation flowing even before babies are born....have mom give little fetus pep talks everyday till the damn baby oozes with direction and perservirence. God. why didn’t my parents do that? My mom believes in letting alone and making me find my own path. Uh...just like where do I go. I’m stuck here in a warp zone looping around me over and over and over......like deja vu for the past 10 years already. So is this how I can tell when I am an adult? When by chance I could be suckled out of this wormhole but then placed in a boring never ending line leading- no where. gee....where does it end start pause? if ever. Hmmmm... the most important thing in life is getting by it. if you do, you can die in peace. but if you just stop and crap on everything there is, then that doesn't do anything. it's important to do what you've always "dreamed" of doing. not something that you think you were meant to do, like a doctor, lawyer, technician, bill gates... even if you wanna do that-hey i don't have a problem with that. WHAT!!
yesterday i got to watch Trainspotting....the movie. it’s weird cuz i wrote it down on
paper as one of the movies to get as my mom headed off to Blockbuster, and miracuously my mom got it. I guess that night’s
theme was "get each one their own movie." It was like.....whoa.... It’s one
of those movies you’ll never forget about a guy named Mark Renton whose trying to
get off heroine and be free. But something always happens and he always ends up getting
a hit of some sort. There was Spud, Sick Boy, and Besbie.....spud was hilarious. But i
didn’t get a scene he was in....hmm, it’s too graphic anyways. Sick Boy was cute. And
Besbie was a complete asshole. Trainspotting was cock full of curses, especially
"fucking." When my mom saw just the beginning she was disgusted, that’s how many
times the word fucking came into play for the first few minutes. The music was great in
the movie....but i think i could have survived without seeing Iggy Pop prance around half naked in his pleather pants in the beginning. The characters accents
were amazing but sometimes thick that you didn’t know what they were saying. Half the time i heard "blahblahblahFUCKblahblahFUCKblahFUCK". It was
also filled with shit violence, from Besbie. that's what made him an asshole....he thinks
he’s always right and he’ll slash anyone who just pisses him off. I’ll always remember the
part where they show Renton going in the "worst TOILET in scotland"- that was funny.
And the weird part was that there was this scene in which he actually goes IN the toilet. No
joke. you have to see it to believe it. great movie........ya bloody swank
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