A Happiness

Today I walked with a gleem in my eye, cool winds blowing in my hair and shared with the warmth of happiness. Tingling lips exposed I knew I was smiling the whole time - my legs gave it away, tender thighs wobbly as I slipped and slided across the trail, falling on by butt in some hypnotic trance. *laughing*

She entered my life long ago. Gawwd we were silly, carefree and so passionately in love - both crazy too. Ours was one of those relationships where there was ....only a deep understanding and appreciation of the other - acceptance. Together we timelessly roamed always returning to each other; not out of sense of duty, more out of wanting / needing to share what each of us had discovered...knowing we fed each other. It was our nourishment and sustainance. Thinking back - while we said "I Love You"...it always meant more when we caught each other smiling. Then we looked at each other knowingly - like drums signalling in the night.

I never once gave her a gift... since...being sentimental... I preferred instead to share a lovely wildflower, lay in the tall grasses making a dandelion bracelet for her or speaking of some other little girl treasure lost in time. Once, when things were difficult between us, we went to a distant mountain lake. We were going to determine how long we should stay together by the number of times we skipped rocks across the water (in years or so I thought - turned out to be months). My smile today is because I remember that time. We stayed the entire day...I do not remember how many skips we achieved....I do remember watching her by the waters edge, reflections dancing on her face, the way she tightly curled her lips before tossing a rock, her auburn coloured hair swirling majestically and the look on her face when the tiny pebbles sunk rapidly into the depths without skipping. After a while it mattered little if the pebbles skimmed the murky waters...happiness was the moment. The image of her that day is forever ingrained upon my mind. Today, both she and I know where each other is....though we do not toss pebbles across the pond for each other anymore.