Why do things happen?
We all know they have a reasoning behind whatever it may be..
But that reason,
never really is all that clear..
So we throw in what we think the reason is..
Do friends get shot by other friends,
to show that pain is real?
Or are they trying to show they know how to "handle" a gun?
I know,
they're trying to show their "true friendship" to cover up their stupidity..
Aren't they?
Well then why does death happen?
Does it happen because we do things wrong,
and "ask" for it?
Does it happen to kill the loved ones of that person?
Or does it happen to make us think?
To make us go insane from thinking and analyzing it too much..
If all of this is from just death and friends,
then when will the happiness come into play?
Do we -really- know what happiness is?
Or is it just a mask?
Is it only an answer only someone of the deceased,
or very young in age can answer?
I can't give anyone my prospective of happiness..
Because I only experienced it until the end of my time in elementary,
until just recently..
Too long of a time for someone my age to be sad..
I did learn in my sadness how to have fun while around people,
but forgot how to cry when I needed to..
Dreams are just a fantasy,
that we one say either want to live,
or someday forget.
A majority of mine I have forgotten,
but two hang around in my thoughts..
And I pray,
that they very soon perish..

Written by: AJ on 06-08-2000