1. "No one can make you feel inferior without your consent." -Eleanor Roosevelt
..People always try to put me down.. like I have no feelings to my name.. believe it or not, I have feelings.. I just don't show them at all.. I let people know when I get hurt because I tell them how I feel.. I tell them regardless.. but it still hurts.. I'm one of those people or girls or whatever that don't show emotion.. since about age 10.. I have forgotten how to show my feelings, and when I got depressed for so long.. I'd forgotten how to cry.. the last real time I can remember crying is when Mat got shot.. yeah, I cried last night.. but that was nothing major enough and nobody saw it, only person that knows about it, is Angie.. she knows why I did it too.. but back to subject.. I refuse to let anyone see me cry.. I only let people see me laugh and smile.. nothing else..
*2. "Self-acceptance means that the individual fully and unconditionally accepts himself whether or not he behaves intelligently, correctly, or completely and whether or not other people approve, respect, or love him." -Albert Ellis
..This was the second out of three that I did in front of the class.. I have never exactly 'accepted' myself until recently.. I have always seen myself as this wretched person that could nor would everbe happy, I've always hated what I saw in the mirror, I wanted to change everything.. every time someone said soemthing "mean" to me, I would go home and cry in my room.. I had it fixed in my mind that no one loved me or cared for me.. and I gave myself to the guys to feel good.. until last year.. I finally accepted the fact that I am who I am and I can't change that.. I love myself now, I am happy with myself.. I don't care about what I look like.. if people have to accept me for my looks, fuck 'em.. I can do better.. now I have someone who does love me and he don't mind showing that..
3. "Of all judgements that we pass in life, none is as important as the one we pass on ourselves, for that judgement touches the very center of our existence." -Nathaniel Branden
..Like I've said before.. my judgement about myself has never been the best.. I've alway taken other peoples opinion of myself over my own.. until recently.. I finally have someone to help me accept myself.. instead of getting upset when someone "picks on me", I just joke back with 'em and it helps me.. dunno how, but it does..
4. "Why must I suffer for not being perfect when I can be good enough." -Sheldon Kopp
..I've always wanted to make myself suffer for not being "prefect".. but then I grew up, and got a personality and I made peace with myself.. I had so many people helping me win my strenght back over too..
5. "I stand and listen, head bowed..
       to my inner complaint.
       Perosns passing by think
       I am searching for a lost coin.
       You're fired, I yell inside
       after an espically bad episode.
       I'm letting you go without notice
       or terminal pay. You just lost
       another chance to make good.
       But then I watch myself standing at the exit,
       depressed and about to leave
       and wave myself back wearily,
       for who else could I get in my place
        to do the job in dark, airless conditions?
                        -David Ignatow, "Self Employed"
..This one's gonna be intresting.. I've had so many battles within myself.. and it always seemed like so many times, I'm the one that lost and the evil won.. there were so many suicide attempts, and one time.. it nearly happened.. I'm really lucky Jackson found me when he did.. had he not, I would've bled to death.. the suicide attempts did nothing more for me then a lesson in Psychology did.. and the suicide attempts left me with pain.. a pain that I never want to experience again.. it hurt me so much.. as well as the people who love me.. the last thing I want to see again is a dream, where I'm looking at myself, laying there in a hospital bed.. with people surrounded around me.. crying, one screaming.. that was enough in itself to scare the living shit outta me.. soemthing that I really and truely care not to ever experience again..
7. "I exist as I am- that is enough;
     If no other in the world be aware, I sit content;
     And if each and all be aware, I sit content."
                       -Walt Whitman, "Song of Myself"
..I am who I am.. plain and simple and anyone that doesn't get that.. I can look in the eye and say "Kiss my ass then".. If someone can't except me for who I am, then okay.. that's their choice.. "Get to know me before you judge me.." I'm content with myself no matter what anyone else thinks.. I'm happy with the person I am today no matter what anyone else thinks.. they think what they will of me, and I think what I will of myself..

*Bare in mind that these are my experiences.. if you have anyone you'd like to share with me.. email them to me and I'll read them and post them one here for you.. laters!